GUH!!!
Mood:
happy
Now Playing: 94.1
Jeff wrote:
"Hello, darling!
First off, I love you so much. I'd never felt like this with women that I was actually living with, never mind someone who's almost a thousand miles away. And while I'm unhappy that we have to be apart right now, the thought that this separation is giving our relationship that much more strength and stability makes it worthwhile. Frustrating, but worthwhile nonetheless. And you are definitely a woman worth waiting for. I am literally thinking about you all the time.
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GUH!!
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Oh my fucking God, Mae. I knew you were hot. Really, I did. I've seen you naked, and I love your body. But holy fuck, Batman. Those pictures are AWESOME!!!! And as you could tell, I couldn't wait 'til I got home, and yes, there is definitely a wet spot. From the raging hard-on I had (nope, still have) looking at those! I wish I could've had you on the phone when I opened these up. I'd call right now, but it's almost 1am here, and I know you have to get up early. But don't worry, you'll hear me go on and on and on and on and on about how much I love these. You are simply amazing! I never get tired of learning all the new things that prove how lucky I am to have met you. And have I mentioned lately how much I love your ass? Those 3 ass shots are... God, I just want to... Ahem. S'cuse me while I go get a tissue. Or ten. And I love how those see-through panties just somehow seemed to disappear. Hmmm, wonder where those went? Well, now I'm obviously going to have to get busy in the 'studio' for you. I honestly don't think I'm going to wind up seeing much of Colorado besides the parts I drive through to get to you, and your bedroom. And maybe that bench in the back yard. Possibly the kitchen floor. Maybe the back of the pickup truck out in a deserted canyon somewhere. I want you so much right now, it's not funny. And I hope you realize that I'm going to be taking some photos of my own when I get there. Damn, woman! You are so sexy and beautiful and fucking hot all at the same time. GUH!!! I have to go now so that I can finish up my paperwork and get my ass home and get out the hand lotion. Thank you so much! I can tell that you obviously had fun doing these, and hopefully knowing how much I appreciate them will ensure that you'll do more. (Please?) I love you (and your sexy body). Oh yes, the blue balls are on the way, I just feel it... "
That's why he's so great. :D
it's been a while...
Mood:
a-ok
Geeze, a lot has happened. Lars turned 21 and became an alcoholic. He tried to kill himself twice this year already. I don't really know what to think about that. I can't believe it happened. It just seems like some fucked up dream.
What else happened??... I graduated from college!!! (about fucking time!!!) :D I started going to karaoke on wednesdays and met a really nice guy named Jeff. He's a total babe! He's also (ahem) 37. But it doesn't matter to me. He's a tow-truck driver, he volunteers for the library for the blind, he sings like a god!, he does some furniture moving on the side, and he also does some sort of legal thingy to. He's really amazing. I'm hoping he'll come visit me here in Colorado. Yep, I moved back. woo-hoo.
It's only been 3-4 weeks since Lars and I ended so I'm not looking for another long term right now, but, it's nice to feel loved and appreciated. As for Lars, I don't know. Maybe someday after we've both learned to be more understanding and supportive and he's learned how to live alone... maybe we'll talk about things. For now, it's just hard to think about the last 2 years.
(*Lars if you're reading this, I'll always love you. You're my forever lobster.*)
Also, started kittying for a burlesque show!!! I miss it already!!! It was sooo much fun.
This is Jessika and I at the show.
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