“What?” Kaylee asked as she looked up from her journal to see Kaitlyn standing in the doorway.
“Do you really think I’m leading him on?”
“Uh…yeah,” Kaylee replied frustrated.
Kaitlyn looked down at her hands while Kaylee continued to stare at her.
“Kaitlyn why can’t you just admit it, you like him,” Kaylee said in a soft tone as she looked at Kaitlyn.
Kaitlyn looked up at her rolling her eyes.
“Ok fine don’t but seriously don’t lead him on, just imagine yourself in his shoes. Being led on isn’t the best feeling in the world when you realize the one you truly like doesn’t like you like that at all.”
Kaitlyn just looked back at Kaylee.
“That’s all I’m going to say,” Kaylee replied as she got up slowly and walked out of the room.
Chapter 14
Kaitlyn stared at Kaylee as she walked out of the room. To say Kaitlyn was shocked at Kaylee’s little outburst would be an understatement. She shook her head and laid down on her bed closing her eyes and thinking about what Kaylee had just said. She laid there for a minute and then quickly got up and went into Kaylee’s room.
I always hate when your friends tell you something and then you end up thinking about what they said until you drive yourself insane. I’m on the verge of driving myself insane. Seriously, I don’t know why but something Kaylee said just triggered something. Ugh…
I don’t know what to do. More than likely I will ignore all the feelings I have going on in my head and I’ll do what I do best. Be me. I’m just going to be his friend, nothing more. I don’t think I handle anything more. I don’t want to.
“Kaitlyn it’s your mom have you been avoiding me? You were supposed to call me back days ago. I’m getting worried if you don’t call me back by this week I’m going to call the police,” Kaitlyn’s mother said on her voicemail.
Kaitlyn sighed as she flopped down onto her bed completely worn out from another day at school and work. She looked over at her phone sighing and then dialed her mother’s phone number but quickly hung up after the first ring.
“What’s wrong?”
“My mom called again,” Kaitlyn replied as she looked up at Kaylee.
“Don’t want to talk to her?”
“Don’t know what to say to her.”
“Oh I see. Can I suggest the truth?”
“Can I suggest you suck it?”
“Suck what?”
Kaitlyn shook her head and rolled her eyes and then eyed Kaylee up and down, “Where are you going?”
“Out.”
“With?”
“Kyle.”
“Oh really?”
“Uh huh I probably won’t be home I think I’m going to stay at his place tonight.”
Kaitlyn shook her head.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“Sure whatever. Don’t worry I’ll be back in time to see you off for your date with Nicky poo.”
“Oh great I’m so excited now,” Kaitlyn replied sarcastically.
Kaylee grinned and then walked out of the Kaitlyn’s room.
Kaitlyn sighed and fell back on her bed yawning and then finally closing her eyes and going to sleep in her clothes.
So, I’ve dialed my mother’s phone number about fifty times but every time I hung up after it rang once or even before it rang once. I feel like I’m in high school again calling a guy that I have a crush on or something but I just don’t have the guts to actually talk to him. Like I don’t actually have the guts to talk to my mother. I don’t know what to say to her. I really don’t. Maybe if I don’t mention it and then tell her we broke up or something. That would be cool right? She’d never know I lied to her and then she’d never be disappointed in me. That should work right?
Right? Huh? It better. I think it should. It will.
“Are you wearing that?” Kaylee asked as she walked into Kaitlyn’s room.
Kaitlyn looked down at herself and then back at Kaylee, “Yeah.”
“Interesting.”
“What?”
“I didn’t know ‘friends’ dressed like that when they were going out with other ‘friends’.”
“Like what?” Kaitlyn asked as she put her hands on her hips.
“Hmm… like a slut?”
“Excuse me?” Kaitlyn asked as she turned to look in the mirror. She didn’t look like a slut, so maybe her dress was slightly low cut and the slit did go high up her thigh but she was covered up.
“I’m just playing you look hot. If I was Nick I’d jump on you like white on rice.”
“What?” Kaitlyn asked looking at Kaylee like she was crazy.
“I’m serious, you look good. You have the hottest body girl. You are nothing but curves.”
“Oh man, stop it.”
“Why making you blush?” Kaylee asked laughing.
Kaitlyn shook her head as she walked out of her room and into the bathroom.
“I’m serious I would kill for your figure,” Kaylee said as she followed Kaitlyn into the bathroom.
“Stop it.”
“Why?”
“Just cause,” Kaitlyn replied shrugging.
“You are a gorgeous girl you have a lot of natural beauty but me mostly make up. Kyle saw me when I woke up and I nearly shit myself serious I looked horrible and I know he was thinking oh my I did that?”
“Oh stop it you are exaggerating.”
Kaylee rolled her eyes and said, “Whatever.”
Kaitlyn shook her head as she started to curl the ends of her hair some more.
Why am I so nervous? I haven’t been on a ‘date’ in so long I think I’ve forgotten how things go. Wait, this isn’t a date date it is dinner between friends. Yeah right who am I kidding I want it to be a date just as much as Nick does. Oh god did I say that? Don’t tell Kaylee. Or Nick. Just let’s keep that between us alright? God, ok so I might like him a tiny bit but I don’t think I could have ever have a relationship with him. Mostly because of who he is, I’m intimidated. I don’t want to be in the public eye. I don’t want the media poking and prodding at my love life and just me in general. I don’t want people to know what my favorite color is or my favorite food or that I wear Lucky perfume. I’m not that kind of person. I could never prepare myself for that, how would one do that anyway? I couldn’t go weeks or even months without seeing my boyfriend, if he was my boyfriend, I’d have to see him everyday. I’m just one of those people, I like to be affectionate and I like that to be returned. How could someone be like that if they are a million miles away? Granted, I know that’s his job but I’m just not that kind of person, I couldn’t handle it and frankly I don’t want to.
So we’ll just pretend I didn’t say anything about liking him or anything about a relationship because you know it’s not going to happen. There just isn’t any way. He’s going to be leaving next weekend anyway I’ll probably never hear from him again. Maybe I should have sex with him before he leaves just to live out my dream I had. Who is talking? That is so not me.
Kaylee has corrupted me.
“Kaitlyn!”
“What?”
“Nick is here,” Kaylee yelled as she flopped down on the couch with some Ben & Jerry’s.
“No date tonight?” Nick asked grinning.
“With Ben and Jerry,” Kaylee replied as she pushed play for her weekly romantic comedy.
Nick nodded and then looked around the room waiting for Kaitlyn.
Kaitlyn walked out of her room and into the living room. She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw Nick. How could an outfit so simple make him look so… so… fuckable? Kaitlyn mentally scolded herself for the thoughts there running through her mind previously. She shook her head and then walked further into the room catching Nick’s eye. He eyed her up and down and smiled.
“Have fun kids,” Kaylee said as she put a spoon full of ice cream in her mouth.
“You look amazing,” Nick replied as she twirled for him.
She smiled and said, “Yeah you don’t look half bad yourself.”
Nick laughed and put his arm out she looked at him and then laughed as she linked her arm in his as they walked out of her apartment while Kaylee grinned widely watching them.
“This is a really nice place I would have been happy with McDonalds,” Kaitlyn said as she sat down across from Nick.
“In that dress? No way, I have to show you off now,” Nick replied flashing her a million dollar smile.
Kaitlyn felt her stomach do a few flip flops at his perfect Colgate smile. She smiled back and then looked at her hands playing with the napkin in her lap.
“Do you know what you want?” Nick asked.
Kaitlyn looked at the waiter who was impatiently waiting for her reply. She grabbed the menu and shook her head ‘no’.
“We’ll need a few minutes,” Nick said to the waiter and then smiled.
The waiter winked at Nick and then walked off.
Nick shook his head and picked up a menu as well, “So?”
Kaitlyn peered over the top of her menu and looked at him cocking an eyebrow.
“You look really…” Nick looked up and watched the waiter pour her a glass of water and then waited for him to pour him a glass so he could finish his sentence. Nick glanced down at his menu and then back up just in time to see the waiter spill his glass of water all over the table and him. Nick looked up at the waiter slightly agitated.
Kaitlyn pressed her lips together and hid behind her menu as she started to giggle.
“Oh Sir I’m so very sorry. Please accept my apologizes I can move to another table in the far back away from all these other people,” The waiter said as he tried to dry Nick off.
“That’s fine, thank you. I’m not that wet, just my pants,” Nick replied as he looked at Kaitlyn who was still hiding behind her menu giggling. “Are you laughing?”
Kaitlyn looked up just enough so Nick could see her eyes and then she shook her head ‘no’.
“Liar,” Nick replied laughing.
“I’m so sorry here follow me I will show you to our new table,” The waiter said as he pulled Kaitlyn’s chair out from the table.
Kaitlyn got up and looked down at she continued to giggle a little on their way to another table.
“Funny huh?” Nick asked looking over at her.
“I’m sorry it’s just never mind. I’m sorry, it’s not funny.”
Nick glared at her for a minute and then smiled.
Kaitlyn walked to the other side of the table and watched the waiter pull her chair out she moved in front of it and started to sit down but the waiter wasn’t paying attention because he was smiling at Nick and Kaitlyn fell onto the floor.
“Oh madam I’m so sorry I was not paying attention,” The waiter said as he and Nick helped Kaitlyn up off the floor.
“Oh my god that so did not just happen,” Kaitlyn said as she sat down laughing.
“Looks like tonight isn’t starting off so great,” Nick said as the waiter walked off.
“Yeah, I’m thinking this might be the date from hell.”
“Hey,” Nick replied sounding hurt.
“Ok the date from hell but with prince charming,” Kaitlyn retorted batting her eyelashes dramatically at Nick.