Feeling a bit better today at last, have been ill for weeks and weeks with a chest infection (borderline pneumonia) and it was not one bit fun. The one good thing to come out of it was that I realised things don't completly go to pot if I am out of action thanks to Kev and the kids. And also Kev was just so brilliant it was untrue. He even took time off work to look after me on my darkest days. I could not belive he turned work down for me!!! He is away now for a few days and I am missing him so much. I hate it when he is not around. I am just so hoping we do get to go away for our holiday befroe school starts, we all need a break so much. Just waiting for money to come in so we can get away, fingers crossed it comes really soon. I want a break with my family!!!

I am fed up a bit today. I have got my new scales and I am heavier than I thought, what a bugger! This now means I have further to go than I thought with my diet! LIFE IS SO UNFAIR! I guess this means I will have to work a bit harder. Tommorow is Charlies birthday and we are going to exeter so he can spend all his birthday money. He is so excited. I am going to spend the day doing laundry and and getting tidy at home. What a fun life I lead.

It's soo hot again today,I have had Izzy this morning (a little girl I look after) and we made some bright red playdough. I must be mad slaving over a hot stove in this weather.Spent yesterday building and erecting my bird table, already it is a hive of activity for the bird community. It must be kind of like when a new cafe or restaraunt opens up in your town, they certainly seem to be passing the word around fast! Kev is away in Bournmouth this week, so it is lonely in the evenings when the kids are in bed. Did not get to bed till late last night coz the dog ran off and I was still outside in my PJ's at 12.45 last night trying to catch him! There was a helicopter flying around really low at 12.30 it was so loud it actually shook the house. I guess they must be out looking for someone. That's it for now need to find a birthday pressie for mum.
Jxxx

This is me
I am just me, quite together (i think). No major hang ups or mental health issues (i think). Smoke (too much), not really a drinker (unless someone twists my arm) I like the finer things in life, travel, music, movies, being outside, cooking, doing arty stuff, politics, nature, good conversation and writing. I like being busy but that is not to say I don't enjoy the odd day doing absolutly bugger all!
Sometimes I get down, from thinking too much, but mostly I try to look on the bright side. I am independent, strong willed and sometimes quite funny, some people think I can be aloof and distant but that just becuase I take a while to suss people out. I am not mistrusting by nature, but nor am I stupid or naive. I like being home, but I like seeing new places, there are so many places I want to go! The most important people in my life are my kids, my Kev, my family and my true friends. I have not had a hard life, I have had ups and downs like anyone else, and I think I have been pretty lucky really. I enjoy my job (working with kids)though it is not what I would be doing if I could be doing what I really really want, which is writing songs. But I won't go into that now as I am having a creative block, and hate all my work at the moment. I am going through a temporary (i hope) time of frustrating creative self hate. I know what I mean anyway. Maybe it will pass, but for the time being I cannot bear to pick up guitar and play any of my stuff or write anything new. Very frustrating but still.
I cant be bothered to write anymore now, and I still have to try and work out how the hell this thing works. ho hum.
jxxx