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Last night, I had dinner with Anthony. Well, really i guess i need to tell the whole story.
Friday night I got home and was putting my pj's on and was sitting down at my computer to check my mail before giving Luke a bath. My cell started going off. It was a text message from Anthony. Not going into details, we made a plan to hang out tuesday night. So Tuesday rolls around and as bad as this is going to sound, i took Luke to his babysitters, and came back home to wait for anth to come over.
he got here around 630. and for the first time in like four or five years, we just sat around and talked. we, being who we are, had a pillow fight and i said something about him being mean to me and now i remembered why i hadnt missed him.. BULLSHIT!
we started talking about shit and i said something about my senior prom and the fat kid i took because Anth disappeared on me and he said to me "you dont know how many times i drove by wanting to stop" and that lead to us discussing the issue of forgiving people and i said (jokingly) that he was lucky i forgave him. and hes like "i know i am" and i said to him "i knew why you disappeared. in my heart i knew what you where doing. and i have to say that i respect you for wanting to be a man and be a father to your son." i said "all i could have asked for was a phone call!"
dear anthony,
you've given me all i've wanted for years. FRIENDSHIP!!! i think were actually working towards the friendship that you and i once had. and i wouldnt trade it for the world. much less what you "owe" me. im not worried about the money. i did what i felt was right by loaning it to you. it's just money. what am i gonna do with it when im dead?
i care about you a lot more than i probably should. i watch out for you in a sence. everything happens for a reason. there was a reason we ran in to each other @ mcdonalds that nite. theres a reason why we've talked the way we have. i wouldnt trade you for anything. i just hope you dont decide to go and disappear again without so much as a phone call.
my dads death taught me that lifes short. jake taught me that everything happens for a reason. ive taught myself how to forgive.. but not necessarily forget. yeah i may have forgiven you, but ill never forget how much it hurt to loose one of my closest friends.. one of my true best friends. you know me better than you should.. and god knows you know more about me than you should.. QUACK QUACK!
im a good person for knowing you. your a good person for always trying to do whats right, even if in the long run you hurt people or end up hurt. true friends are there for someone no matter what. i hope you realize that i am a true friend to you.
lots of love.. always..