Guilt.

Boy do I ever feel guilty. My stepdad has now officially put in more hours on my house than I have. I gave him a backdoor key because he wanted to haul away some junk on Monday, and have come to find out that he's been out there working on it every night this week. I, of course, have been in rehearsal all week, so I haven't even set foot out there.

So today at lunch and tonight after rehearsal I will go. It's not like I will be losing sleep by going out there late at night, since last night I tossed and turned for hours worrying about it. I need to at least check in on things, pick up the mail, and show that I appreciate the work Sam's doing. I think I will leave some cookies on the counter for him or something.

I just sent out emails to my friends grovelling for helpers this weekend. I feel guilty about asking them all for help. I mean, we have helped each other move before, but there hasn't usually been this level of sweat, danger, and physical labor involved. "Move my couch" is a 1-hour, you're in, you're out affair. "Paint my house" is another story altogether.

I'm also going to have to scale back on my job-site food budget a bit. Last weekend I got pizza for everyone both days, but this weekend I think it's going to be a salad bar, which is much less expensive. The refrigerator will be there, so we can have cold beverages all day, too, which will be a nice change.

We are short many fairies, a Quince and a Lysander for Midsummer Night's Dream. I think the rehearsal schedule is killing people off. Seriously, though, when you are working with volunteers, you can't realistically ask them to give you 6 nights a week for 6 weeks. It's just plain unreasonable. Anyway, I asked Roomie if he would do it, but he flat-out refused, and looked at me like I was a bitch just for asking. I don't know what that was all about. The schedule, of course, is a major deterrent. No one wants to be THAT busy.

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