As you look in my eyes, I have to turn away,
My lids drooping to shade the green portal to my soul
Your eyes have always been open and honest, gazing deep inside to tell me the truth
I can see into you and see the emotions spinning for me and me alone
But inside me they don't dance, they don't whirl
They huddle together to keep warm from the cold confusion
Can you see the apprehension when you look at me
Can you feel my heart's uneasy beat as it tries to decide
You give me no reason to be unsure
Every once of my body longs to fall in love with you
But I stand on the edge of a dark abyss I am afraid of
What lays beyond the darkness this time...
Jagged rocks of deception, brutal ground of rejection
Harsh waves of abandonment to carry me back to the shore of loneliness again?
Even your tender embrace feels restricting as you try to pull me in
Or are you pushing
You make the fall look so graceful, as a feather drifting to rest
And I long to feel that slow motion and the delicate air around me
But I'd jumping without a parachute
Possibly speeding towards sudden death
Let me stay at the edge for now, let me close my eyes
(c) Jennifer Renee' Davis
October 11, 1999