One Year Later- 10th October, 2001

I didn't expect so much can happen within one year's time.... Last year, on 10th October, 2000, it was one of the happiness day of my life... It was the day we started our relationship... Exactly one year later, on 10th October, 2001.... Although, he has left me for another girl, I still carry the hope that he will have a good day with me...

To him, it was just another ordinary day... He didn't know how hopeful I was for that day and how special it means to me.... When I woke up that morning, I putted on the same clothes I wore last year on that day... the same dark blue business jacket and pants with a lylac shirt... the same high heels and the same hand bag....

In the end, I didn't have lunch with him on that day.... What happen was worst than what I thought.... My worst thought was that he cannot go to lunch with me... But no, it did not happen that way.... I asked him to lunch and he agreed... Then he sent me an email saying that he will meet me downstairs 5 mins later... So I went downstairs in exactly 5 mins... When I got there he called my mobile asking where I went... I told him I am downstairs.... He said he waited for me, and now he don't have the mood to
have lunch... He sounded really angry....  I was disappointed... He got angry with me for nothing I have done wrong... I would rather him saying that he cannot make it to lunch than saying yes and then no....

After that day... I feel like the door has completely shut between me and him... No matter how patient I can be waiting at home... No matter how faithful I remain to him... No matter how much I suffer in the past few months... Everything means nothing and it is all meaningless...

One year has passed by... He has changed completely.... He is no longer the Vinci I met one year ago... He has changed his clothes, his attitudes... The happy face I saw on him is no longer there... but most of all, I don't have a place in his heart anymore... Reflecting on myself, I am still the same me one year ago... Wearing the same clothes, the same person... My faithfulness to him remain the same... He has walked half way around the world while I stood on the same spot in the past year...