Sunni Spirit
Occupation: Domestic Goddess 
Living a "charmed" life!
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Thank you, for visiting my web site! Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Sunni. Since you’ve taken the time to visit, I s’pose I could tell you a little bit about myself.
O.K. let me share with you about how I stumbled onto this path. Ahem...I have always had an affinity toward any kind of mysticism. When I was about 10ish, I remember my mom showing me how to use a pendulum for “yes” and “no” answers. Also, when I was in 5th grade, this may sound silly, but I wanted to see if a certain boy I had my eye on liked me. I can’t remember where I got the idea or learned this, but I did a scrying project with a mirror, a candle, a knife and an apple. I don’t even remember if it worked. I guess that is when my first interest ever started. Of course, at the time, I didn’t know it was “Witchcraft” per se; I just thought it was cool!
Well, a few years later, my mom "found religion," as they say. The church convinced her to get rid of all her Edgar Casey books, etc. and she felt guilty. So, through my high school years and young adulthood, the basic background for my beliefs was Baptist. I was never a staunch, three-times-a-week church person. In fact, my mom had to fight with me to go with her sometimes (hey, I was a typical teenager). Now, throughout most my adult life, I have had my struggles with “what” to believe. I have gone from Christian salvation phases and Bible studies, and trying other churches as well as the Baptist, to Pagan points of view with still wanting to learn about the tarot and astrology, and other mysteries untold. And then back to the salvation phase and yet another Bible study. I even went through some Catholic lessons. That was a disaster. All we did was argue and this Priest was a very vulgar person, but I know not all Priests are like that. I just had a lemon for a teacher. I was constantly at war with myself about what was right and what was wrong. If I followed the Christian doctrine, then I couldn’t learn about astrology, the tarot or any other kind of mysticism I happened to be interested in. I felt so guilty I was depressed over it. If I did go back to studying the tarot, etc., then my Christian beliefs would sneak up on me and then I would feel guilty and get depressed all over again.
Now what?!?! I learn. I started buying books on
Pagan/Wiccan beliefs. I didn’t know what Wicca was at the
time. I saw books on the topic in the “new age” section
of the bookstore. It was always the "atmosphere" in the
church that Pagans were bad people and didn't believe in God.
Educating
myself on this subject, I have found this to be very
untrue. The Pagan belief system is, yes, very different from that
of the Christian doctrines, but Pagans are just as human,
feeling, caring, and as spiritual as anyone else in any faith.
They just perceive their Deity differently than Christians do, in
their own personal and spiritual way. Their main objective toward
others is to "harm none." Christians can't disagree
with that. I'm not saying that Pagans are the meek and mild
mannered ones, they do their share of Christian bashing as well,
and I don't think that is right either.
I've read the history of the Witch Trials of
Salem and Europe. A very, very sad chronicle of human behavior
displayed in the name of God by Christians. I bought more books about this
“new age” stuff. I had to see for myself what I was so
"spellbound" by
was really bad and evil. Being the Virgo that I am, I
wanted to learn not just the belief system, but also everything;
the tarot, astrology, runes, palmistry, all of the above, and of
course, the practical and magickal uses of herbs and essential
oils. (I could have my own New Age book store now!) I lived in a
very small town of about 1,000 people, and everyone knew
everything about you and your dog. So, I didn't have anyone to
talk to about "this stuff" with. After I started
tutoring myself, I felt more comfortable about what I was doing
(I mean the tarot, and astrology stuff). I began doing online
tarot readings for people, and readings for maybe less than a
hand full of people in town. After that, a couple of other
"like minded" people happened to come out of the
woodwork and we caught up with each other. It was kind of funny,
because this one lady and I knew each other for a long time, we
even worked at the bank together, but we had no idea about the
"closet interests" we had in common. We had a great
time together reading cards, checking out each other's books,
etc. It was nice to talk to somebody...finally! She made a
special wooden box for me, (10"x10"x4") hand painted navy blue with huge
golden sun on top of the lid and a silver moon and stars around
the sides. It's beautiful and I love it! (Thank you, KM!) She
gave it to me before I moved to a different town. I keep my tarot
cards in it.
Anyway, I know what I believe or do may not
agree with most people, but I am not harming anyone. I'd like to
think I am helping people. Divine gifts are given in many
different forms. It has been a very unconventional journey for me
trying to figure out my spirituality, many years actually. 
My
decision of which path to follow has brought me depressions,
happiness, confusion, and excitement. Choosing this type of path is not the kind of
decision one makes out-of-the-blue. After almost nine years, I
have exhausted myself from masking my beliefs behind
life-threatening situations by simply trying to please the
"norm" of the world and people around me. It just isn't
working anymore...I gotta be me! I know now this is where I need
to be. It is always the path I wonder back to.
I had two different past life readings quite a few years ago. O.K., now, these two people knew nothing about me, nor did I give them any hints on what I was looking for in the readings. One reader said, I was a healer, and lived outside a community and was considered to be a Witch. That may be where my interest in herbs has stemmed from (no pun intended). The other reader said I was a Witch, and that is why I have a tendency to be attracted to the Pagan side, because it is familiar to me. To give them the seal of approval for "kosher" might be a stretch, but I thought it was ironic how they both basically said the same thing. I don't know why, but I have always felt a kinship toward Witches. I have never thought of them as evil, mean spirited, or threatening people, even as a young child. (I always wanted to be a Witch for Halloween!) I don't believe there are any good or bad Witches, and I don't believe there are any good or bad Christians. How one presents their faith toward others will be the outcome of the public's opinion. Unfortunately, there are people on both sides of the table who abuse their faith, hence giving everyone a bad rap.
So, "am
I" a Witch? Well, first of all, do you believe the
reality that the practice of Witchcraft does or might exists? If
you do, who is this person performing this custom...a Witch? Not
all Witches (wink) are old, with green skin, carrying poisonous
apples around in a basket. Out of ALL the religions in this
world, I do not follow a traditional route. I have my
own opinion of which my deity is. I practice herbalism, I read
tarot cards, runes, dissect astrology charts, and use a pendulum
from time to time. And, yes, (((gasp!!!))) I enjoy the study and
practice of Witchcraft. If that makes me a Witch, so be it. I
certainly don't mind the title. Regardless of whether people
believe that Witches do exist or not, will have to be left to their surmise. My thoughts and actions
may not be perfect, but whose is in this world? I do know this; I
am NOT an evil, wicked, corrupt, hurtful, old battle-ax! People,
who really know me, know this. Of course, on a bad day
or provoked, we can all show the not-so-"sunni" side of
ourselves. This is who I am and I enjoy what I do! So, to answer
the question above depends upon whether or not you believe in
Witches! C'est la vie!
There's a period of life where we swallow a knowledge of ourselves and it becomes either good or sour inside.
~ I have chosen to use that knowledge for the good ~
Thank you for taking the time to read my
longwinded profile. (You put a keyboard in front of me and I get
carried away!) I now live in a town of about 10,000 people. This
web site has been a big step out of the "broom closet"
for me, shall I say? I have needed to express myself for a very
long time. I am still somewhat careful to whom I tell my interests to. Ya
never know. I doubt anyone in this town will see my web site
anyway, unless I give them the address. If they happen to
flounder across this place surfing the net, then they will learn
something new about me...something new indeed! 
Also, my husband’s views of religion are different than mine, and I would not want to jeopardize his career. I am truly blessed to have a husband who loves me just the way that I am. For 18 years now, he has put up with my manic-depressive moods (ups and downs), struggles of belief systems, bad habits, cures, and my "brilliant unearthing and judgments." HA! Thank you, CC. I love you!
I also have my own business, and wouldn't want to have a decline in clientele by handing out business cards for "Tarot Readings and Astrology Chart Interps." Um, I don't think so. Above all, I most certainly would not my children to be teased at school because of my beliefs. I have found that the friends and people I have told, still accept me the way they always have. Only now, they want their cards read! I have only had one "friend" damn me (literally) for my belief system. *sigh* I guess that person wasn't a true friend after all. People are afraid of what they do not understand. They shun it; instead of acquire the correct knowledge about it.
The stigma associated with the "W"
word and "Tarot cards," and the reaction from it, is
why I, and probably many others, do not flaunt their
spirituality. I feel if people are out there parading around like
a sideshow, decked out in black, dripping with pentacles, testing
people to make a point, then they are not serious about their
spiritual path. They are only looking to shock people and get a
reaction, and that doesn’t help anyone. Very few of my
relative family members, other than my family of five, know about my
interests. Actually, about six years ago, one of my
brother-in-laws did ask me if I was a Witch. 
All I was doing was showing my sister-in-law my
aromatherapy stuff and the bottles I had planned to use for them.
I don't know if he was joking or not, I'm sure he was, but I just
kind of laughed and said, "Yeah right." I have since
then told two of my sister-in-laws about my beliefs and what I
feel, and finally showed them this web page. They really weren't
that surprised, because even though I had never really revealed
the extent of my interest, they knew this was always an
attraction of mine. They both said I have seemed happier now than
I was before. My brother-in-laws also know as well...they still love their
sister-in-law and have never judged me ~smiles! I used to keep all my books hidden away from friends and
family in the closet of my bedroom, but now I have many of them
out in the computer room at home. If they ask me about them, I'll
tell them. Actually, it would be a tremendous relief for me let
them know what I give credence to,
instead of worrying about what they've seen in my office and what
they're thinking. See? There I go again, relentlessly attacking
the keyboard!
No two people in this world are alike, not even twins. If society could just accept people for whom they are, this world would be a much better place to live in.
Sounds too simple, doesn't it.
Always keep a ~Sunni Spirit
Probably my most immense passion is reading & writing (as if you couldn't tell). I love learning, singing and listening to a different variety of music. I enjoy making herbal remedies, bath salts/oils and using aromatherapy. I also like to collect crystals and fairy figurines.
I enjoy any kind of challenge with the computer: building web pages, graphic designed documents & business cards, journalizing, scanning and uploading pictures, Internet use and trying to figure out "why the hell this damn computer won't do what I want it to do!"
I love cooking and baking (but not cleaning up the mess), and of course, reading the tarot, astrology, herbalism, etc., and practical magick. Oh, and my favorite Soap Opera: All My Children (watching since October 1982!)
Sunni Spirit
