“You ready?” I looked up as Brian stuck his head into my dressing room. I stood up and took a last look in the mirror, grabbed my baseball hat and turned around. “Yeah, let’s go.” I turned the hat around and shoved it on my head. “Nick….”

I sighed, knowing the tone of Brian’s voice. “What now.” I stopped as I walked past him and looked at him. “You know Kevin will throw a fit if you’re wearing a hat. It’s an interview Nick, you’re supposed to look professional.”

I looked at him, feeling the anger bubbling up, and tried to stay calm. “I’m just as professional as anyone else in this group, and if A.J. can change his hair colour every other day and appear on TV, then I sure as hell can wear a baseball hat.” Brian sighed and shrugged his shoulders, “Whatever man, I was just trying to keep you from getting bitched out by him again.”

I took a deep breath and put a fake smile on my face. “I’m sorry dude. I’m just stressed out and tired. I think I need a vacation.” Brian laughed at that comment. “It’s our first interview for the new album and you need a vacation.” He punched my shoulder as we walked towards the set. “Wait for a couple months anyway. Then you can have a break.”

Wait a couple months…then you can have a break…the words rang in my head as I sat down on the couch on the set, avoiding the glares Kevin was throwing my way like I knew he would. I wasn’t sure I could wait a couple months, I wasn’t sure I wanted to wait at all anymore. I was close to a breaking point that none of the guys knew about and I wasn’t sure what I was going to do about it.