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HOME past: i used to live in a few places around san diego and then moved to orange in the middle of second grade. present: i live in orange... with both parents (we are NOT getting along at all right now) and the middle sister and the oldest sister should be moving in again soon. i have two dogs , a cat, and a guppy. my room has a damn cool canopy bed and pictures of The Crow all over the place.. i got the master bedroom, so i also get a bathroom. future: hopefully a tour bus! and well.. i'd like to share a house with someone someday. hopefully somewhere pretty with cleaner air than here... i must have my pets though. FRIENDS past: only people from school and internet present: i like to pretend to live at matt's house. i visit a lot, at least. i love most of the people of nonmundane. i'm on the net chatting on ICQ and AIM and BME IAM a lot lately, but mostly to the friends i already have, and not random strangers who know nothing about me. i hang out with my bandmates a lot. makes sense since i try to have as many practices as possible. they're all my buddies already though, so we often just hang out together before or after practices anyway. future: probably gonna be around the band and nonmundane for quite a while.. or at least i hope so! maybe more bme and mod people too though... and i would like to one day meet all of my netbuddies. MIND past: i always thought that i'd always be alone and would never get to find true love and be married or anything. in all reality, i wasn't even interested in boys really until 8th grade and had a few boyfriends and lost loves after that, but i thought i'd be alone forever way before that. i loved animals and wanted pets but was never allowed to have a cat or dog. i was actually suicidal at some times.. oddly enough only when i was rather young. i was raised as an american and asian, so i'm pretty open to cultures and at the same time very confused by them. present: i still believe i'm just not made for love or relationships or.. anything. i actually like someone right now.. but yea.. being such a pessimist when it comes to this stuff...i'm pretty sure he'll find someone better and cooler and shit. i finally got pets... they rule. mom's constantly trying to get me to give away wiley and kit though. bleh. i'm very much into bod mods and truly care about them and why people get them what they mean to people. i still go through some extremely rough times and wish i could just dissappear.. but i would never do anyting to make that actually happen. right now i'm in one band. it is nameless so far...but it's me, chris, kyle, carlos, and john. future: maybe one day i'll just be asexual so life could be just a little easier. i doubt it though. i'll want what i cannot have. i'd like to learn more about mods and cultures and animals and music and everything. i will probably still be trying to learn as much as i can...outside of a school. SCHOOL/WORK past: my parents always told me to focus on school.. i used to be in G.A.T.E. and Honors classes from 4th grade through high school and got good grades ... but i started hating school a LONG time ago. i was a telemarketer for a few months back in '99 though. that was crazy stuff... good company though. i also apprenticed at a photo studio doing retouching, but... i wanted time for my music. present: no work right now. no school now. i want to find a job. i NEED to find a job. hopefully something will happen soon, but the units are bitching at me EVERY DAY about working and i just need them to shup up. future: for right now.. i'm gonna try condom revolution. that'd be some fun shit. i want to be a professional piercer. i really really genuinely do. not like all the kids that go in everyday wanting to because it seems "cool" but because i really do have a passion for this. i don't mind if it doesn't pay all that well. i'd just like to be happy for once. i want to be a rock star. i want the band i'm in to get far and i want to have my own music recorded and played some day. i want to be happy. BODY past: i used to hate my body so much. when i was pretty young and actually thinner i always thought i was fat and ugly. i hated my breasts. i hated my stomach, my wrists, my neck, my face, my feet, my height, my weight, my hair and skin color, and mostly my lungs. i'd had my first asthma attack at 2 months old and needed glasses in second grade. i wasn't happy with what i had at all. present: my lungs are still weak and fucked. i'm allergic to the world, except food and medicine. my pets make it hard for me to breathe, but i love them so much! i have asthma attacks often enough that i should probably be hospitalized, but i don't like doctors so i don't say how often i actually get attacks. i apparantly could die if i got the flu because my asthma would make it very dangerous. my vision is still bad.. i have cool blue tinted lenses and blue and black glasses. i'm happier with the aesthetics of my body though. i've been dying my hair all kinds of colors since the end of 8th grade. it's partly through piercings and tattoos i've been able to reclaim my body and make it into something more beautiful to me. i have two lobe piercings in each ear and retired third holes due to horribly done gunned piercings. the first holes are about 8g, second are 14g. both sets were gunned. i also have a 10g tongue piercing, 12g lip piercing and a 6g triangle piercing. i also have a tribal kinda arm flair on my right upper arm. my measurements are currently at 38"-29"-36" and about 126 lbs, and yes, i'm still just barely over 5' tall. future: mod-wise.. i do plan to continue dying my hair, and i also have MANY piercings that i will get as soon as i have the money to. some of the tattoos i definately want are (all black and tribal/oriental) angel wings on my back, two dragons and a star on my lower back, a self drawn design around my belly button, a dragon and pheonix on my scalp, and maybe a continuation of my current tat into an armband. i've just begun corset training again and hope to get to a 26" or 24" waist. |