**Back to my P.O.V.**
The next night, the boys didn’t have a show so the eight of us all went to a club by the beach. Dave, Eric, and a few other bodyguards all went with us. Leighanne, Amanda, and I sat at a table in the corner with the rest of the guys, while the bodyguards sat next to us. After AJ finished his first drink, he stood up and extended his hand to his girlfriend:
“Come on girl, show me what you’ve got.” Amanda rolled her eyes and stood up:
“See ya guys later.” AJ turned to face us:
“Much later.” They were off to the dance floor. Brian and Leighanne followed them and Howie and Kevin were determined to find some cute girls, so that left me and Nick to sit there, uncomfortably. I finally got sick of the silence and turned to him:
“Look, Nick. You’ve done nothing but be an asshole to me ever since I got here and I’m really getting fucking sick of it. What the hell is wrong with you and why won’t you talk to me?” He sighed and mumbled softly:
“I already told you, nothing’s wrong.” I glared at him:
“That’s bullshit and you know it. But since I can’t make you talk to me I’m going to have some fun.” I put my drink down, stood up, and walked over to Dave:
“Hey! What’s going on?” He looked up:
“Nothing much. Just chillin’. How about you?” I glanced over at Nick sitting by himself. He quickly looked away when he saw me looking. I turned back to Dave:
“Nothing much. Do you wanna go dance?” Dave smiled at me:
“Sure. I’d love to.” He got up and extended his hand towards me. I took it and followed him out to the dance floor.
When we started dancing, I noticed AJ and Brian give eachother a weird look. I shrugged and turned my attention back to Dave. After a few fast songs, a slower one came on. Dave pulled me close and I wrapped my arms around his neck. I closed my eyes for a brief second and when I reopened them, I noticed Nick glaring at me from across the room.
‘What the hell is wrong with him? He’s acting like a jealous boyfriend.’
Next thing I knew someone grabbed my arm and pulled me away from Dave. Nick was standing there with an angry look on his face:
“Excuse me a minute. Can I talk to Kate for a sec?” Dave nodded. I smiled apologetically at him and followed Nick over to a quiet corner. He stopped and glared at me again:
“What the hell do you think you’re doing? You’re all over him!” I glared back at him:
“What the fuck are you talking about Nick? I’m just dancing. You’re not even fucking speaking to me. Why the hell do you care who I dance with or not? You’re not my fucking boyfriend!” Nick squeezed his eyes shut for a second. Then he reopened them and stared into mine:
“Look Kate. There’s something I need to talk to you about.” I stared at him intently:
“What is it?” Nick glanced down at his shoes and mumbled softly:
“I think that I love you.” My mouth dropped open in shock:
“You what?!” He looked back up and locked eyes with mine:
“I said that I love you.” My eyes filled with tears, but they weren’t happy tears. I was mad:
“How can you fucking say that to me?!!” Nick had a look of shock and confusion on his face:
“What?”
“How can you fucking tell me that knowing everything I’ve been through.” He looked genuinely hurt:
“Kate, are you serious? That was 7 months ago.” I was nearly hysterical:
“No! No! No! No! Nick, I thought you were my best friend. How could you go and screw that up by telling me this? It’s going to ruin everything.” He grabbed my shoulders to steady me:
“What are you talking about Katelin? I am your best friend. Just somewhere along the way, I fell in love with you.” Tears were falling steadily down my cheeks now:
“No you didn’t. You’re just feeling sorry for yourself that you’re being ignored. Well I’m sorry, Nick. I’m sorry that I ever came out here. If I had known this was going to happen, I never would’ve agreed to it.” With that, I ran back over to Dave:
“Can you take me back to the hotel?” He nodded:
“Come on.”
Nick just stared at me as I ran away with tears filling his eyes. Brian and AJ both noticed too and they walked over. Brian comfortingly but an arm around Nick’s shoulder:
“What happened, Frack? Why did Katie just run out of here like that?” Nick glared at his best friend:
“Because I took your fucking advice and told her how I feel and then she freaked out on me.” AJ looked at him sympathetically:
“It’s alright, man. She’ll come around. I’m sure she was just taken by surprise, you know what I mean?” Nick shrugged, visibly upset:
“I love her, man. But she obviously doesn’t feel the same way about me. What the hell am I going to do for the rest of her time here? I can’t even look at her straight in the eye anymore. I feel like such an asshole.” Brian smiled:
“It’ll all work out Frack. One way or another. I promise you.”
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I silently cried the whole way back to the hotel. I didn’t know what came over me and why I freaked out on Nick. The truth is, my feelings weren’t that far off from his, though I didn’t realize it til now, when I had had a chance to think about it. I was just absolutely terrified of getting seriously involved with anyone now. After everything I had gone through with Rob. But still, Nick didn’t deserve to be yelled at for just being honest. Oh well. There’s nothing I can do about it now. I’m too embarassed to even look at him. I feel to horrible.