Blog 3
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Mistaken Identity
How do you expect someone to know what you want when you can't tell for yourself what your own heart desires? Sometimes it bothers me that even up to this point, I can still manage to surprise myself about certain things. It pisses me. I am always a sure-ball thinker. I don't like to test the waters. I don't like dipping my feet. Either I get all wet or stay dry. That's it. That's all. Nothing more.

Yet, I find myself limbo rocking like everyone else. I find myself toying with impossible ideas...asking myself the "what if" questions that can drive you into pure madness. Sometimes I hate my past. It messes my present and distorts my future. So I can't really afford mistakes. I just can't.

Why is perfection such an impossible demand? Forget about being human. Why can't we take the high road and be a man? Why??? Why do we have to beat around the bush? Play the game? Pretend? Prolong??? Why can't we just cut ties and move on? Why do we have to resort to DRAMA? I hate drama. Yet my life seems to breathe it.

Words
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: blog 2
Don't ever under estimate the power of kind words. It's priceless. You may be able to get the most out of flattery, but you cannot depend on its sincerity. In some cases, the words spoken are not exactly kind. But they're just what you need to hear. On other days, some people just say things out of the ordinary. Yet even the ordinary circumstance becomes extra special when it catches you off guard and hits you right through the eye.

The thing that makes people interesting to me is the core of what they have to say. Often times people can rant on and on about issues and politics, finance or job responsibilities, poverty or Iraq, God or relationships, but it doesn't really stay with you. I have met so many well-conversed and extremely informed people about whatever area of expertise they are in, but they all have the same quality. They are too self-involved...They love hearing themselves speak. They love being heard. But...does it move you??? Is it genuine? When a person speaks passionately about something, there is not a drop of arrogance in their tone of conversation. Infact, it is the absence of self that makes it more interesting to listen to. Sometimes, they could even be more than just selfless and interesting. They could be hilarious and cheerful. Unfortunately, they dont come often.

I am lucky enough to have met such handful of people in my lifetime. They have moved me one way or the other. They have inspired me not even knowing they have. Someone once said to me to "give until it hurts...until it hurts no more"...at another time someone said.."if you choose not to love others, then you choose not to love God".

I know it's just words. But see, WORDS when said at the right moment, at the right context...with the very best intentions, can move you.

Are your friends stuck in the same spot? Move them.

Forgive and Forget
Mood:  not sure
Time goes by, life goes on. Let the past be past and just start a new life. Don't ever change who you are for other people. If they don't like who you are then they choose to miss out on someone great.

There are some things in life that don't go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on the opportunities. Don't give up on something just because you don't think things will work, you won't know unless you give it a try. But don't hold onto something that left a long time ago, because sooner or later you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be.