It wasn’t supposed to make me angry, and again maybe it was. Traipsing through my songlists this morning, I found a Chris Tomlin and Passion song called Spirit Fall, a pretty awesome two verse song that takes you seven minutes. It comes from their series of records called Here for You and that was where the trouble started. One of the songs of this particular year was a David Crowder song, Shadows, which feature Lecrae. How unlikely a duo is THAT?

Anyway the lyrics, the last of the lyrics, “When all seems lost, When we’re thrown and we’re tossed, We remember the cost, We rest in Him Shadow of the cross!” I had been there recently, thrown and tossed, lost in all that needs to be done. But never once did I consider what the lyrics calls out…. To remember the cost…. Of Jesus dying so that I would never have to feel that way. I grew angry with emotion that in my urgency to accomplish and defeat the trials before me, I was arrogant in the idea that it was my fight to win. The lost sleep, the tenseness and stress was all for nothing, the cost was paid, the battle already won.

I do not believe in coincidence but in the fact that Jesus is in my every moment, there with me always. This song did not just happen upon me, it is one (ha One) of the divine ways He reaches out to us, in our everyday. I love and praise You, Jesus, for all You do for me, even if (no, when) I forget the cost. I urge all that read this to remember that He paid the cost so we don’t have to.