fack off
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: stand by me-ben.e.king
ahhh


so i woke up around 12. which i love because i can do it again for the next 4 days. woot woot.
i sat around the house, reading....and before i new it, it was like 2 something. i went for a walk, because its so nice out. im sad that the snow is leaving. ekkkkkk.but what can u do. i walked past a fat school....cross walker......and he thought i was going to cross the street, so he took out his big bad sign that says STOP...and i turned the corrner. hahaha i felt kinda bad..

so my retarded family is yet again having problems. im walking on eggshells around my mom. and lying again to my dad. i hate beign so nervous. there are two types of nervous..the nervous feeling u get when ur around someone u like, and then theres the nervous where ur constantly watching over ur shoulders and ur back....i hate that nervous. i'v been feeling it all day because im a paranoid freakshow...
its already 5 and its been another total waste of a day where i could have gone out and done something productive but chose to stay home and be a hermit.

i dont no what else to type..and its bugging me that im sitting here nervous for some reason.

so if u want to drop out of school, and ran away to another country with me... HOLLLA.

j'dore dior........new york!new york!new york!
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: envy me-50
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm new york?......
possibly not. mr rancourt is picking 40 grade 11 students to go to new york for a business trip, first semester of grade 12.
im in a business course. i want to go. i want to see broadway.i want to ride an 8 hour bus ride. i want to go shopping on fith avenue.i want to spend 4 nights in a hotel.i want to share a double bed.i want to be on a tight budget for breakfast,lunch,and dinner.i want to get mugged! pick me! pick me! pick me! i probably just jynxed myself....bah

my exams are over! wooot woot! couldn't be any more happier. i thought it was pretty easy stuff i reviewd with my tutor..i started giving up ...or slacking on page 8. then i got out and smart people who were passing that class with very high marks, said they thought it was hard....?
so maybe i did horrible.

today was a shit day. i didnt get home till 2;30....regular bus time. bumed around the school and shit. nothing to exciting. i sat on the bench alone for a while because other people have lives......which i dont. so if u could, please come kidnap me and take me to go have some fun. iv earned it.

i get tomorrow, thursday, friday, weekends off..........................loving it?
i think so. catching up on some big sleeps. wooooot. wooooooot.




i just came home from a walk, and my checks are rosey. uh. walked past my old school and saw swing sets...how badly did i want to go and sit on one, and swing forever?...............real bad. so bad i would push a handicap kid off it, so i could have it.

media
marketing
relgion
english

friends continue to drift, i contine to change.but what can u do?


have a good night, and happy monday!
goood luck on ur last exam bitchesssss.

r.i.p uncle jerry
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: uptown girls-billy joel
it feels as if the day is never going to end. i finished my exam at 9:40 which was pretty easy stuff..common sense shit..and i asekd for my current mark.

73%=tests
15%=other shit
thats not to bad, so if i fail the exam (which i dont think i will..i new more shit then other people) i still pass...eh?

so todya was boring as fuck, i was goign to write my g1..except elise forgot her sin number and shit...i was so pumped. i stayed up till 12;00 last night studying the book. i did learn some new stuff..so me,her and tiffiny are going to write it on next monday or something like that...which i dont mind since i get more time to study.
so i sat around for like 2 hours waiting for elise..
then sat at the cafe with robyn and nicole. and we did nothing all day.
i spent the last of the day with, elise, evyn, and hahah sam.
my lsat exam is tomorrow, and im pretty excited exams are over..

ohhh i just for a forward...something about u write about 10 people u know...ahhh then u forward it to those 10 people and they figure out which one they are. might as well add it on here since some of them don't e-mail.

hahah its kinda creepy but ur the first person to pop into my head...i think ur funny, and a machine. i dont understand how u can be so school smart, yet so stupid in real life situations haha. i also don't get how u can eat junk foods everyday and still be the size that u are. ur someone im fairly close with.and im happy with that. we haven't had any fights or anything yet...and i hope it stays that way....u are my 'mexican bitch'





2.).......one word:hot.



3.)out of the 2 girls im closest with ...ur one of them.u always seem to make my day because u make me laugh a million times a mintue. i like when u mouth beach because that always cheers me up.im glad im not the only one with the obsessive crush on that person im refering to in number 2...hahah.i think the memory of us becoming friends...will remain with me forever (....man or women.......) same with the memory of what u wore of the first day of school.... bah

4.)hummmm im going to try and describe the relationship we have without making it tooo obvious..it will be hard. ur the only person who knows to imatate my laugh to the exact point. hahah, u always...ALWAYS make me laugh. i like when u mouth beach because it makes me laugh. i like the trouble we have gotten into, and the low marks we have recived together, because of each other. hahaha. my day is always so shitty without u. my favourite memories are usually the ones where we moke together. for a friendship since grade..7/8 its great that we haven't had fights, tears, and all that shit. ......except one.but that doesn't count, becasue it lasted a day ahahaha u are my favourite glue sniffing, windex drinking, alcholic, micmac, brown skinned, natural feather attracter...this could go on forever, so i'll end it with. u are my favourite native.
besides clayton..

5.)umm this will come out harsh, but i dont miss u at all. i thought i would miss u a lot more then i do now. its probably..o wait..no it is because we don't talk or shit. iv quite frankly given up on u. i did try in the past,and it was embarassing on my behalf, but fuck that its ur choice, and ur fault. so if u do read this, maybe this will make things more clear for u.

6.)i must add u on my list...and i dont no if u read this or not...uhhh u make me laugh! ...and the occasiaonly drool-ige..hahaha.i think im failing math because of u. and i'm known as the 'AZN' because of u hahah and this all started from FREE CAO...i think its pretty obvious who u are. i like when u make fun of kelson, because it makes my day. always. and when u make fun of dan with me, because no one else does. and i think its special how when i give u the silent treatment, u actaully try and regain my forgiveness....im going to end this with... u had purple jeans in grade 4...

7.)ummm u listen to oldies, and i like spending time with u. u make me laugh. im glad iv become friends with u again, and i regret what has happened in the past, because i think thats why we arent as that close. but im glad were friends now, and i hope u feel the same.

8.)i still consider u my best friend, but things have changed, becasue if i was doing this 2 months ago, u would have been number one, and i could write a NOVEL about u.explaining ur life story..i use to know u so well, and things happened..and i hate when 'things happen'. but im glad i still talk to u and shit. i dont blame u for any of this shit thats happened, becasue i knwo its all my fault. im retarded. i let go of firends to easy when i know i shouldnt.well...im happy u still talk to me the same even tho i dont talk or look at u the same. but maybe it was the stress of exams and all that shit because i think im ready to start again. i mean a friendship like this since grade 9...and all the fun times we have had....ohhh the many times u have made me laugh to the point i thought i was going to puke. the way we can talk about nothing for over 2 classes straight. i use to be so attcahed to u!! and i love how we had no fights...well just one-but thats natural. u dont bug me with stupid questions when im upset...but rather u make me happy which is awesome. im such a retard for fucking u over so many times. yet u havent fucked me over once.through all the friendships that have happened and gone..and past and all that fucking bullshit, u have stuck by me..always on my side...
im sorry, and .....im just so sorry...and i know u know im talking about u.

9.)racist comments always make me laugh. especially from u.i like how u dont give a fuck about anything..

10.) our friendship died from a stupid fight. things are usualy akward between us...........but......im...ok...with....it...sometimes.......






this forward made me realize how reatrded, selfish,self centered, rude, unforgiving, whinny, annoying,sneaky,uncaring,i am.how im a bitch...the worst friend anyone could have.
fuck that. im sorry.....
look at my pathetic list...look how many actuall friends i have.



gawd. this was disappointing......

"u would love him even if he had 3 ears! u would just be like OH HE CAN HEAR ME BETTER"
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: simple minds-breakfast club soundtrack
i love the breakfast club. its one of my favourite movies. if u haven't seen it..or heard of it..where the fuck have u been?...i highly suggest u watch it.
but im sure u'v seen it...everyone has..


so today was sunday..(stating the obvious) best sunday i had in a while i guess. nothing to exciting. i went shopping for some binders...no luck. i hate ugly binders..so i didnt buy any. its pretty retarded how i wont buy binders unless they look pretty haha. gawd, i spent like i duno..10 mintues in wal-mart and it felt like 5 hours...it was packed..and so big that when u get out, ur just like what the fuck....i went in there expecting to buy binders, gum, lotion, and shit like that...i got out with a pack of gum...i hate the new wal-mart..and im starting to hate brockville..

i went to the mall with my aunt becasue she had to return something?some guy with a microphone and a camera, was like begging ppl to come and speak to him about "what does valentines day mean to you?" i think he was for the news. i didnt want to be on tv! so like every other girl..i shot him down. ahah it was kinda sad. and i thought about it..what does valentines day mean to me?..
as a kid..everyone loves to go out and buy those valentines day cards..any cartoon.. all of them are fucking sweet.
then things change, because things always change. and it could be for the better..or could be for the worst. again for me, and for some of us ladies..we will be spending valentine's day alone..no one to spoil us with gifts. its cute to see couples on valentines day tho. my perfect valentines day would be..
spending the day on extasy..
hahah im just kidding.but what does valentines day mean to me?
a big fat reminder that im single.
thats what valtentines day means to me.
of course things will change when i get someone, if ever.

aww poor fat bald man thats a news reporter..

so im having doutbs about my g1, but i hope thats just temperory.white chicks made my night last night. pretty funny. and i have that song my michelle branch on my download list..ha...ha..

hahahahahah michelle branch.
one word: brooke


BUT. i have a lot of stuff to do, im dead tired. so im going to get going.



good night!! sweet dreams, and happy sunday.


love:diana

"i hope its not ghonera...again"
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: somewhere over the rainbow-isereal kamakawwiwo
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?







i wrote an entry in here early..my computer froze up and i was fucked.



so i woke at 8:30ish and went to a tutor seshion for prep for my exam which is on tuesday.walked from downtown to my moms..got a ride home haha, then slept.i slept for like 5 extra hours today. it was much needed sleep. all saved up from the past like 2 months. loved it.



i went to
www.youngdrivers.com

and did a practice test...failed it.

i havent studied for cooking yet....meh

i cant believe we're on the next sesmter already guys!! i mean after this..its only one more year till were free to do whatever the fuck we feel like. i cant believe im in grade 11....sometimes i still feel new to the whole highschool shit...iv decided to go to toronto for college...make a new start..new friends..of course ill keep my old ones..if thats possible?...but everyones going to ottawa. which isnt that fun! you'll see the same old people!
gawd. a whole new setting...i want to get the fuck out of brockville.haha i cant wait!college time is crucial...not just because you need an education for a career..for a lifestyle, but rather, to learn shit on ur own..experience life on ur own. we live with our gay parents..we occasionaly go crazy. from stress and the simplest things that if u take time to see, it doesnt matter.
just imagine liviing on ur own..with money that is limited...

ugh. i love it. i cant wait.



im worried about the friendship shit thing tho..i think im a pretty neat person..i think this applies to everyone..or...at least someone else...im so shy and i dont no why. i use to be so different..i wasnt always this retarded. when im alone, im way different then i am with friends most the time. i think im a caring person...and i notice the slightest things..a scar..a frekcle... thats just how i am.(creepy) and people don't even notice if im beside them or not...

haha how ironic is life eh.


anyway, ladies. each of u guys who is sick. thanks for sharing the wealth, haha.


hope u enjoy ur saturday night..
im going to watch white chicks...




DEE*

"how do you...spell...motorcycle?..."
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: how deep is your love-bee gees
well emily would be happy to hear im wearing my retainers...

so its friday night, and im in the mist of cleaning my house. which i cant complain about becasue theres nothing going on tonight?...the girls arent up to to much, so i dont feel like a loser. haha
ummm today was great just becasue i got an exam out of the way. happy to report that i raped that mother fucker..with my eyes closed. and i am almost certain that i was the first person to finish. i finished a bit before the "half point" and u get to leave.. i left, and followed..yes thats right."followed" evyn around for a bit..elise popped out of no where and we treked our way to mcdonalds for the breakfast everyone loves. except..we didnt make it there in time in the blistering cold. so we sad around and ate fatty mcdonalds foods and i am pretty sure we were getting a head rush from the stinky smell of that shit hole. not only did we eat in an abandonded area..we left a mess... elise's second hand ornage jucie on the ground, and a burger covered in mayo. hahaha.
we walked back to school, and i found a $20.00 bill on the ground, it made my day. but it goes into my pocket for my g1 that im writing on monday with elise!
so we went back to school..got kicked out of a spelling bee area... evyn ditched us to go to robs, and so it was me and piecer. we sat at the bench, and we werent doign anything. mr obrien was like okay guys..u have to go to lirbrary or cafe. and ur out of uniform..unless u have slips.
and elise, and me have the must pissed off faces on, because..all we are doing is...sitting there...no exams are going on..none.
and he says to get out of the school, or switch back into uniforms and sit there.

fuck that.
we left.
elise went to annas house, i went o my moms who drove me home.

what a homo. gawd.

ohhh la la, i went to the new wal-mart last night. its set up exactly as the one in the states. but ...call mr.lopes..because for some reason im against shopping at wal-mart. im so worried, there going to kill brockville. and then leave. it was jam packed there last night.if u actaully take time to think about it, wal-mart is pretty much brockville already..they even has cash machines so u can scan shit by urself..is that nesscery?
...either way since they have those machines..they cut down on workers. those wokers could be students who need money to support themselves..savings for college and shit. so if u got layed off at wal-mart...or no..
if you got replaced by wal-mart for a machine..ur out looking for another job. but no where elses needs employyes becasue there not busy..becasue everyones at wal-mart. everywhere looks so empty already....maybe things will look better in the spring. hahah

my dad did buy me something tho...season 2..of the simple life. and im not the only one that bums simple life..

anyway, happy friday night!!

"evyn gets a discount. thats stupidddd!"
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: your so vain-carly simon
I'm in a very good mood....well semi-good mood. my day was fairly good so i didn't end up killing myself. haha. im just kidding..but anyway.

anthro we got a class photo to go in the trophy case.it sounds gay, but we made history ladies and gents! it kinda sucks that i wont see that class anymore..it doesnt matter that ill have some of those people in some of my classes sesmter, it will be different. that class...is only a class. altogether. because of that class, i re-kindled lost friendships..and im glad that they are back to normal. i have a 79 going into the exam which to me, is pretty damn good. could i have done better?...a little bit. do i care ?...no. so to everyone in that class, that reads this shit, fare-well! and keep in touch!......


i skipped foods to study in the library with holly dolly.but ended up going back and forth and watching a bunch of guys playing star wars monoploy. which was very entertaining.

math, ahhh the review. i knew half of it, and i forgot to ask my mark going into the exam. awww im going to miss talking to Nick!!...........booooooo hoooooooooo. i wondrered around the halls for like 20 mintues.

drama......awwwwwwwww saddest part of the day...
it was adams last day, and evyn wasnt here. we snuck out 5 mintues early...but chadly, robyn, adam, and i just sat around and talked about the most random things.
im going to miss that class, and miss him! .. aww.
its to depressing i dont want to say anything haha


so over rall, im fucking glad this smester is over. i dont care that i failed math, im fucking ready to change into another semster. i changed back to academic english.
im ready to go buy need binders! and new pencils, and pens! its going to feel like the first day of school again!! minus the shopping for school clothes...

i got sniped for my black pants again, i skipped lunch detention because im bad to the bone. and now i think ill end up having an in-school on my new sesmter. ahah which is bad.

i am yet again procatsinating to studying for thsi anthro shit. i have to memorize to much shit, and im feelin it. i left stuyding for this exam, in one night. im pretty confident i can do it, but i just dont feel like it. i would rather sit here with my thoughts then to study.


ONE NIGHT TO MEMORIZE this shit. i gotta start somewhere.

so anyway, i better wrap this up. good luck with your exams, and if you are leaving, good luck with everything else!!! and rest assured, i will miss you!! even if we are not that close, you have an impact on me!


lots of love!: diana

"when i saw the samuri sword..i thought of u diana.."
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: since you've been gone-kelly clarkson
today was a horrible day. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible. horrible day.


despite 1 or 2 things. i dont even think my friends reliaze i stand beside them half the time. and it feels like im the only one who doesnt get associcated with. Talks about the most random things, and thanks to me, im not in any of anything they talk about...or discuss. its honestly like im an outsider standing there, watching..listening..it feels like shit, when u are forgot about. woooo....

im so sick of school.exams start friday and just my luck i forget my fucking text book at school.im honeslty goign to go crazy if tomorrow is just as worse.

i guess if anything good, or that im happy about is someone talked to me in foods. but he was nice. we talked about the most random things.
and its pretty much the first time in the semster i actaully talked to him. and now that i consider him a friend, the semster is over.

dont u ever think, the person u ignore, dont even notice, dont bother to get to know...could be the only person that could actaually make u fucking happy??
-think of everyone u have taken for granted. all the assholes u dont even bother to relaize how important they are to u. everyones wanting someone they can't have. why doesnt everyone, or anyone, accept someone thats lower them ? or possibly the same?go for someone who is remotelly interested in u. everyone aims for the high person and ends up getting hurt. shoot for someone low, and u will honestly love every minute of it. so many ppl on my msn have nicknames about there LOVER. infos, profiles. about that "soul mate" bah, then a week, a month, a day...any day. that person breaks there heart and they stop "loving" them. no more soul mate.just as simple as that.
iv come to the conclusion, know one i know. knows what 'love' truly is.

everyone is a slut in a way, some people admitt it, some people are in denial..but its true.

you are a slut, lost in this world. just trying to find someone to love you as you are...

"IF I HAD A DICK I WOULD STICK IT IN UR ASS"
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: riders on the storm-snoop
wow. only a retard could not no how to make chocolate milk....either to much milk or to much chocolate. damn.......


so today was an alright day. many exciting things, but also full of bullshit.
anthro was fucking ridiculious. some girl did like a 4 year presentation on sucide. she played a christain rock band shit, and read like 80 poems. she repeated the same information at least 3 times each...and i thought i was going to comitt sucide.

food was retarded. we still haven't been talked to about our tests. and i hope it stays that way.

math class was burning hot. emily nd evyn had an inschool, so it was vinny, robyn, nick. except they were doing their work...i havent got shit done..and its going to stay that way.

i still havent studied for my anthro exam yet YIKES.............im goign to brookes house tomorrow, and thursday because our exam is on friday. then im going to write my g1 with elise on firday!!!! and im not studying for that.im so fucking lazy. hahaha id rather sit here and talk to people, then pass my exams to get a career..or to get a life. hahahahahaha meh.


drama we had a subby, so josh and beach were jumping off tables and shit. we left at random times.
got mouthed by josh like a million times about the most retarded things haha. rode the elvator..with robyn. USING the brails haha (for blind people)
and then i stayed after school with emily and robyn bc i had an ortho appointment at 4....bah. the retainers are still a joke, and i have to start wearing them at school in case my teeth go back to looking ugly. 5 years with braces..and its going to be another couples years with bitches.


blah blah after school.blah blah. OH! emily,robyn and me were in the library..and guess who i spoted?...dina. hahah so she got mouthed and left. then we couldnt find her anyway in school...but when we werent looking for her, we saw her down the hallway, and then she got mouthed again.



i walked home, and on my way home i stopped at pita sartia and talked to c unit,em,robyn. and came home......blah.

after exams do we get a week off or something, because i desperarlty need a break from schoool. everyone is sick of the routine. we need a change, or something. im pumped to fail my g1 test, and waste more then $125!!. wooot wooot!


BAH.MUG SHOTS!!




the best part of the day by far was getting away with a free lunch. i was standing in line ready to pay for my lunch.. the lady skipped me for some reason. (everyone thinks its becasue im asain) i looked at elise who started laughing for some reason ahha so i just followed elise out. and saved myself like $5 something. muahahaha im still dirt poor.

my fingers nails are a disgusting pink. i painted them a dark red with cheap nail poish that i got my christmas. (which i hate getting as a gift since my mom owns a fucking NAIL Store)

the cheap nail polish turned my nails a pink, and they won't come off. i want to write a death threat to the company. i look liek a fucking dirt bag. it looks like i painted my nails with a fucking highlighter.



anyway, i wrote yet another novel.



enjoy.

"yah...advil...heh heh"
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: pieces of me...-ashley simpson..ha..ha..
hurray for chad, for dropping my camera on the ground today! it smashed into a million and 4 trillion pieces. it was the highlight of my life.
im just kidding.it didnt break bu if it did.... i would be in so much shit.plus its my life.hahah i can upload the pictures so u can see them...

the genuis who knows how to hold a fucking camera...

a very cute picture. evyns on the phone with kurtis...jackson.... a.k.a 50 cent



and i have a picture of emily but it wont let me load it...so u'll have to do without.



today went by fairly fast...by second period it felt like it was 4th..so i guess..that means it went by slow?...

i think i might have gotten caught my my cheating habits in foods. ms gilpin kept mine,robbys, and holly's test...soooooo...im kinda scared yet, i kinda dont care...its the last test. what is she going to do?..


ummm i think the drama presentation went 'alright' i think the first time was a bit better, but this time our scene changes were a lot better. uh... party scene was horrible since i was nervous becasue of adam! and i didnt maul him haha. he gave me extasy and i ate like a goof becasue iw as shaking for reason.


i had lucnh detention today with robyn and evyn, and i got another one form mr mceill for being late. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hoooooo.

there yah go!


umm todya for drama i wore a short skirt..i felt kinda like a hootch when i was walking up the stairs. hahah i got dirty looks from people.


today math was horrible, the room stinks of B-O because of Dan. it makes me want to puke.


anthro was boring, presentations..
my exam is on friday! so i better start cracking the books open.i have exams on friday and monday. a break on wednesday and foods one on thursday.



anyway im kinda bored. i dont have much else to say except i feel burnt.


i miss justine cooper!!.......been gone for almost 2 weeks!








take care!