12-11-99 - I haven't been feeling too great these past few days.
I have so much stuff on my mind and it's getting very hard to deal with
all of it. And on top of all that, my headaches are back. But for those
of you who don't know, I get REALLY bad headaches that don't go away for
days at a time. My current headache has been around for 3 days. And then
last night my vision got blurry and I couldn't see anything. These two
problems make me think that something is wrong with me. The doctors say
it's just stress. I've noticed that my headaches get really bad when I
have a lot on my mind, but that still doesn't explain the vision thing.
But anyways, back to my point. Last Thursday I found out that a few of
my family members are very sick. All I've wanted since then is a hug. And
it's funny how the people I'd least expect to give me a hug were the only
ones that did. The people that I consider/ed good friends could have cared
less. I know I don't like to be touched, but once in a while I want my
friends to hug me and remind me that things will get better. I guess it's
just one of those times where you want to be able to hang out at your friend's
house and let out everything that's on your mind...and eat some ice cream,
of course. Cause we all know that ice cream can make anybody feel a little
better. (And btw, my favorite kind of ice cream is Ben & Jerry's Chubby
Hubby. *hint, hint*) hehe.
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