The following week was pretty rough on me. I felt so guilty about what I did to Nick. He has not spoken a word to me since I ran out of the club like that. Everytime I see him, he looks away. I’ve cried myself to sleep every night because I finally realized that I, too, am in love with him. I realized that I have been for a long time. Now there was nothing I could do about it because Nick wouldn’t even give me the time of day.
The following Friday, the guys had a show and Leighanne, Amanda, and I decided to go out instead of going to watch them perform. We went to a really nice restaurant in Madrid. Since this was the first time I was alone with just the girls, they decided it was the perfect time to talk about what happened with me and Nick. As soon as we sat down, Leighanne started firing away:
“So, Kate, what are you going to do about Nick?” I shrugged as I felt the familiar pain in my heart that I had been experiencing all week:
“There’s nothing I can do, Leigh. He hates me and he has every reason to.” Amanda looked over me:
“I wouldn’t be so sure about him hating you, Kate. I just think that he’s upset right now. AJ and I were talking about it the other night and he was telling me that Nick is really in love with you. He’s just really hurt right now and doesn’t know how to talk to you after you rejected him like that.” My eyes started to fill with tears:
“Really?” Leighanne nodded:
“Really, Kate. You have to talk to him. Tell him how you feel. If you don’t do it now, you may not ever get the chance.”
We finished our dinner and went to a club for a little bit. When I realized that the boys would probably be back at the hotel, I rounded up Leigh and Amanda and we took a cab back to the hotel. As soon as we got back, I went to Nick’s room and knocked on the door. A couple of seconds later, Nick opened it up. When he saw me, he narrowed his eyes:
“What are you doing here?” I didn’t say anything. I just pulled his face to mine and pressed my lips against his. He was startled at first but then slowly responded. A few seconds later, he pulled away:
“What was that for?” I walked in his room and shut the door:
“I had to do that.”
“Why?” I looked at him thoughtfully:
“I need to talk to you about all of this.” He turned away from me and sat down on the edge of the bed:
“I wanted to talk to you before. But you just pushed me away.” I glanced down at my shoes:
“I know. I’m so sorry. Nick, I was just scared. That’s all there is to it. I haven’t been involved with anyone since the whole Rob thing and Nick, I’m terrified of getting close to anyone again. And I’m also terrified of losing you as my best friend. But I can’t deny the fact that I feel the same way about you that you do about me.” His head turned towards me in surprise:
“Wh..what are you saying?” I went over to me and put my finger under his chin:
“I love you, Nick.” I leaned over and kissed him gently on the lips. He closed his eyes and responded for a second before pulling away:
“I love you too.”