I awake from subconcious pulsing input
The new doze I fall into not easily escaped
A quick roll and I stand almost upright
Clutching left and right, grasping for support
Walking forward, my mind is left behind
Not forgotten, just half dead or blind
Rinse my eyes, brush my teeth, pause
Images in the mirror much deeper than the surface reflects
No more mistaking that I have risen
And with no idea where I go from here
Falling backwards, flailing silently into the kitchen
Grab a bit of sustenance to insure I can go on
Physically, the process continues and chemicals merge
Yet my mind has already gone back into other days
I try to write how I feel but my handwriting betrays it
Misconveys the weight of what I am above and below
I keep treading water because I have no traction
In this sea of uncertainity, you are the land
My struggling ended when you held out your hand
I know it cannot last, the sanctuary will be overrun
I pretend its enough that I will find you again
My escape is only complete when I'm anchored to you
And although nothing could hold me close enough,
My circular paths insure I'll be back again
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