The sound clip you are listening to was written and copyrighted in January of 1999 by Claire L. Chopp
Long Stemmed Rose
I guess I should have known by the way the long-stemmed rose died the very next day
That our new relationship was going to go the same way
It was so beautiful and sweet The way you handed it to me But then it died in the night and I guess I should've seen what was happening.
But I was blinded by love, blinded by passion I believed when you told me you loved me And I was so busy dreaming and hoping and scheming That I never looked deep in your eyes
And when you left on that Sunday, I felt it right then That deep sense of foreboding, I knew it would end When we talked on the screen and you deserted me
For another, I knew then and there
It was just an illusion, just a short-lived fling You never intended to try I was just a distraction from everything From your wife, your divorce, and your miserable life
You could have just told me from the very beginning I would have let you anyway If you had not said that you loved me I would not be weeping and crying
And I wouldn't be feeling so sad Like the twinge of regret when the rose died I wouldn't be feeling so bad For falling for lies and for falling for you
And I should have seen it coming Should have started my heart running away When the beautiful long-stemmed rose Died in the night, when we made love for the first time
I still have it here in my kitchen I look at it now and sigh I'm glad that I fell in love for awhile And I no longer sit and cry
I smile with a wistful smile Smell the faint scent and dream for awhile Cuz I now know why we met And I understand why it had to end
It was just so I would feel human again So I would deal with emotions I buried and then I would cry, which I could not do before It took having you walk in through the door
And I will always love you true There is nothing more that I can do I will always remember your smile and your kiss Always will treasure the times I'll miss And someday you will realize The love that you gave away I am the one who truly loved you I am the one who could make you happy
And you will want me again And miss me and then You will call out my name But I will never feel the same
I never let someone back in Once I've shut them out so my heart can mend And it's all stuffed down deep inside You don't know how hard and long I cried
And now I know I'll be fine You no longer want to be mine And I've let go of the anger and stuffed all the pain Tears no longer fall like rain
You treated me like nothing more Then an object, a toy, a whore
I don't care No, I don't care Anymore
And I should have seen it coming When the long-stemmed rose you bought me Died in the night, while we made love For the first time.
RAIN
Listen to the thunder Is it finally going to rain? 103 degrees and falling A storm will kill the pain
And it's kinda like life And it's kinda like love You hear the roll of thunder Then the tears begin to fall And you're standing in a puddle Ankle deep and drowning fast When your love is far away And you're not sure it's gonna last
Two Thousand Miles between us Just a ring to keep the bond The telephone and email Keep us barely hanging on
And I cry when I hear him I keep crying when I can't I sit and worry constantly That I'll lose this loving man
And it's kinda like life And it's kinda like love You hear the roll of thunder Then the tears begin to fall And you're standing in a puddle Ankle deep and drowning fast When your love is far away And you're not sure it's gonna last
IF THERE IS A GOD ABOVE
He's so far away and I cry alone each day Thinking of his tender touch, I love that man so much A couple thousand miles and his health keeps us apart I want him here, to care for him, it's breaking this poor heart
I know he loves me and he needs me I know he thinks about us when he thinks about love I only want him feeling better and then back here in my life This ring is not enough for me, I want to be his wife
CHORUS: So if there is a God above me and he hears my tearful prayer If he has not forsaken me, if he is a God that cares If there really is a Savior then show me here today Give me just one reason to hold on to my faith I'm losing it so quickly and please try to understand If there is a Lord above me then please bring me(please bring me) back my man
Bridge: I know I don't deserve any favors from above I've lived a life of sin for many years But I've changed since I met someone who showed to me true love And as long as I have him I will be The wife that he's looking for in me Give me just one chance and you will see A brand new me
(Chorus 2x)
Letting Go
Sometimes though it's hard to admit it You have to concede that it's true The lover you thought that you wanted Is not the right person for you You've lied to yourself for a while now Pretending it's love that you feel But it was only wishful thinking A searching for love that's real You finally know that it's over That you only thought it was true And forever you sit and wonder If they ever really loved you You wipe the last tear from your red eyes You remember with fondness the fling Then you pick yourself up and go on Knowing though brief, 'twas a wonderful thing
An Old Unnamed Poem
I woke up this morning, stumbled out of my bed Tripped over my shoes, fell and hit my head Knocked over the lamp, bumped the chair with my thigh I'm blinded by tears since you told me goodbye
I slipped in the tub, got shampoo in my eyes Burned my hand on the stove while remembering your lies My toast came out black and the smoke alarm went off The house filled with smoke and as I hacked and coughed
I remembered the words you told me last night How you needed your space cuz we were getting too tight You said there was nobody else in your life But then I found out about your beautiful wife
You told me you loved me, but you couldn't commit You said your divorce was so bad You told me you needed some space and to think You never told me that you were a dad
You said your wife left you for somebody new You never had kids, just a cat Then your wife called me to ask if I knew Just where the hell you were at
She knew all along that you were with me I was blinded by love, I just couldn't see What was right before my very eyes And now I'm alone, remembering your lies
A Little In Love
Written: June 27, 1996
He calls me up, out of the blue Wants to see me for awhile He says I make him feel so good He always leaves me with a smile He hasn't made me any promises He's not the only man I see But he always comes around for more I think he is in love with me
CHORUS: I just can't help but wonder If he's a little in love with me He comes around a few times a week Whenever he has time that's free He gives me what I want and what I need He's loving, tender, kind, and sweet And I can't help but wonder if He's just a little in love with me
Bridge: Do I love him? I don't know. But I need him that's for sure His love is hot and wet and wild, yet gentle, kind and pure He knows I can't be faithful, but he wants me anyway That's why I sit and think about His loving night and day...so (Chorus)
Star Light, Star Bright
Written: May 10, 1996
When the world is cold and gray And the nights are long and dark I get on my knees and pray For a lover And I ask the stars above Will I ever meet someone But the answers never come
CHORUS: Oh starlight, starbright, first star I see tonight Wish I may and wish I might Find a man to hold real tight Loneliness is caving in around me here tonight Oh starlight, starbright
I want a man who's warm and gentle Who can take me to the stars Who's kind and sweet and fun and neat Doesn't live for beer and bars Who can laugh and sing and love and bring Me roses and a smile A man who will be there every night, not just for a little while (Chorus)
Life
Written: February 10, 1997 after watching the movie "Phenonmenon"
We all live So we may die We all laugh So we don't cry Everyone's part Of the circle of life We have good times So we can handle strife We all have fun So we can live through pain Everybody wins sometimes So we can learn to play the game Winning and losing Laughter and tears Dreams and heartaches Hopes and fears If you can learn to love and give Then you will find the strength to live
Sometimes I Feel
Sometimes I feel so lonely Sometimes I feel so sad Sometimes I feel so good inside And sometimes I feel so bad
Sometimes I want to fly away And sometimes I want to hide Sometimes I feel completely loved But sometimes I hurt inside
Sometimes I think I understand And sometimes I feel so dumb Sometimes I cry and cry and cry And sometimes I just feel numb
Sometimes I know he loves me And sometimes I think I'm wrong Sometimes I feel weak and alone But sometimes I feel so strong
Sometimes my life seems hopeless Sometimes I want to die Sometimes I feel so helpless Sometimes I just can't cry
Sometimes I think I'm nothing Sometimes I feel so low Sometimes I feel I'm worthless And there's so much I just don't know
Sometimes I feel like a sinner Sometimes I feel like a whore Sometimes I feel loved and important But not often, anymore
1999 by Claire Chopp
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