All poems on this page were Copyrighted on August 14, 1999
Darkness
Deep and utter darkness Sad despair The loss of innocence No one cares All alone In a cold cold world Nowhere to turn Unhappy, unsure Lowering yourself Deep into a pit Descent into hell Surrounded by shit No love, no hope No light at the end Trying to cope In this lion's den Life is absurd Life is unfair You'll never be sure If anyone cares They all lie They all just use you And if you cry They will abuse you Always searching Never find A man who loves you For your mind
Tears
Here they come again Pouring down my face Like raindrops in the winter So sad and out of place Curled on my bed I stare unseeing at the wall Missing him and wondering If today he's going to call Alone and so unhappy Just a ring and nothing more Been sad and blue and lonely Since my man walked out the door He says he's coming home soon My heart is aching for his love I need him by my side My body aches to feel his touch My pain I cannot hide Until he comes back to me This sadness will not ease The day he comes back to me These tears will finally cease
Fear
The icy hand of fear holds me tightly, squeezing the life out of me I beg for him to loosen his grip but he only laughs He is my dark lover, my only friend He says he loves me but he is a liar Terror is his brother who comes to visit on occasion Heartache is his cousin, partying on the weekends They rule my life, they stifle me They tell me I can't win, I can't live without them They laugh as I cry and toss and turn through the night They are as real as the dark memories hidden within my mind They lurk beneath the surface, coming out at night to shriek They are the ghosts of things thought gone and forgotten But really only buried deep within the tomb called memory Shadows lurking, waiting for me to crack under their pressure I and only I can face them, yet Fear holds me back Taunting me, tormenting, laughing at my pain Healing tries to step in to save me, but she is too weak They overpower her and drive her away Fear is my master, I am his slave Oh if only my knight in shining armor would come and slay this dragon So healing can come in and embrace me Hold me and comfort me as I cry A knight with the sword of love, to slay Fear and Darkness, Terror and Pain Hidden memories forced out in the light But then I realize, that only I can kill the dragon And I cry in my weakness, pitiful and alone Sitting in darkness, this is my home
Confusion
My heart is torn in tiny pieces Love, lust, fear of being alone Desiring love, clouding judgment Caring too much or too little Wanting, hoping, dreaming Desire, passion, sex How do you sort it all out? Loneliness, desolation, despair Hopelessness, helplessness I want to be held and kissed Loved and wanted Admired and needed So alone, and so confused Forced to wait, but for what? Does he really love me? Every day that goes by The doubts grow stronger Confusion rules my life
Long Distance
Passion and desire Burning deep within My tortured heart, my aching soul Confusion over emotions Long dead, thought forgotten As I lie alone through the cold, dark night Crying, wishing, dreaming They always leave Their broken promises echoing through the empty room The phone is silent Waiting, wondering Do I leave the ring on or take it off? What is truth, what is real? Then you meet another who treats you right Shows you love and affection Do you believe? Do you trust? Fear, disappointment, despair I want to hurt those who hurt me Make them pay for my pain and sorrow But it would solve nothing I want to love and be loved Touch and be touched Kiss and be kissed I want to fall asleep in my husband's arms And awaken to his tender kisses But these dreams fade as time goes by And hope turns to hopelessness Happiness to bitterness Love turns colder, for I cannot cry any longer And distance destroys us
Always
What do they mean by "Always"? Does anything ever last? What can go on forever When life goes by so fast
They say they'll always love you And then they go away They say they'll always be there But, for long, they never stay
They vow to always be there They say their love is true They swear to you they'll always care Then they walk all over you
They always end up lying They always go astray They always say they're sorry As they run the other way
So I guess there is an "always" I'll always be by myself I'll always be used and discarded Always living within this Hell
Never
What do they mean by "never"? What will never be? Is there really the "impossible" Or is it just what we can't see?
It's a philosophical question And I can safely say We may never know the answer And may never know the way
But I know one thing for certain There are things I'll never see Places I'll never go to Things I'll never be
I'll never climb a mountain I'll never swim 'cross sea I'll never fly a spaceship I'll never kiss a bee
I'll never read every novel Nor step foot in every mall I'll never eat a goldfish Or play professional football
I'll never forget the love That men have shown to me I'll never forget the pain and tears When I was forced to set them free
And I never will forget them Though it still can make me cry And I'll never fully understand The reasons we said, "Goodbye"
And I'll never be a child again So trusting and naive Believing that love's the answer And if you love them, they won't leave
I'll never stop believing Deep down within my soul That there is someone out there Who'll make me feel loved and whole
Someone who will stay with me And never run away Someone who will love me true Forever and a day
I Cry
Another lonely night
Believing in nothing, in no one
Do I dare to trust again
Do I dare to fall in love
Feelings are so fragile
Heart is tender and healing slowly
Do I wipe the tears away
And try again once more?
CHORUS:
And I cry
When I remember him saying goodbye
And I cry
When I finally realize
That all my dreams have gone and died
Yes I cry
And I want to hope and believe
That there's somebody there for me
That the man that I'm falling so hard for now
Is different as can be
That he'll love me and never leave
But I look at the past and it's hard to believe
In anything, anyone, even in me
(CHORUS)
BRIDGE:
Take me in your arms and hold me so tight
Make love to me, all through the night
Don't let go
Don't walk away
I'm down on my knees and I pray and I pray
(CHORUS)
Look at Me
Look at me Can't you see The ice around my heart is melting Can you believe And trust in me?
My heart is open My soul is crying I hear your voice And I feel hope Could you love me?
So afraid Do I trust again? I want you here Inside my arms
Look deep in my eyes Can you see? Can you feel my love? Look at me
