~I Want You~

I Want You

('I Want You': part 24)

For several minutes, Darren lay his bed, thinking about what Anna had said to him.
(Why would she assume that i *love* Daniel?)
With each minute that passed by, he began to doubt his state of mind more and more.
(I don't act gayish around him, do i?)
The strangest thing was that his mind drew a complete blank, refusing to answer his sub conscious questions.
Sighing in frustration, he soon fell asleep again.

Daniel woke up, the warm sunshine blinding him as soon as he opened his eyes. (Damn sunshine!) he thought to himself as he crawled out of bed angrily, walking over to the window to shut the blinds.
That's when it came to him: (Yes! I should call *Colby* and tell her about what's going on)
he thought, walking over to the phone.
(But would she understand?)
Too upset to think clearly, he picked up the phone and dialed her number.
She picked it up almost immediately:
"Hello?" she answered in her cheery voice.
"Colby? It's me, Daniel"
"Daniel? well how are you doing? i thought you guys had forgotten about me"
he laughed. "no, i was just calling you to ask you a question"
She paused. "Oh? Okay, what kind of question?"
"Well....it's about Darren....have you got awhile to listen?"
"Sure, what is it?"
After about 20 mins, Daniel had told her everything and was in tears by the time he was done talking about it.
"Oh gosh, Dan, why didn;t you tell me about this sonner? I had no idea that you were suffering this much for all this time"
He blew his nose, trying to resume his normal and un shaky voice. "Well, i couldn't, Colby. You and Darren were happily married, i couldn't just go up to you and said 'hey Colby, i fancy your husband, do you mind?'"
"No, but maybe you could've somehow let *Darren* know at least!"
He sighed. "Colby, do you know how difficult it would be to tell him that? First of all, i was worried that he might not feel the same way, and it might even jeapordize our friendship"
"Gosh Daniel, i don't know what to tell you"
"Well, he knows now anyway, so i guess it doesn't matter" "He knows? how?" she asked curiously.
"last night, all of a sudden he blew up at me for no reason, and then i, being in the sensitive mood i was, i burst out the fact that i loved him and all, you know...."
"So he knows? what did he say to that?"
Daniel shook his head, feeling tears forming in his eyes again. "Well....he said nothing....that's the saddest part....God Colby, what i would've done to hear him say that he loves me back..."
Colby sighed lightly. "Man, now you almost have *me* crying, Daniel. Why don't i call him and tell him what you told me?"
"No way! The situation is already bad enough...i don't wanna make things worst"
"and you have a show tonight, am i right?"
he nodded. "Yes, i don't know *how* i can go back there to do the show after what's happened"
"Well Daniel, all i can do now is pray for you and your well being for today, tonight, and whenever in the next few hours, and please call me and let me know what ends up happening, alright?"
He shook his head. "Thanks, Colby......but most likely all you're gonna hear from me is more tears....nothing is gonna happen you realize. I'm gonna go back there ,lie to my bandmates by telling them that nothing is wrong, and then do our show, and nothing will have been resolved....i can't do that, i'm not a robot, i have emotions too, Colby"
"I know you do, Daniel. Look, why don't you go back, see what Darren has to say first and then see what happens?"
"I'm too ashamed to face him again...he probably hates me now, or thinks of me as some disgusting creature because i like him"
"Darren is not like that, and you of all people should know that, Daniel"
she said with a smile.
"Colby, i'll call you later, ok? Thanks"
hanging up the phone, Daniel looked out the window, contemplating what to do.

what should dan do?