so...i'm not too sure how to do this anymore...
i'm not sure how to write a sentence and show the world what i mean.
i'm not sure that i can heal myself the way i used to...by spilling my pains, my desires, my entire soul onto a page and be okay at the end.
i'm not sure that the pen in my hand feels the same way it used to.
i'm not sure that surrounding myself with my words will remind me of who i am.
i'm not sure that i know anything anymore.
and i'm not too sure that if i crawl back into myself, i'll be able to come back out and be okay...
anyone out there know? know how to remind yourself of who you are? know how to recapture those things you once lived for and loved so passionately? know how to escape the sadness that looks back at you as you stare in the mirror and realize you do not recognize the shell of the person you see?
i do believe i am swallowing myself whole. and it is not what i ever wanted.
