So, obviously I don't thrill any of you people out there in CyberLand, but, hey, I'm not really writing this for you anyway.
This past January, I realized just how much my life really sucks. I'm employeed in a nowhere job, I'm still in school, I live with my parents, that old song and dance. Well, my financial aid was canceled, and I thought I wouldn't be able to go to school spring session. The longer I thought about it, the more I wanted to backpack Europe. Well, I'm the practical girl, so I told my family and friends about it. They proceeded to talk me out of it, but I haven't dropped it... which leads me to where I am today, still stuck in a dead-end job, no life, no friends, etc.
This is the longest amount of time I've ever held on to any idea. I really, really want to go. So, if by January 2006 I haven't shaked it, I'm going to go. Ireland, here I come!

Hello World
If anyone ever reads this, then you're probably wondering who in the hell am I and why does my opinion really freakin matter!? Okay, my name is Amy, I'm 24 years old and live just outside of Columbia, SC. As to my opinions, they, like everyone else's out there, really shouldn't matter to you, but they do. For some reason we always listen to the people we shouldn't.
So, I get up at 8:09 this morning, had to be at work at 9 and live 30 minutes away. I rush through getting dressed, throw on some clothes, brush my teeth and run out the door. I'm having to drive my dad's old broke down Chevy S-10 because I blew the motor out of my Saturn (who knew they'd stop working if they didn't have oil, go figure). Well, two days ago it started this awful lurch thing. Once it hits a certain speed limit, it starts to hiccup. This is driving me CRAZY, why, because I am a speed demon, I love to fly down the interstate.
Anyway, back to this morning, I get almost to work before I come out of rush mode and actually hear what's going on. I was at first shocked. Picture this, I'm sitting at the red light out in front of my job, sweat pouring down my back (no a/c in the truck), waiting for the stupid light to change when Toby (the dj)Radio Station says something about some guy calling him uneducated because he made some remark that I didn't catch about the bombings in London this morning.
I was shocked. It was the first time I had heard about it. All I could think was can we not solve any problems without blowing something up?!?!? So, I get to work (which totally sucks in case you're wondering) and later on find out that 37 people died and at least 700 were injured. Thirty seven people are never going to go home and see their families again, they'll never get to enjoy the beauty of a sunrise or set, their lives are over. Just like that.
It makes you look at your life and wonder, Is this really what I want to have done? After all, these 37 people woke up this morning, some of them like me, in a rush to get to work, thinking that they still had tomorrow to take that trip, find a lover, have children, take their children to the park or zoo. It makes me wonder, if I died tomorrow, would I have truly enjoyed the time I had here? Would I have loved like I should have? Did I enjoy the good times and regret mistakes made and mourn the losses? Did I live or did I just go through the motions of life?
It makes you see just how fragile and short life is, and it should make us all treasure it that much more. Enjoy the now, you may not have in a minute.