so many little things, eh?
1- wake up.
2- neck hurts alittle
3- no jeans... dress pants...
4- remember i have to help my grand mother install DSL, because of the failure last time...
5- laundry
6- sigh... relax,
7- blog goes down(11:46), bandwidth?
8- washing machine begins to whine... and then begins emitting smoke, SMOKE??!? WTF?
9- help family, go shopping (couldn't find squash, turnip, candied fruit, long lines, no change, bad christmas carols...
10-go to grandmother to install win 98 to beable to install DSL software... should be simple, i bring both a win 98 disc and an update to 98. the update is rejected by the machine and the 98 disc says that this OS can't be installed over an existing OS... and i can't boot from either because the BIOS/CMOS isn't set up for booting from the CD drive, and i can't get in to the BIOS because it wont tell me how!?!
11-come home, dinner will be late.... but's it's a nice dinner. duck. mmm....
12-spill wine on my kakhi's(white thankfully) while opening the bottle, that's one more pair of pants that i don't have.. see number 8
13-duck is nearly impossible to carve with our blunt ass knives.
14-ali is wonderful, lets me do my laundry at her house. a load of wet laundry is heavy, even just down the street.
15-hang out with the gang. *sigh* better.
16-people start leaving. ali and her mother get in to argument over dishes. i hate confrontation. i just hope that i helped ali.
17-neck hurting alot.
18-ali and i chilled and i started to fall asleep...
19-needed to come home, forgot christmas card while trying to find my sweatshirt.
20-tired.


it's not the end of the world, or even that bad. just over all one of those days where the positives had a hard time winning out over the negitives. call me ali. call me anyone, tomorrow, i'm working monday.

ali
there is a girl we know whoes love like wine we take and from it grow. the fount is finite, but the she keeps giving untill it hurts. soon she'll have been giving me more then i could ever have hoped for, for 2.5 years.

it's the blog aniversery.

i love you sweety

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man... i was a messed up 16 year old. some of this was written in europe, 'long ago'
what am i writing? it's just a jumble of words written late at night influenced by ska horns, punk sensablities and access to any money i really need. my friends from bipolar depressives who are rich enough to live in rosedale for life without working a day in their lives to a crazy gaint artest to a valley girl to... (the list continues)

but the question remaines, what makes me write this? when did this spieces first put pen to paper and wonder... why did they? why shouldn't i? now what do i follow that up with?


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john lives in the parks... well, in the summer. in the winter he tries to fine a subway grate or a 24/7 coffee shop. some days he pan handles, some days he squegees. he eats day olds from tim hortons and drinks water from the washrooms. his hair exists in many tall spikes, often drooping. his clothes consit of a cheep jacket, a hoodie, a tee shirt, shreaded jeans, and boots.

he lives like this and saves up, just so every week he could go to a show. he likes punk music, he loves to bang around mosh pits with those punks from uptown. the ones with real leather jackets and studs and professionally done piercings. he loves listening to the singer creaming about how life sucks. he goes to benifit shows like antiracist action shows where everyone hates nazis. and he knows that the ARA doesn't need people to hate nazis, they need nazis to stop hating.
he knows, and he's right, and then he leaves the show and goes back to the subway grate or the coffeeshop.


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-what is fitting in? why do we try? why can't everybodies creativity be accepted?

-if we only see what we want to, then way isn't everything beautiful?

-if i can't get in to my subconscious, then how does everything else?

-what if i want to be out of touch?



what a whiny little kid i was?

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rhyme me a blogger, DAVEROO!
show me your art
i'll show you my heart

believe in your self
in your soul's wealth

find me one day
lost or flown away

a heart and a soul
travel to one goal

one love, a hope
the truth, a dream
a connetion, the missing piece.

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the nature of the museum
it is really great to seeum,
i wish they could really
teach me, but that's silly
my point is that old stuff
makes some people so ruff
while others take it in
and just begin to grin.
the croud moves on through
between armour and dino poo!
and they ooo and ahh.
and point at what they saw,
and all the while they don't know it
but their brains will be able to show it
so take'm out and walk'em around
then your brain will be king of this town.

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musicify your tired little mind
can it show you happiness or truth
that all depends on where you draw the line
and what is being said by the angst youth

trials and miles of musicks past
the faces of the landscape which mold us
to write and sing and play to last
the decades of time, platinum to rust.

the music you hear, does not define you
the way you write the words on a page
the song you sing is only a clue
the truth will come, through art and age.

but the music you hear is still only sound
put together all nice and neat
the sounds are there and cool and round
the beat that pounds, move your feet

music moves us, physically or otherwise
running while amoung the people
finding in us the heartstings of our lives
and on those stings in our hearts, it can pull

but we made those strings
doesn't matter who pulls them
they're our dirty things
if there pulled, they'll need a mend.

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THIS is FUN yay.

my life
i might have the oppertunity to work at the cbc this summer. the cbc's morning show is now number one in the ratings.

hmmmm.

it would appear that i've been afflicted with the forget what to blog-bad-ness.

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i thought that life was a wonderful space in which the world laughed and and people called me. call me? nah, anyway, i think tonight i'm going to talk about gender, equity and equality.

i hate that women were not allowed to work in some cultures. i can't hate the cultures, because thats not cool, in fact, i'll i can hate are actions and facts. i think that the whole adversarial idea of the battle of the sexes is so flawed and horrible. it's just perpetuates a bad situation. the facts is that in the past, women were discriminated against, and some people still suck.

i really wish that had never happened and that people were just not evil to each other? wouldn't that be good?

gee, well i think we can start.
respect trust and kindness
you get what you give.