i really don't have much to say anymore...so this might just be it. this might be the real end. everyone i've ever met has told me to keep writing...but i think i know why i've stopped. i get it...maybe. everything's a maybe.
i used to be okay doing my own lil thing in my own lil world. but i can't anymore...i'm changed and i don't think i could ever return to who i was, even though that is what i am desperately trying to do. maybe that is why i've felt so lost as of late...because i'm trying to backtrack on a road in the dark. but i'm not sure what to do to in order to continue. and it's not like the road ahead is any clearer than the road i've left behind.
i guess it doesn't matter, does it? i've always stumbled in the dark, without a hand to hold or a light to guide me. i guess i'll just stumble some more.
M.
