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The Blind
My eyes are closed
How can I see
The truth that's sitting
Right in front of me
But if my eyes are open
And I look at you
Will I see your eyes closed too
My eyes are open
I see the truth
Open up and you'll see too
I am broken and lost
I opened my eyes
But at what cost
To only feel more pain
So in all this
There is no gain
So I'm left here losing the game
From my wrist blood is dripping
All in all my body's slipping
I want to leave this world behind
But you can't see
You're only blind
When you saw me crying
That was me dieing
When I sat alone in my room
That was me waiting for you
When I sliced my wrist
I was only preparing
For the real thing
Which I am now sharing
And when I died
You never cried
You never pushed everything else aside
To mourn my death
To picture my very last breath
I am broken and lost
I opened my eyes
But at what cost
To only feel more pain
So in all this
There is no gain
So I’m left here
Losing the game
From my wrist blood is dripping
All in all my body's slipping
I want to leave this world behind
But you can't see
You're only blind
My soul is dead
It's gone away
This will be my last breath
I can no longer stay
No longer breathe
No longer be who you want me to be
If you open your eyes
You will see
I am broken and lost
I opened my eyes
But at what cost
To only feel more pain
So in all this
There is no gain
So I'm left here
Losing the game
From my wrist blood is dripping
All in all my body's slipping
I'm leaving this world behind
But you can't see me
You're only blind
When I died
You never cried
You never pushed everything else aside
You never expected
My suicide
You'll never mourn my death
This is my last breath
OPEN YOUR EYES!!
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Can't Function
I'm hearing this
A word of hope
But it doesn’t mean a thing
I can’t cope
If I can't be
If I can't breathe
If I can't talk
If I can't see
If I can't share
The feelings I bear
Will this be my last breath
The one before death
Because I can't function
My life's a mess
Can you fix my heart
And these other broken parts
So I can just be
Without the added worry
Living in constant fear
Wondering if I’m really here.
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Shut Up
Silence surrounds me
No matter where I go
I cannot hear you
And you may never know
What I feel inside
Where I go to hide
And how I escape
These thoughts of suicide
When I've been raped
And left to die
The devils inside me
I can feel him within
Am I being punished
For all of my sins
I am sworn to secrecy
I have to shut up
And swear to never tell
Forced to live in this place I call hell
How can I talk when you are speaking
Laugh when I am weeping
And always fear of sleeping
If I dare to dream
I will be raped again
And if I hear my screams
Why am I still confused within
What I feel inside
I keep trying to hide
But it all comes out
The devils inside me
I can feel him within
Am I being punished
For all of my sins
I am sworn to secrecy
I have to shut up
And swear to never tell
Forced to live in this place I call hell
Don't say a word
It's already been said
You cannot help me
Cause I'm already dead
The devils inside me
I can feel him within
Am I being punished
For all of my sins
I am sworn to secrecy
I have to shut up
And swear to never tell
Forced to live in this place I call hell
And I have to shut up!
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My Final Good-bye
I'm hiding my face
From all of human race
Trying to keep up with the pace
But I can't, I'm losing the race
Losing all faith
I made a mistake
I left it up to fate
How can it take
My every bit of soul and heart
It's hard to say but I must part
It's just too hard knowing
That pretty soon I will be going
But until then I have to hide
And keep all my emotions inside
All of my fears
Come out in bloody tears
But nobody can hear me
When I mourn my death
My very last breath
It soon will come
But my life never really begun
Never came to a start
So nobody should mind when I part
Because in their heart
They know it's best
To put me to rest
To put me out of misery
But it still remains a mystery
Of how my life came to be
Couldn't anyone even see
I suffered since I was a child
My imagination just went wild
I was raped
But by who I don't know
I call him the devil
He toke my soul
But nobody saw
I hid it with glee
But all in all
He killed me
I cannot go on
I cannot breathe
I cannot see what's wrong with me
Good-bye fare friends
Good-bye fare family
My life has come to an end
And please understand why
Please don't shed a single tear
Please don't cry
But I can no longer live in fear
Please know why
I can no longer hide
And keep the truth inside
He killed me
And I cried
I lost everything
He toke it all away
I'll be with you forever
All you have to do is pray
I will wait at heavens' gates
Keep up your faith
My dear loving friends
My life is at an end.
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Losing Time
The clock is ticking
I stare at it with hope
Maybe I can find a different way to cope
Now I stare at this blood pool
That lays on the ground
Am I a fool
I look down
Was it a mistake
Do I want to stick around
Do I want to live with the fake
I think you know
We all do inside
We all have little secrets that we hide
Most importantly, we all die
So what makes me special, NOTHING
To the table nothing I bring
So who could possibly miss me
I will miss them
But they can't see
Just how much they mean to me
Can I take it back
Can I rewind
It's too late I'm running out of time
I soon will be dead
But always was inside
No tears will be shed
Only the ones I cry
Why do I know I have to die
The clock is ticking
I'm out of time
GOOD-BYE
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Hatred of The World
My wounds were covered
When you were near
No more bleeding
While you were here
My days are wasted
Just like me
Take a look
And you'll see
My heart's dysfunctions
A symptom of
The tragedies of life and love
My body stands in the middle of a hurricane
Killing me and putting me through pain
My soul is gone
It's died away
God can't hear me
Even when I pray
I'm too mute for help
Time for me to burn in hell
I hate who I am
So full of shame
Lost and confused
Feel so used
Life hurts too much
Bleed it out
Time for me to scream and shout
I hate you
And all you do
I hate me
But it's time to see
I hate you
You killed me too
Crucified, then denied
I hate you!
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Confused
I want to die so badly
I can't even begin to explain
Just to escape humanity
And all this pain
It's like I'm forbidden
To even smile
I wish I could feel loved
For only a while
But who could love me
Life of sorrow
Soul of bitch
Maybe tomorrow
I'll scratch this itch
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Mistake
Fuck this world of shame
Everybody living in pain
What is there left to gain
Nothing for me
It's clear to see
I don't know who I am
And who I'm meant to be
What can I do, just bleed
Waiting for more people to sell out
Only a matter of time before they forget about
Till they lose site of
The little girl in the dark
I can't see the light
I'm losing the fight
Bit by bit my soul is dying
Bit by bit my body's crying
Bit by bit I bleed it out
Bit by bit I scream and shout
I'm losing grip on life
Staring at this bloody knife
Reminding me of me
Leaving me wondering
Was my life meant to be
No it wasn't
You know it's true
Now I gotta say
FUCK YOU!!
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Devotion
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I've got thoughts in my head
And my love for you is true
When I look in your eyes
I see the galaxy beyond the skies
And I hear the fears and cries
That you bear inside
But you can tell me
Have nothing to hide
Because I will protect you from all that is bad
My love for you just drives me mad
If you ever were lost
I would get you back at whatever cost
And if you were to ever die
I would come right after you
Soaring in the sky
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Getting Over You
Sometimes I just want to cry
Staying up all fucking night
Writing love songs about you
Why can't I get a clue
You aren't the one for me
Though I tried so hard not to believe
We tried so hard for it to work out
But in the end
We decided just to be friends
When will this pain inside me ever stop
When will this life of mine ever end
Being just friends
It ain't enough
Seeing you with someone else
It's just so tough
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Hide
When my eyes get weary
I hide behind the fiery
Of getting my heart broke again
I'm lost in the chaos of the day
And I'm lost and lord I pray
I might fall back on track
Going forward and never looking back
Because if I try to undo the things I've done
The pain will hardly just begun
And please help me hide
When my eyes get weary
I hide behind the fiery
Of getting my heart broke again
When I'm blushing
And my cheeks are flushing red
I just want to hide my head
Please don't look at me
Look away
Just ignore that mistake I made
Help me forget and help me hide
When my eyes get weary
I hide behind the fury
Of getting my heart broke again
When I want to get away
When I want to escape
Will you help me
Or make me live this sentence out
Because I can do everything in my will
Cry, pout, try to forget about
But I can't
When my eyes get weary
I hide behind the fury
Of getting my heart broke again
When I want to get away
When I want to escape
Will you help me
I just want to disappear
Don't want to be here
So please give me a ride
And help me hide
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Shift My Gears
When destiny seems to crumble
And the whole world seems to mumble
When keep going when it's so easy to stop
I'm living some way when I know I'm not
I can 'accidentally' die
'Accidentally' get shot
All I can really do is cry
And wonder day after day why
Because if I try I seem to always lose
And I didn't choose
But I still have to deal
Give my body and soul some time to heal
But everything just piles up
No time to even think
Because if you want to hurt a jinx like me
You better take a number
168, It's your turn
It's not too late because I'm still here
Don't have the courage to shift the gears
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Only 14
I may be only 14
But I have more wits then you
You have no clue
What I've been through
People say I'm skinny
They say I'm hot
I guess they just like
To put me on the spot
I just can't see
What they do
All I can see
Is me loving you
I walk the Valley of the Shadow of Death
I look around as I hold my breath
People dieing
Lost ones crying
Is this the perfect world
We're set out to be
Victimized people never set free
Locked inside a prison
Looking through the gate
Is this my destiny
Is this my fate
So much life to live
But I don't know where to go
Lost and confused
I just don't know
So I may only be 14
But I have more wits then you
My eyes are open
I see the truth
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Unanswered
Hate goes on without question
But what if found is more then an answer
Is it a lie
Or must we all die
Forever we wonder
What is lightning
What is thunder
What do we so carelessly fight
Is it for this world
Is it for life
Can blind people see
Can they sense when I bleed
Do deaf people hear
Is God always near
Do we have to live
Or can we just choose
If I could I would lose
My body is gone
My soul is dead
Blood covers my entire bed
When will the angels save me
How do I come to victory
Is anybody out there
Listening to me
Do they even care
These feelings I can no longer bear
When questions go unanswered
There are things never to be said
Don't look for me
Cause I'm already dead!
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So Alone
This wretched person in my way
Is forcing me to say
The things inside my head
That stayed there and never fled
I wish I were dead
He ran away
Forcing me to say
I wish I were dead
And he broke my heart
Setting me apart
From human life
Leading me
Forcing me to suicide
I wish I were dead
He ran away
Forcing me to say
I wish I were dead
Just bury me alive
I can't live this life
Without him
I wish I were dead
He ran away
Forcing me to say
I wish I were dead
Laying on the ground, breathless
Laying on the ground
So dead, cold, and ruined
So Dead!!
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For You
With each single breath
I get to thinking
That I miss you to death
My heart is sinking
We've only been apart for a while
But already I miss your warmth
I miss your smile
I miss your touch
I miss all of you
I love you this much
I don't know what to do
All in all
This loneliness I can't bear
I can't call
Cause you're not there
Can't you see
I need you with me
Forever, throughout my whole life
With all of my heart
I want to be your wife
I want to live happy
With you at my side
I need you
My feelings I can't hide
I love you
I say it with pride
Is it true
Do you feel the same way
God I hope
God I pray
But how could I cope
If it's not true
I can't bear to lose
My one and only you
Time to choose
What should I do
Tell you my love is real
Or hide the truth
Like it's no big deal
But love-These feelings that I feel
Leave it all up to you
What are you going to do
It's life or death
Or at least it is for me
You are my breath
You help me see
Without you I'm dead
Without you I'm blind
Forever and for always
Throughout all time
I am yours
Are you mine?
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Outside Looking In
It's like I’m on the outside looking in
Looking at my life wondering when will it ever end?
Is this the perfect world we're set out to be?
Victimized people are never set free
Locked in a prison,
Looking through the gate
I left it up to destiny,
Left it up to fate
I was told the Devil's lie
He watched me burn in hell and die
I walk the Valley of the Shadow of Death
I look around as I hold my breath
Corpses lying on the ground
Tears of blood slowly fall down
This is the result of rage and anger
A new generation getting stranger and stranger
I stay outside watching other people live their life
I'm locked up with nothing but paper and a knife
I'm always awake, I can never sleep
I cradle my head as I begin to weep
All I can think about is death
Counting off minutes until my last breath
I'm left here alone as I slowly die
No tears will be shed, only the ones I cry
But nobody will see,
Because I’m left in a prison,
Never set free!
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Victims of Suicide
I no longer weep for me
But only shed tears for them
Because I now see
I no longer hide my eyes from evil things
I see the corpses
That it brings
And all the years that have been gone to waste
Now bring me sweet life
I can't wait to taste
But blindfolded by the bodies that lie
Why couldn't they live
Only for them I cry
My life will be lived
But why can't theirs' have done the same
I wish I could have helped
Rid them of the pain
Now loneliness forever enters in
Will their souls be sent to hell
For their misunderstood sin
Reasons they had
But don't need to be known
I understand
I have my own
But they deserved a second chance
Suicide asked for the next dance
They saw no way out
Nothing entered their head
The only way they saw out
Was for their blood to be shed
They did not wish to die
But to only find life
They were drove to unhappiness
A place no one wants to go
But the driver forced it
And probably didn't even know
Some call it insanity
But it was misery
Can't you see
There is no mystery
They were sane
But blindsided with pain
They did not commit suicide
Suicide committed to them
They were chosen
Not by will
But by a force
That gives the devil a chill
They are the victims
Not the murderers
For them I cry
No longer I!
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Still Lies Death
Breath from the angels
Blow cross my neck
I since life
But still lies death
Buried away
So deep but still here
No sound it makes
But I can still hear
The hymn of insanity
Hell breaks loose
Forever it wins
Forever I lose!
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The Devil's Insanity
I pray to God
Can you stop my pain
Make me immortal
And strength I would gain
So that I could defeat those who hurt me
Who tossed me aside
Who make little girls cry
Who dine with the Devil
Who search for opportunity
There lies insanity
That guides the world to truth
Those who crucify
Those we crucify
Only hear the Devil's lie
So must they die
For what's not their fault?
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What do I hope to get out of these pills
Do I hope to die
To stop my tears
To never cry
To love myself
Just once before I’m gone
Will it work
Or am I wrong
It's all a cliché
Will it just get me sick
To live life
Loving prick after prick
To give them my body
When they promise me love
They give me hope
But trade me in
For useless dope
I'll never find happiness
Never live life
I only find happiness
In this bloody knife
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Can you see the tears and blood that flow?
Or are you blindsided by the happiness I had long ago?
Am I here in this world for only me?
Or am I here in this world for other people I please?
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