So it's currently 1:27 in the morning on Sunday July 18, 2004. I know it's a few weeks before you go to school still, but I've been trying to find things to keep me occupied when I'm not with you to keep me from getting upset. So I decided just now while I was on the computer that I would do this. As I know you've noticed I've been getting upset lately so I'm trying to fight that. We got back from Balmoral the other day, that was such a great time, I loved spending every thing there with you, I think on average that trip like the Disney trip on average we where 10 feet apart from each other. I wish every thing could always be like it was on that trip, or atleast the being together part. You mean so much to me, it's so hard for me to have you out at school, but I know it's going to become easier for me to have you out there the more often you come back and go out from and to there. I'm currently listening to that CD that you made, I love that CD it reminds me of you so much. Ok, mabye making a little web thing wasn't the best of ideas to keep me from getting upset about you leaving because I am getting teary eyed but that's ok. I feal better after I cry as well as after I write some thing down or tell it to some one, which this is a combination of both. You have the burn house in a few hours, which I know you're more than likely going to enjoy emensley and think is so cool, despite being the fact of being atleast alittle nerouse and/or scared. I know that I've said it before, but I really am so proud of you for being a Fire Fighter, it's such a great thing to do, when ever people ask about you I always make it a point to say that you're a Firemen if I've never told them about you or tell them about your latest call. Because I want them to know that you do such a great thing for well pretty much every one. I love you so much. I don't know what else to write as of this moment in time. Bye, I love you.
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I love you Pat.
Love Amanda.