Secure? Strong? Ha, yeah right...this is one I think is really honest, usually I just act liek the only reason I distance myself from people is because I don't need them... but sometimes it's because I'm a coward
so secure in my thoughts, my beliefs
yet I do not expect anyone to understand them
is that why I was so distant that day...
I could not get up, I had to act indifferent
when you said goodbye and I knew I'd miss you
I just pet the dog and stared ahead
the mistake was mine, assuming you were not as open as I
wishing someone would not percieve my eccentricities as flaws
too conditioned and society weary to see when you do
I could have shoved you away with unfeeling arms
the same effect was cast with my cautious attitude
now I grow angry at myself, but even that is safe
for still I do not divulge my meditations, I do not talk to you
I write this crap, and daydream what could have been different
my confusion, my distrust
I seperate myself out of habit
stupidly assuming you wouldn't let me in
and throughout it all, I prided myself on how strong I am
so secure, so secure... when I'm alone
look how weak I was with you
shielding myself again
when I could have made a friend
Instead