Meah...
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: ...and then i turned seven... "Under The Stars"
I'm so obsessed with this band. They're soooo good.. They sound kind of like a mix between Blink 182 and New Found Glory.. They're lyrics are really meaningful too. I guess the lead singer went through depression and a lot of their lyrics are based on those experiences. I'm sure they've helped out a lot of people... But anyway, you should definately check out their site if you think you'd like their music.

Let's see, not too much has happened in the past few weeks. I got into Chamber Choir, which I'm really happy about.. I would've had to strangle somebody if I wouldn't have gotten in. I'm sure most people would think, "What's the big deal?.." but music's been my whole life since I was a little kid. Anybody who knows me knows that..

On another note.. I'm having some problems with my bf.. It's like I love to start arguments or something.. But I can't help it.. It's like he's a completely different person. I'm always finding out new things about him and I just kind of miss the old Jake... I hope things can work out.. Who knows what'll happen..

Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Nothing at the moment.
Meah.. I'm kind of annoyed right now.. I'm not really sure why.. I don't have any good reason to be but it could be because I have a funny feeling someone is trying to get into my e-mail because when I tried to get into it from hotmail.com, it said I couldn't sign in because of too many unsuccessful sign-in's. So it was blocked for awhile. And then.. I'm also annoyed because of this girl that I still don't trust. She's my boyfriend's ex.. The girl he went out with before me. And no matter how many times they both say they're just friends and she would never do that. I can't believe her. Does this make me a bad person? I hate the fact that she actually wants to go out and hang out with him and invited him to her house and stuff.. I mean, isn't that a bit much for just friends with an ex?... Or is it just me? I just have a really bad feeling about it.. I mean, I suppose I wouldn't care if there were other people with them, but just the two of them.. I don't think I could handle that.. I don't want to be considered a ontrolling gf. I'm just worried. So if anyone reads this and agrees with me, pleeease leave a comment. It would make me feel a lot better.

Hmm... 3 months later.
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Gay rap songs... Don't ask...
Heh, it's been awhile hasn't it guys? Yeah, I was having some trouble remembering my stupid member name. Otherwise, this would've been updated a reaaaaally long time ago. Luckily I found an e-mail from Angelfire and here I am! Anyway, not too much has been going on lately, but for those of you who don't know, Jake and I are back together, and for those of you who don't like it can bite me. :P Oh yeah, and I turned 17 on February 18th. Woop-di-freakin'-do... Next year I might be more excited. But, I suppose this is enough for now. Bye!

I'm baaaack. Sort of...
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: The whole Senses Fail cd. :)
Hey everyone. Just to let you guys know, my internet at home isn't working so that's why I haven't been on. (If anyone even noticed. :P) I haven't been up to too much lately, just hanging out with friends and stuff. Oh, I guess my picturetrail is going to be deleted sometime soon so I'll have to find somewhere else to put my pics.. If anyone has any suggestions, let me know please. Well, I don't have too much else to talk about so I'll just be going now. Feel free to e-mail me or something because I won't be on much for awhile.. Bye!

Before I forget.. I watched The Spongebob Movie the day it came out. It was good I suppose, but the little kids chanting the theme song and applauding at the end got annoying.

Woot, this week has flown by.
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Waking Ashland "Counting The Stars"
Oh man, I'm so bored right now. But this week has been okay. Not too much has been going on.. One big thing (I guess) is my dad got a pretty nifty digital camera yesterday. It's mostly "for work" though so I doubt I'll be using it. I also got my semi-formal pics back today after 3 days because the school is freakin' gay and they wouldn't give them to anybody but Jessica, and she was sick. Seriously, my school is awful. We have yet another teacher who got sued for sexual harassment. I don't really doubt it, but then again, I don't have the teacher. I feel bad for poor Ms. Jones though, she's supposed to be marrying the guy... Who would want to marry a teacher accused of sexually harrassing a 17 year old? Oh well.. But my dad is not happy about all this. He thinks we should move, but I'm not letting that happen.. Until next year at least, because I've heard that you don't have to pay for tuition to go to school in a different district your senior year. If that's true, I'll most likely be moving somewhere not too far from where I already am, so it's not that big of a deal (So there's no need to freak out when you see that, those of you who actually know where I live. Lol.) Well.. I think that's about enough for today.. Bye!

Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Waking Ashland "Hands On Deck"
Meah, I'm bored... This weekend was pretty fun, like I thought it would be, but I'm just a little disappointed about one thing which I probably could've fixed.. But I'm wussy and I got too scared. My friends are all cheering me on and stuff but.. Meah. Lol. Anywho, I went to Jake's Saturday afternoon and gave him his b-day present and junk and that was fun, then Sunday Jake, Lee and I all went to Wal-Mart and Lee got Jake some cigars.. And Lee was trying to get me to smoke one. PEER PRESSURE I tell you. Nah, not really, he was just teasing because they both know I don't do that stuff. I'm a good girl. :) Then Jake and I were gone around 9:30 that night and as soon as we got back, his step-mom says "Oh, Adam (The drug lord) was here just five minutes before you got back." Score! I mean, aww, we missed him, haha.

Today was alright. School actually flew by. Probably because I actually did crap today instead of just sitting there like normal. And Psychology was great. I'm beginning to love that class. We played Jepordy and my team won, woot. Lol, and then we got to watch Fear Factor. How cool is that? Heh. Well, I think that's about enough for now sooo, bye!

Wheee!
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: Senses Fail "Buried A Lie"
Maaan, I'm soooo hyper right now. I just got home because my family and I were out getting a b-day present for Jake and then we went to Ponderosa where I drank two glasses of mountain dew and had some really yummy chocolate/peanut butter stuff. It was great. The first time my family's actually "bonded" in a looong time. My 13 year old brother and I were actually getting along! Crazy stuff, I tell you.

School was okay today. Sort of boring, but that's normal.. Psychology was hilarious though, I felt like a dumbass when this happened but, hey it was funny.. We were filling out a paper and we had to put some long term effects that like heroine and stuff like that could give you and since you can use needles for that crap I was like "Oh, diseases.. AIDS and stuff." and then Lizzy's like "Oh, wouldn't that be STD's?" and I was like "Well, I think AIDS is an STD..." so we wrote it down and then when she asked for long term effects Lizzy raises her hand and goes "STD's." and Miss Jones and the rest of the class look at her all funny, so Lizzy turns to me and goes "You told me to put that!" and Miss Jones says "Well, uh... you could get diseases." But Lizzy and I were cracking up by then.. It really wasn't all that funny, but I'm easily amused so shut it. :P

This weekend's going to be fun. :D Bye!

just checking to see if the time is right... (don't ask)

*Sigh* This week is going by so incredibly slow...
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Waking Ashland "Long Shot"
Meah, I'm bored... Today was okay though. The only thing that really pissed me off this morning was that when I was sleeping on the busride to school some little homo freshman woke me up. Lol. Tori called me today too, it sucks because I hardly ever get to talk to her but she's actually making an effort to talk to me which is more than I can say about some of my other friends... but anyway, that was probably the highlight of my day I suppose. Her brother is such a homo though. He's some homie g white kid from a gay little town no one knows about.

Well.. Lastnight was funnish. Jake brought over some funky Comedy Central show dvd thingy and we watched some of that. It was pretty funny. And tomorrow I have to stay after school for my ISSMA solo. It's a choir thing. Woot. In fact, I have to do that every Thursday until January, which will kind of suck.. But oh well.. I think that's about all I have to say so.. Later.

Grr...
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: Waking Ashland "I Am For You"
First, I have to say, Waking Ashland is an awesome band, you should check their site out. www.wakingashland.com

and now.. I'm going to spill my guts. I'm so sick of people lying to me.. Especially when they should know I'm bound to find out, even though they don't want me to... It really, really bugs me. I've been upset all day about it and if you look at the entry I made a week or two ago about the whole drugs thing.. This is what the lying is dealing with and I'm really starting to hate the guy that started all this and one of these days I'll probably just snap on him. This probably makes no sense for those of you who don't really know what's going on, but I'm too much of a wussy to give out names. But when certain people read it they'll know who I'm referring to. (Or at least they should..)

Alrighty, I'm going to stop blabbing now but I'll leave you with some advice to stay on my good side: just tell me the truth for God's sake...