My 2001 was full of ups and downs.... The up side will be able to work in a really friendly work environment... My supervisior and colleagues are so nice to me, that I was able to make a few friends at work... Not only that we have established a strong teamwork, outside work we are also good friends... Especially at times when I felt so down, they will stand by me and offer as much help as they can...

I am also happy to be able to maintain such strong friendships with Maureen and Berni in the past year.... They watched me from being happy to unhappy.... When I am happy, they will be happy for me when I tell them my stories... When I am unhappy, they are always there to watch me cry and tried to comfort me....

Through the past 10 years, they both watched me as I struggled through life and its problems... I know where my weakness lies... When I am determine to do something, I will take immediate actions and will not let myself rest unless I got it in my hands... See, how stubborn I am...

If you have already read through BabyKewpie & Vinci's stories, you will know the down side of me in 2001.... After all the failures in relationships, I begin to accept the fact that I am destined to live a single life, just to protect myself from any injuries of relationships... Vinci once told me, people tend to repeat themselves with the same responses when problems arises repeatedly....

With me, when I fell in love, I tend to give the best I can and put that person in the centre of everything... He will belong at the top of my list in every decision I made... I know that if I fall in love again, I will do the same thing all over again... I am really scared that by doing the same thing, I will get hurt again in the end....

Life maybe dull without anyone with you... but then, it is the best way to protect yourself... Right now, it is time for me to learn to treat myself good... I tried very hard to get over Vinci... I keep telling myself that I deserve to treat myself better... I went shopping... I went to see my friends... I wanna to update my homepage... I wanna to study and get good marks.... I even planned a month holiday during February this year... By doing so, I hope I can get my mind off Vinci....

It's hard to say what will happen after I come back from the holiday... I really hope that this holiday will give me a break from everything in Sydney... Just don't wanna to think about work, family, study... most of all, don't wanna to think about Vinci... When I come back, I really hope that I can find a good place to move as soon as possible... After that, I hope I can change to a better job... The day that I can finally leave my current workplace, it will be the day that I can finally finish the last page of the story between me and Vinci... That will also be the very last day that I will see him in my life... I hope this day will come so that I can really move on to the next stage of life.... It may not necessarily be good but it will definitely be better than my current situation...