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Murmured Musings
~ Da'olvren ~




On Mother's Teachings

My mother is very beautiful. I am only little wart compared to her. She teach me though.. she teach me how to dress so man will see me, how to speak so man will not fear me, how to walk so man will want me.. She teach me how to glance, just so.. so that he will know that I want him. Beautiful woman need master. Master to protect her, to watch her, keep her close and keep her safe. Give her purpose. Men are like pack of wild dogs.. They find something they want, they tear it apart. Then none have and all still want. Man who lays with beautiful woman feel powerful. You make a man feel power and he will always come back. Mother teach me many things, but mothers cannot teach what they do not know. I never thought there would come a day when I would have no master. I never thought there would come a day when I would know I had no master and thinking that would make me smile. Today.. is such a day. Today Da'olvren is more than slave, more than woman, more than flesh. Today Da'olvren has power.. And one to share it with. Never has become always and Da'olvren smiles.

The Way of Things

Beauty may only be skin deep, but strength Radiates. All power deserves respect. The one who holds the power deserves respect from those who do not, but the one who holds the power should also respect that which he holds, lest it destroy him and all he has wrought with it. One does not wake a powerful man who has not finished his sleep. Every man has a different dream of woman.. Da'olvren can be any of them, and has been most. I have been soft a long time, it will take time to change as well, but Da'olvren has been many women, she can become one more for Khan. Things change all the time, it is for us to see that they change in a manner that suits us.

On the Last Master

Artemis Flagg, halfork assassin. Artemis is a proper man, thick, strong, insatiable and indomitable. Because he is insatiable he will always desire her, so he will never send her away for long nor will he endanger her needlessly. Because he is indomitable he will oppose all who might come for her, he will protect her and he will fight off all who would seek to challenge him, for he is also proud and clever, which improves his survivability, as well as Da'olvren's. He is thick, so he impresses others and his body language tells them immediately what they are up against. He is strong, both in body and in spirit, and he is smart, he plans for all possibilities and those he cannot plan for he creates back up plans to get around. So far as Da'olvren is concerned there is only one possible chink in his armor. He is capable of love. He has not allowed himself to love, he has his women and then he is done, he takes what he needs and moves on, but he is not moving on from Dolly. She is not naive enough to believe he loves her, nor would she want him to. For he is also a volatile man, one who punishes himself regularly to remain strong. If he saw her as the cause of his weakness he would slit her throat. Therefore she walks a fragile line. She must keep his desire without igniting love..

A New Life

He has many names. He has had many more, but to me he is Khan. Most would name him short and ugly, though thick and strong and wild, devestating in his wrath. To me he is beautiful. Unusual yes, but so is Da'olvren. Always before it has been Master and she who was lorded over. Always before I knew my place and was content with it, for that was how things had always been, how they must remain. I have known many different kinds of men, but most have been strong and cunning, quick to end their fellows to keep me, quicker to test the lengths to which I could be pressed into compliance, lustful and viril, bitter and eager to seek my solace. Always Da'olvren has been dwarfed by those who held her, in spirit as well as in form, not that she would think to act against a master. But Khan has brought an end to masters, and he has brought an end to she who came before. The Da'olvren of the past would never dare to dream what she does now. The Da'olvren of the past would not have a secret smile for all that has been bestowed upon her. The Da'olvren of the past would never have expected the tenderness she receives, the gentle love and appreciation of a very lonely soul, nor the power to lord over men as once she was lorded over. He has promised that I shall be the moon. If that is so then he shall be all that fills the void around me, great and enduring and impenetrable. Alone Khan has yet to meet a shadow of an equal, together we are strong and wild and devestating in our wrath, together he and I cannot be matched.

Story of a Hunter in the City

A doe strolls through the forest. She is set upon by jackals. A Hunter hears her screams and chases them off. He then escorts her to a small clearing where they are attacked by a boar. The Hunter kills the boar and escorts the doe to a the den of some large beast. She leads him to a stream to drink and he falls into a deep slumber. And then the bear who's den it was returns and takes the doe into his bedchamber. While Hunter sleeps under the spell of the water the doe led him to.

On the Hunter

Haun'nar, Jauh'dha youth. Dolly considers Haun'nar perplexing. She thinks there's something fundamentally wrong with him. Perhaps it has to do with growing up in the forest. He claims to trust no one, but that's not really true. He watches everyone, but he obviously trusted me when he shouldn't have, so there you go. He is a hunter and a child of the forest, and that works against him. In the forest you have the hunter, the prey, and many other creatures who do not interfere whom you pay no mind to. When you hunt a bear you do not worry that a deer will stab you from behind, nor do you fear that the trees will uproot themselves and strangle you in your sleep. In a city you must fear everything, for there are no bystanders. Especially not in a dark town like Kolya. In Da'olvren's eyes Haun'nar is foolish because he is wary, but in the wrong ways. He does not recognize the dangers he should be wary of. Also, he doesn't lust as he should, especially if he's been as long in the forest as she's sure he has been. Unless he has a woman in his heart, but even then most would at least be tempted.