Ok, my life is incredibly messed up and perfect at the same time.
Messed up: My life is messed up cause I love Mike and at the same time I love Kyle. But the thing is, now I honestly don't think I'm IN love with Mike.
Perfect: I'm so in love with Kyle, who is Mike's best friend. We talked for 3 and a 1/2 hours (during the football game mostly) but then I had to go. And we just got off the phone now, we talked for almost 3 hours again. And yet it doesn't feel like we talked more then ten minutes. Kyle told me he loved me :D And it was so cute, it was so different from when Mike tells me.
With Mike, telling me he loves me is like saying hi to somebody. It's almost like it's routine, and for me it is, I don't know about him though. And then with Kyle...he's just so adorable. He doesn't tell me he loves me constantly, and yet with him I feel MORE loved...
Maybe I've finally gone completely carott-top. I think that's probably it. Maybe I should commit myself, what do you think? Ya, I didn't think so either.
Ok, well I'm done rambling now so I'll go to sleep. Actually, like hell I can sleep. My mind is buzzing with Kyle-thoughts. Like for one, I thought for a second that I had more-then-friend feelings for Kyle. And then the next second I felt, no I don't like Kyle as more then a friend. And now it's like I always wanna talk to him and hear his voice and be with him...Can somebody seroiusly help me figure out what's going on with me? Cause I really could use some serious, professionl help.
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