...another razor blade kiss
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Am I OK?]
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Far beyond your reaches,
The blood and tears mix and mingle.
You can’t save me,
From what I’ve grown to be
In my salty sea of misery,
Pain is my only reality.
I just couldn’t resist,
Another razor blade kiss.
My pale white skin,
Is now defaced by crimson.
I’ve let this blood red sea,
Become a part of me.
The tide washes in, the tide washes out,
And with it, it takes all my doubt.
Now that I can feel,
I know I must be real.
The waves of guilt,
The waves of shame,
They pull me under,
They drag me down,
Into that black abyss,
The deepest depths of darkness.
I’m sinking deeper and deeper,
I’m down further than I’ve ever been,
And I’ll drown,
Because I can’t swim.
Am I OK?
I cut because I didn’t care
I cut because you weren’t there
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
I don’t want to try
I just want to die
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
I bled myself dry
And the pain is still inside
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
Things aren’t fine anymore
I seem to forget what I’m fighting for
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
I don’t think you even care
This just isn’t fair
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
I wish I could just go away
But I have no place to stay
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
I don’t know what to say
I don’t know where to turn
Its not alright
I’m not ok
I want you all to just go away
Stop caring
Stop staring
The blood still drips down my arm
It feels as if I did no harm
No its not alright
No I’m not ok
I don’t want you to care
I don’t know why I bother
Its not alright
I’m not ok
You can’t save me now
I’m far gone
Let me be
Let me die
I don’t care anymore
And neither do you
That’s it- Its over now
But is it alright?
Am I ok?
© E. Ornstein
