Chapter 4
Mirror Mirror
“Why don’t I like the girl I see? The one who is standing right in front of me.”
-Mirror Mirror, M2M
Madison rolled over groaning as the hotel phone continued to ring repeatedly next to her. She stretched her arm out and felt around for the phone finally finding it and picking it up lazily causing the other part to fall onto the floor.
She threw the receiver to the floor with the other part of the phone, after figuring out it was her wake up call. She sighed as she sat up and looked around the room.
“Morning sunshine how is my favorite girl?” Tony asked cheerfully as he quickly entered Madison’s bedroom.
“I didn’t lock the damn door did I?” Madison asked as she rubbed her hands over her face.
“No you did not my darling.”
“Why are you in such a good mood? Wait, I don’t want to know.”
“This nice hunk of a man, named James is the reason for this glorious mood and glorious day.” Tony replied as he walked over to the window opening the curtains.
“It’s raining; that’s not glorious you freak.” Madison mumbled as she stood up.
“Come on let’s go to breakfast, I’m starving I definitely worked up an appetite last night.”
Madison shook her head as she picked up some clothes off the floor and headed towards the bathroom.
“Hurry.”
Madison flipped Tony off before she walked into the bathroom slamming the door behind her.
“God, everything looks so yummy.” Tony said as he looked at the menu.
“Yeah.” Madison replied quietly as she looked at her menu.
“So, what can I get for you two?” The waiter asked as he walked up to their table. He eyed Madison up and down and then grinned at her when she looked up at him.
Madison rolled her eyes as she looked back down at her menu and said, “French Toast with bacon, instead of the sausage and scrambled eggs. Oh yeah and a chocolate milk to drink.”
Tony and the waiter just looked at her oddly as she ordered. Tony shook his head when she was done and proceeded to order his breakfast. The waiter nodded at them took their menus, and then walked off.
“Hungry?” Tony asked cocking an eyebrow.
“Yeah, I’m not sure why. It’s not really that much is it?” She replied looking around the room.
“No, you need some meat on your bones. How much do you weigh these days? You look like you lost some weight.”
“Uh… I haven’t weighed myself in a while. You really think I lost some weight? I thought I gained some.” She said shrugging then she leaned back crossing her arms.
Tony looked at her suspiciously for a while until she looked back at him cocking an eyebrow at him. He just smiled and redirected his stare elsewhere.
After breakfast Madison retreated back to her room lucky for her, alone. She took a shower and began to get ready for the day’s events. She sat down on the bed in her towel staring at the outfit she was going to wear.
She fell back onto the bed sighing as she closed her eyes. She wanted to go back to sleep, she wanted to crawl into a dark hole and just sleep. She laid there longer than she wanted to, she sat up quickly and began to get dressed because if she laid there any longer she would be back to sleep.
She pulled her jeans on, feeling a little tighter than normal she pulled them all the way up and started to zip them having a lot of trouble, finally getting them as far as they would go she tried to button them but they wouldn’t button. She laid down on the bed, she jumped around, she sucked in all the breath she could, but nothing was working her jeans just didn’t fit anymore. She took them off quickly and threw on the floor as she began to cry.
Without putting any thought into it, she ran into the bathroom and repeated the same thing she had done last night; getting rid of her breakfast. Afterwards, she just sat there crying and then finally got up washed her mouth out and brushed her teeth again. She walked back out into the bedroom and stared at the jeans that were on the floor. She went over to her suitcase and frantically dug through it looking for a different outfit.
Finally, almost an hour and a half later she found a suitable outfit that she was semi-satisfied with. She walked out of the bedroom and into the main part of the hotel room, when Tony began to knock on her door. She stood there a minute staring at the door, and then she put on a smile and walked over to it.
“Hey there girl, you look great.” Tony said smiling at her.
She smiled back as she walked out of the room and began to walk down the hall with him.
Madison sat in the back of the bus at three in the morning on their way to Milwaukee writing various things in her journal; more specifically a song idea that kept going through her head for weeks, so she finally decided to write it down.
She sighed as she read over the words again and then she began to sing it lightly.
My eyes are so rootless
They wander, I follow
I keep staring, I can't stop it
I know I shouldn't
But I can't stop it
Such a cute girl
I'm so jealous
I wish I looked exactly like her
What's it like to have that body?
I'm gawking while I wonder
Staring
I can't stop staring
Staring
I can't stop staring
With my envy I steal glances
Resentful fault finder
This peek-a-boo's become a problem
Predisposed cat fighter
After singing over the song a few more times and making a few notes she closed her journal and slowly walked back to her bunk.
“Madison.” Tony said as he gently pushed her.
“Mm…”
“Madison.” He said a little louder and pushing her a little more.
“Mm… what?” She mumbled against her pillow.
“We’re here.”
“Where?”
Tony laughed and said, “The hotel girlie, now get that cute butt of yours up.”
“We’re in Milwaukee already?” She asked as she turned over looking at Tony sleepily.
“Yeah.”
“Wonderful.” Madison muttered as she closed her eyes again.
“Come on, let’s go. I’m hungry and you will not believe who just walked into the hotel like when we pulled up.”
“Britney Spears?” Madison mumbled against her pillow.
“No silly goose. Nick Carter.” Tony replied giggling like a school girl.
Madison’s eyes shot open and she just stared at Tony. “What? Are you serious?”
“Uh, yeah darling and oh my god he looked so delicious. Damn, I would love to just eat him up.”
“Tony… he’s straight babe.” Madison said putting her hand on his shoulder.
“I think I could turn him gay.”
“I think he likes girls too much for that.” Madison replied as she got down from her bunk.
“Come on, maybe he’s in the little hotel restaurant.”
“Great.” Madison mumbled as she headed toward the small bus bathroom to change and maybe try to fix her hair and face to look half way decent for the world to see.
“Tony stop beating on the door!” Madison yelled at Tony for the fifth time since she got in the bathroom.
“You’ve been in there way too long, what are you doing? I don’t even spend that much time in there. We’ve probably already missed Nick.”
“Give me a minute damn.” Madison replied as she stared at herself in the mirror. She pulled her long brown hair into a messy pony tail and put some foundation on to cover up the bags under her eyes. She pulled the oversized hoody she stole from Jake on and some jeans. She continued to stare at herself, wishing she looked different; wishing everything about her appearance was different. She hated what she saw when she looked into the mirror, always, there was never a time she liked what she saw. “Well, this is as good as it gets.” She said quietly to herself before she walked out of the bathroom.
“Bout fucking time, now we gotta find our boy toy.” Tony said as he grabbed her arm dragging her off the bus.
“Our boy toy?” Madison asked.
“Yeah, he’s already hit on you and you know you want him and well everyone knows I want him too.” Tony replied as they hurriedly walked into the hotel and into the restaurant.
“God I’m so fucking hungry.” Mike said as him and Nick made their way back down to the hotel restaurant.
“You like just ate an hour ago dude.” Nick replied as they sat down and the waitress handed them menus, Nick grinned at her and she looked down at her pad blushing.
Mike rolled his eyes as he started to look at his menu. “Can you give us a minute?” He asked the girl as she stared at Nick.
“Uh… yeah.” She said quickly and then turned around and walked off.
“She’s cute.” Nick said as he picked up his menu and started looking at it.
“Yo, Nick there’s your girl, the one that turned you down.” Mike said as Madison and Tony walked into the restaurant.
Nick’s head shot up and he watched her every move, as they walked over to a table across the room. “Interesting.” He said smiling.
“Wonder what she’s doing here?” Mike asked as he looked over at her and Tony. “And wonder who that guy is?”
“He’s in the band.” Nick replied his eyes never leaving her.
Mike nodded and returned to looking at his menu.
“I think I’m going to go say hi.” Nick said grinning at Mike and then he stood up and began walking over to them.
“So what do you wan- holy shit.”
Madison looked up at Tony confused and asked, “What?”
“Boy toy is coming our way.” He replied and then giggled.
“Oh god.” Madison said quietly as she sunk a little lower in the booth and put her menu up a little higher to hide herself.
“Oh, god where did Madison go?” Tony asked sarcastically as he looked around.
Madison flipped him off in return.
“Hi Madison.” Nick said as he approached their table.
Madison sat up a little and looked at Nick and all of a sudden she couldn’t find her voice. She just stared at him, his hair was spiked every which way, he had a tight red shirt on and some baggy jeans, he was smiling a big bright smile and his eyes were… deadly. She swallowed hard as she continued to stare at him mentally kicking herself in the ass for staring at him in complete and utter awe, she knew he did that on purpose that’s what he wanted.
Tony was across from her giggling uncontrollably. “I’m Tony.” He said getting Nick attention.
“Nick.” He replied looking at Tony for a brief second and then turning back to Madison with an amused look on his face.
“So Madison how have you been?” Nick asked as he sat down on the edge of the booth and slowly scooted in, causing her to move closer to the wall.
“Uh… fine?” She replied, relieved she found her voice.
“You look nice.” He said licking his lips.
She opened her mouth to reply but couldn’t even form words after seeing him lick his lips. She felt her cheeks grow warm and she was sure she had turned a bright shade pink as she stared at him. Frustrated with how she was reacting and behaving toward him she looked back down to her menu.
Nick laughed lightly and said, “What are you in town for?”
“We have a show tomorrow.” Tony said grinning at Nick.
Nick nodded, “I have a show tonight.” He said still looking at Madison.
“Really?” Tony asked wide eyed.
“Yeah, you want to come?” Nick asked Tony.
Tony’s eyes lit up and he almost squealed. “Yeah, that’d be great.”
“You have to bring her though.” Nick said pointing to Madison.
“Sure thang.”
“Ok.” Nick said smiling. He looked back at Madison and said, “See you tonight, baby.” He kissed her cheek and then got up and walked off with Tony staring at his ass as he walked away.
“Oh my god, oh my god.” Tony said squealing quietly.
Madison rolled her eyes at Tony’s antics and then laid her head on the table and lightly began to bang it on the table.