I went to Caringbah High School at Year 10 because it is a better school, with hopes that I can achieve even better academically.. However, it is for the better or for the worst?? I really don't know... all I know is, after I came to this school, my life has taken a lot of changes.... and unfortunately, most of the things that happened to me makes me feel so unhappy....

I was a top student in Bethany... However, after I came to Caringbah, I was only at the middle range... I think I studied okay in Year 10... I've met a few friends in this new school.. but it does hits me when I realised my ability is so limited... Also, my friends has changed... I don't get to see my old friends at Bethany as often... thus, some of them have started to have boyfriends.. I did met some new friends in Caringbah.. I became good friends with them at first.. However, as time goes by, I realised they are not real friends in life... I think I have treated them well and really believed in them... But in the end, some of them did disappointed me when I realised they don't treat me as real friends... I was experiencing a down turn in life...

This is not enough to make me feel unhappy... At the end of Year 10, someone very special in my life has passed away without saying good bye to me... This is the worst hit in my life... Thus, I started to lose a lot of confidence and security from people around me... I realised how fragile human can be... and how helpless people can get... I used to be a person full of confident and hopes towards the future, but now, all of that is fading... I used to believe that everything can be under my control... It is at that time, I realised all this is impossible..

I used to be optimistic and believed that happiness and unhappiness can be all under my control.... but all this is only wishful thinking... Maybe I've grown up after all this... but growing up has turned me to become pessimistic... There are so many challenges in life... and this is only the beginning....