here's a ton of lyrics/poems i've written, don't judge too harshly, they took forever to type!!!
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leaving the world behind

she turned away to hide the tears / trying to avoid her fears / the wheels turning make the distance / the time goes by but she doesn't notice /
goodbye's too hard to say / that's why i won't be telling you tonight / i'll be gone before the sun hits your eyes to dry the tears / i'm leaving the world behind /
the street signs show the way away / tracing the maps with shaky hands / her eyes close with the setting sun / only an hour left /
goodbye's too hard to say / that's why i won't be telling you tonight / i'll be gone before the sun hits your eyes to dry the tears / i'm leaving my world behind /
oncoming headlights are blinding / shutting out the light she swearves /
goodbye's too hard to say / that's why i won't be telling you tonight / i'll be gone before the sun hits your eyes to dry the tears / i'm leaving my world behind /
brighter lights are flashing now / as they take her body away / nothing left to say /
too late for goodbye



pretend

you stare into my eyes
but dance around the meaning
you let yourself bleed pretending the
world cares that you hurt
pretending there's someone to save you
looking past my soul but you'll
never know the lies i hide within
so instead of understanding you cut
a little deeper. trying to feel
anything again
salted tears run down my face
although you'll never see them cuz
you're staring through me
pretending not to see me all over again
you're praying to the god you don't
believe in anymore, to fix you up, to mend you
make everything allright
and while i stand before you
promising to be there til the end
my voice is drowned out by the screaming
in your head
pretending someone cares pretending
someone will save you, but avoiding the
one who will



i don't want you

is it a bad sign if i can't picture us ten days from now
even worse if i don't care
i hear your voice but i let it flow right through
cuz I Don't Want You

you thought you meant everything to me
yet you were just another fleeting dream
contrary to your beliefs
i can go on without you

what would you do if i didn't need you
what would you say
i've dropped a million hints
the opposite of pick-up lines
I Don't Want You

you thought you meant everything to me
yet you were just another fleeting dream
contrary to your beliefs
i can go on without you

i will go on without you

you thought you meant everything to me
yet you were just another fleeting dream
contrary to your beliefs
i can go on without you



sXe

my finger prints are gone, tips callased over too many times, they lie smooth, sliding gently along the wall that holds the worls out, while an empty soul wonders when i should let it back in / the pitter patter of rain does nothing to change my mood, it's un-noticeable as my eyes are closed to anything without a dirrect affection to myslef / i've surrounded myself with posters of my fallen heros, the bands i loved who sold out, just as i learned their songs, the ones who turned to drugs and slit wrists as an escape from the fame / i won't be like that / "i'm staright edge" i watched him swear as he took another toke, nobody's blinded by his smoke, some people can see through anything these days, but the people i draw closer are the ones a bit more shallow, or uncaring, so they won't see through a wall that took an eternity to build / it's funny how a guitar can make people listen /



I Think

i'm sick of all your trendy bullshit
gonna shove it down your throat
let you choke on it
i'm sick of the world being something it's not
gonna be myself for once
and let you deal with it
i think i'm sick
they say the music is my sickness
but it's my only cure
you're gonna hear it
dial on eleven
i'm gonna play it louder
it's gonna shake the world
i think i'm sick



ANGER

anger turned inward
against a world thats myself
blades cut the surface
but i can't feel within
no one would know
even if the words were there
the hurt and the pain
make my insides twist
but i feel nothing
trust no one with your fears
everything gets confusing
surreal i am blinded
life goes by so slow
but looking back its a blur
i can't even see the point



argumentive

here's to the fucked up mess they call life
the fights over nothing
silenece over phone lines
musical differences
everything that ripped us apart

here's to the fucked up mess we called us
all teh abuse for nothing
arguments about tv
never believing in anything
everything that made me hate you

here's to the fucked up times together
sleeping in your bed
listening to endless guitar
kissing you goodbye
everything that makes me miss you

here's to the fucked up time called now
sitting here alone
remebering everything
missing you more then yetsreday
everything that rips me apart



twist and burn

twist and turn
while you
crash and burn
lifes roads lead me nowhere
faster then before
you say people change
i think it's just cuz i have
and you can't handle this
people talk behind backs
whispered hushses
while i walk past
life leaves me no love,
no friends
hide behind walls of fears
trying to make tears dissappear
say you don't know
pretend you don't care
the clock ticks faster
but seems slower then before



through the tv

i wanna put my fist through the tv
tired of all this terrorism bullshit
all you want is an excuse to use your fancy bombs
what happened to your preaches of 'love your brother'
when he fails, you bail
just looking for a thrill
gonna put my fist through the tv
but it won't do any good
i wanna make you feel what i see
but i can't do any good
can't you understand
kiling is not our answer
we're fighting fire with fire
but it sure as hell isn't working
what if they all conformed to you
would you feel better
or still suspect what looks out of place
what evidence do you hold
against a society built on peace
except the guesses from your elaborate government
gonna put my fist through the tv
gonna put my fist through the tv
gonna make you feel what i see
but it won't do any good

and you're not proving anything



reason for the pain

if i told you i loved you, would you laugh just like you always do. if i kissed you, tried to hold you closer, would you push me away
i know i'll never be what you want me to, i refuse to listen, follow any rules but my own. but i understand you like you'll never know, you'll never know beacuase you're always pushing me away.
i feel that you're abusive, but then so am i. when you ask me if it hurts, i say yes but i don't mind. pain's all i have to remind myslef of you.
so you've turned away. i depress you, abuse your mind. too scared to tell you the truth behind it all;
because it hurts so much inside, and pain's all i have to remind myself of you



f*cked up again

blinded by ignorance, hiding behind fibs and tales, not caring, why should you pretend, just because your life is surreal, not what you think, keep trying - striving for perfection that doesn't exist, humoring yourself by thinking you have it, no one belives, but why should they, after proving you untrustworthy they move on, leaving you, building a wall to hold you out, pushing you away, unwanted you turn, away from old friends, people who once cared, you've fucked up again



tie me down (ball and chain)

i fall asleep to the sounds of a death metal band
and wake to the pounding of my heart
and the sweating of my hands
i don't know why, but i
look back on you with anger
sorrow and regret
i never thought we'd get this far
and it's not where i want to be

you almost never look back to me
and when you do i fade away
you don't want to understand
and that's fine with me
i forcing you to become another drifting memory
a feeling of terror
that twists inside
i need to let you go

although you're gone you tie me down
you're my ball and chain
although you're gone you tie me down
you're my ball and chain

i remember you with the fondness of a threat never said
the fear that lies, is never spoken aloud
my fear drives me down
but you'll never know you hold me down
no one will ever tell
a whisper through the trees
like the lies you'd tell me
you never believed in me



tuesday rain

tuesday rain, and
pounding in my head
are all those words you said you
never said
i watch you slow things down
i wonder when you'll break
i'm torn apart by you
people wonder if things are allright
i just smile and nod my head
isn't this the perfect life?
tuesday rain, and
running through my brain
are all the words you said
you never said
lies hide behind my
empty smiles
harsh words thrown
back at you
does it hurt yet?
are you thinking like i am?
if only you could feel
what i wish i never knew



all i want

it's these days that all i want
to do is bash someone's face in
or better yet my own
the tears won't stop
i never cry
what's wrong
i've made so many people mad
it keeps bringing me down
but underneath
where no one can see
it's starting to seep through
i think i'm wearing thin
writing doesn't help
although it often does
my mind goes blank
then fills with fears
i can't even understand
trying to explain
although no one cares
thats what i knew all along
no words to tell you no



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