Remembrance
An old woman in twilight, little more than
a shadow herself, she walked along the familiar old path she had worn from
the back of her little house to the family graveyard. She had come in thunderstorms,
blizzards and sometimes sick almost to the point of death. But she had
always come. Every day just as she had promised all those years ago. She
had never come this late in the day, though. She had never needed to.
Passing through the opening in the wrought iron
fence, she walked by the stones of her mother and father with little more
than a glance. They were still in her heart but they weren't why she had
come here at this late hour. There were several other older gravestones
but these had never been anything more than names to her, as cold and unfamiliar
as the marble they were engraved upon. She went to the far corner of the
little cemetery and stood in front of three small gravestones, all with
the same year engraved on their mossy surfaces: 1919. She read the names
on the stones as she had every time she had come here despite their having
been burned into her memory:
EDNA
AGED 4 YEARS
"My little angel? Red hair, I think? Perhaps."
JAMES
AGED 5 YEARS
"Yes, Jimmy! Always laughing and joking? No. I'm not sure."
AMANDA
AGED 9 YEARS
"My twin sister? Yes, I know she was but her memory
escapes me.
"So many little ones dying so young. It was no plague,
although it may has well have been. It was just that the influenza was
bad that year and life was hard back then. Just life, really. I thought
the sickness would take me too and we'd be together again but it didn't.
I died a little with each of you, and now I can't even remember your pretty
faces, I can't remember anything but these awful stones! Today I've come
to follow you. I thought you'd be waiting! But it's been so long. I've
forgotten you and you've forgotten me. And I'm still alone."
The gray of twilight had faded to black and the
old woman's shadow was lost in an endless night of solitude.
* * *
The little girl awakened with a start. It was twilight,
almost night. She must have cried herself to sleep amidst the fresh graves
of her siblings. But that terrible dream didn't leave her when she opened
her eyes. She saw her life stretching onward into long lonely years. She
closed her eyes as tightly as she could, so tightly tears could scarcely
escape.
"I won't forget you, Amanda. Or you, Jimmy. Or you
Edna. Not ever! I promise, I promise, I promise! But I won't come here
again, not until I die. I'll remember you as you were when you were alive
and I'll forget these cold stones with your names on them. And then someday
we'll be together again. Always."
She walked away from the little cemetery and cried,
but never looked back. And she remembered.
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