dogblog
Mood:  d'oh
Topic: welcome to the doghouse
why am i in the doghouse, you might well ask.
i can tell you why i'm here, but quite how to put it i'm not too sure.
where's the beginning...right now?

the door to the doghouse is open
if you have a secret to share

i chose to share my secret and that is why i'm here

i love my wife, she is my greatest friend and my fiercest adversary.
and sometimes it gets ferocious

actually, it gets crazy most days
but we come from broken homes and quarreling comes easy to both of us. my wife does suffer from depression but she is the most positively charged sparkly bundle of fun you ever met

two weeks ago i betrayed my wife

thats why i'm in the doghouse
i didn't quite know how to write it
i don't want to beat around the bush anymore

i wish it felt better to share this here, but it doesn't.

my wife was out of town and i was invited to her old friends party
it was a shame she didn't come, but, not wanting to let the side down, i duly attended.

the party was wonderful and i found myself as time moved on, i found myself chatting with an attractive young woman.

We were both a little tipsy and as we chatted she pursued me around the coffee table and i gradually retreated.
this was both flattering and amusing.
we danced briefly, but soon the party ended and we decided to share a cab home.

in the taxi, gentle touches soon got more deliberate, more insistent and before too long we were clinched in a passionate embrace.

i felt my phone ring in my pocket

it could only be my wife calling.
i don't know why but i didn't pick it up.
it rang again and i selfishly went on kissing my companion

as we arrived at her house, i switched my phone off as it was ringing again and we got out of the taxi, soon we were naked and we lay together all night.

i love my wife dearly and when i returned home
she was curious to know where i had been staying.

she told me the name of the woman i was with

i was shocked and she asked me if i kissed her.
i couldn't lie
i didn't want to.

she was in bits
hysterical

when she asked me if i slept with her
i lied

she left

a week later she called me from her refuge
and i admitted the full extent of my guilt.

two days passed and then two more
and then my wife returned to me.

we have been fighting daily
sometimes it gets violent
but its getting better
gradually
we often sleep apart

yesterday we worked together and it feels like we could stay together. that would be wonderful but how she'll ever trust me i don't know

i do know i'll never make the same mistake again.

more later x