I went back to my parents' place for New Year's Eve 2001... There I walked outside the house at the veranda, watched small fireworks in the sky with my sister... as well as watching the big fireworks at the Sydney Harbour on TV.... Deep inside me, I feel so sad and alone, although, I have my parents and sister with me...

After the fireworks, I went back to my bedroom... I turned off all lights and tried to go to sleep... but I just cannot hold back my tears and started crying... I really missed Vinci... In my mind, I keep picturing how happy he will be with Janice at that moment... I thought about the New Year's Eve I spent with him last year... It was a hot summer night... we have all the windows wide open... When the clock strike at 12am, we could see fireworks outside our window... Although, we are not facing the harbour side of Sydney... we can still see small fireworks in different places around Sydney... Yet, it was not the best firework I have seen, but the fact that he was right next to me, makes it such a memorable night....