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hurt

hurting i drop to me knees
asking for a forgiveness form a god i can't see
hurting i break down and plead
tears that keep flowing my angers now showing

can't belive that it will be worse
can't see that it's not the worst
can't belive how much it hurts
deep in the place you can't see

bleeding i call out your name
searching for the drugs that will cure all my pain
bleeding i stand up again
looking for a path that can lead me away

can't belive that it will be worse
can't see that it can get worse
can't belive how much it hurts
deep in the pace you can't see

so this is whats its like
so this is what its like
so this is what its like

can't belive how much you hurt



fading away

wretching within
twisting throughout
pushing and pulling
will it never let up

gagging and gulping
searching for air
pausing for praying
wish this feeling was gone

fading away from you
running from faces i thought i knew
when push comes to shove
who will be there
who will be there

screaming to no one
cuz no one would care
slowly stop breathing
the will to live disappears

wandering aimless
in my private hell
the same song is playing
it was always my fault

fading away from you
running from faces i thought i knew
when push comes to shove
who will be there
who will be there



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i tear the pages
from the book
of time
and let them fall
to the ground
faded pics of
you and me
growing distant
memories of
what used to be
the music in my head
plays louder now
so i can try
to forget you
try to forget me too
no one understood
why i loved you
and now they can't
believe that i don't
there's many more days
still left to go by
and it takes all i have
just not to cry
and i see you smile
as you walk away



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you pray to fallen statues
broken peices on
the floor
shattered glass to
match your
shatterd dreams
daisy petals on the ground
he loves me, loves me not
loves me not
voices shouting
that you can't hear
all seem to call your name
you're drowning
i'll see you at the bottom of the sea



nothing to see

it's not hard to see
that there's nothing here to see
can you believe
it's only me
don't try to find the
hidden me
the otherside
the one beneath
because it's not what i
want you to see
we all have an image
we try so hard to keep
why do we try so hard
to hide the inside
but it's allright
i'd rather you
not see me upset
i'd rather not
let the world see my scars



counting stars

i have to stop
i have to turn
you make me think
but i still feel a burn
outside cools me down
you heat me up i wonder where you are tonight
i count the stars
and let myself dream
i want to call and say i hate you
i't'd be better off that way
leave my feelings in the door
cuz i love you
and it hurts too much
and i care too much
and you don't care at all



reading by moonlight

i go home/ i want to cry/ it's just another day/ it's just another night/ sitting near the window/ reading by moonlight/ the stars remind me/ of all the days gone/ days when i used to sit and dream/ days where i was still myself/ but now all i see is you/ reflecting off of me/ i just want to be myself again/ how much is that to ask/ last night i held a razor to my wrist/ pulled a pillow over my face/ i'm still not sure what held me back/ but i know it wasn't you/ anymore/ the stars remind me/ of all the days gone/ days when i used to sit and dream/ days where i was still myself/ but now all i see is you/ reflecting off of me/ i just want to be myself again/ i'm tired of your silly games/ that i never wanted to play/ anyways/ i just have to look away/ so i can remember how i used to be/ before you/ and how i will be now/ i finally decide to turn on a light/ put some motovation into the life/ that isn't worth it anymore



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the waves swallow
my doubts and fears
but i still feel alone
taste the salt
and taste the pain
can you hear your life
falling past

the boats sinking fast
and nothing matters
the boats sinking fast
and no one cares
no one cares

it's times like these
that make me
not afraid to dream
it's places like this
that make me remember
and it's people like you
that make me care



happiness

i find happiness in bottles
and consolation in my tears
my problems float away with the smoke
and leave me empty for awhile

i wish someone would sit with me
and drink away my fears
the people that you love the most
are the ones who leave too soon

all the magazine's boast way's to 'find yourself'
i flip past cuz i'm too scared of me
there are times where i don't mind dying

i tired of caring what people think
but what would they think if i left



lifeless

i want to rip my heart out
squeeze it lifeless
watch it flop
and feel me die

remember nights
with cotton candy clouds
against a clear blue sky
slowly giving way to light
like i give way to you

it's hard to understand
how i feel and why i do
the scissors aren't sharp enough
to follow all this through
but still i'll try

i draw a heart on my ankle
to remind me to love
but it's black
and makes me feel hate

people wonder why my songs are dark
i think i'm tired of the light
i don't have a death wish
i'm just bored with life