Kevin climbed in the limo that was waiting to take them to wherever they wanted to go. Sometimes he got so sick of all this celebrity bullshit. It was lame in his opinion that they needed to hire a limo to take them to the VMA's, but it was ok to leave in a van, and now because some of them wanted to make appearances at the after-parties, they needed the limo again because they couldn't possibly show up at an after-party in anything less than a stretch.

All thoughts of the limo verses van controversy flew out of his head the instant Alex opened the limo door and looked inside. For a second their eyes locked, Alex's behind his glasses of course, and Kevin held his breath, waiting to see where Alex would sit, knowing that wherever he chose to sit, whether next to him or not, would be a very telling sign.

Alex stared back, trying to decide what to do. He wanted to sit next to Kevin. He wanted to lean in against him with Kevin's arm around him holding him close, telling him it would all be all right. He didn't know if that was what Kevin wanted though. He didn't think he could handle it if he sat down next to him and Kevin got up and moved away.

Hearing the other three in the distance behind him as they exited the building pulled Alex free from his thoughts and he climbed inside. Choosing his seat, he sat down close to Kevin, but not too close, leaving it up to Kevin if he wanted him closer.

Kevin wasn't sure what to make of where Alex had sat. On the one hand, he was at least on the same seat as him, but on the other hand, he was a safe distance away. He watched him closely, taking note of Alex's wandering fingers finding the hem of his shirt, a sure sign of his nerves. Kevin's eyes lifted back up to Alex's face to find he was staring at him through his damn sunglasses. At that moment Kevin wanted nothing more than to reach out and grab them and smash them under his foot into a thousand pieces.

As if sensing what he was thinking, Alex let go of the hem of his shirt and reached up, taking off his glasses and letting Kevin see his eyes. Kevin sucked in a sharp breath. Alex was near tears. His expressive brown eyes were full of fear and sadness. Kevin could have kicked himself right then, because he knew without a doubt he was the cause of that. Without a second thought, he reached forward and pulled Alex to him, wrapping his arms around him.

Alex melted into Kevin, his stomach doing somersaults of relief as he wrapped his arms around his lover and held on tight. He knew he was being foolish for thinking Kevin would actually leave him over one argument, but he couldn't get his damn insecurities under control for the life of him.

When they heard the others just outside the door of the limo, they started to pull apart, but as Alex pulled back, his eyes met Kevin's and both of them froze for a second, before loosing the battle and leaning in for a kiss.

The kiss was sweet and tender and everything both of them needed and wanted right then. It was reassurance that they still loved each other, no matter if they got mad at the other or not. Alex needed to be closer. He totally forgot about the other guys just outside as he climbed onto Kevin's lap, sitting sideways, his legs pressed against the wall of the limo to one side of Kevin as his hands reached up to cup his face as he deepened the kiss.

Kevin forgot about everyone else too, reaching up with one hand to hold Alex's head to his, his fingers tangling in his lover's hair, his other hand running up and down Alex's leg that was furthest from him, from his knee to his hip and back again.

That was how the other three found them. As they climbed in, first Nick, then Howie, then Brian, they didn't noticed them at first since they were all wrapped up in a conversation about some fans antics in the first row that night. Slowly though, one by one, they all noticed them, with differing reactions. They'd all witnessed them kiss before over the last few days, but they hadn't been witness to them actually making out.

Nick was the least unnerved by it, surprisingly enough. He figured that had something to do with JC and smiled as Alex and Kevin continued to kiss and touch, totally unaware of their presence.

Brian watched them for a minute, expecting to feel at least some sort of strangeness at finding them that way. It was true, on the one hand, he was very happy for his cousin and Alex that they'd found love with each other, but on the other hand, he had been raised to believe what they were doing was wrong. Watching them though, seeing the love between them in their touches and caresses, he didn't feel even a twinge of weirdness. They were right together and that was all that mattered.

Howie felt a little strange watching them though. Not because he had a problem with two guys together. He could have cared less about that. He'd just didn't handle people sitting right next to him and making out all that well. And of course, he would have to be the one stuck sitting right next to them.

He thought about getting up and moving across the limo to sit with Nick and Brian, but then he remembered Nick's teasing earlier when he'd grabbed his face to make him 'sing' that Bon Jovi song and didn't feel like taking a chance on being manhandled again, so he stayed put and tried not to look in Kevin and Alex's direction.

Finally Kevin and Alex came up for air as the limo started moving. Slowly they became aware of the other guys, mostly due to the discrete coughs and throat clearing they were doing.

Alex slid off Kevin's lap into the space between Kevin and Howie and smiled apologetically. "Uh, sorry guys."

Kevin cleared his throat and shifted in his seat so he could put his arm around Alex and pull him close. "Yeah, sorry."

"Not a problem." Brian said.

Nick and Howie nodded their agreement, at which point they all settled into conversation, talking about the concert mainly. Alex listened and talked in all the right places, but he was mainly focused on the warm safe feeling of being held by Kevin. He wished they could stay that way forever.

Soon though, the cold reality of life pulled at them as the limo pulled to a stop in front of the place P. Diddy was holding his party at. Howie got out first, then Nick, who paused at the door to look back and ask, "Kev, Bone, you guys coming? Or did you change your minds?"

Alex looked up at Kevin, not sure what to do. He really did want to go to the party. Partly as a test, partly to just get out and do something fun, but he didn't want Kevin to get angry with him again.

Kevin looked down into Alex's hopeful eyes and couldn't refuse him, even though he had a bad feeling in his gut about the whole thing still. He told himself he'd just keep a close eye on Alex and it'd all be fine. "We're coming Nick."

Alex's face lit up and he leaned in for a kiss. "Thank you, Kev."

"No problem, just don't pull any disappearing acts on me, ok? I'll get worried."

Alex didn't like the thought of being watched by Kevin all night, but he didn't like the thought of them fighting again more, so he just nodded and pretended the request didn't bother him. "Sure."

After they said goodbye to Brian and got out, Brian leaned back in his seat, pushing a button to talk to the driver and telling him to take him back to the hotel. After he was done, he closed his eyes and sighed. He wished his problems with Leigh were as easily solved as Alex and Kevin's seemed to have been…although something told him, they really hadn't solved a damn thing, just buried it for another day.

That thought brought him back to Leigh again. They'd been burying their problems, mainly the baby issue for too long and it was slowly destroying them. Tilting his head to the side, he stared out the window at the passing streetlights. He didn't want things to end with Leigh, but at the rate it was going, that's where it was headed.

When the limo pulled up in front of his hotel, he got out and was greeted by his body guard and screaming fans. When his guard started to guide him past the waiting fans, Brian suddenly stopped and shook his head as he reached out to grab a piece of paper and a pen from a screaming girl. What the hell? He might as well spend some time with the fans, it beat going back to an empty hotel room, or worse, a hotel room with Leigh in it, but that was just as empty.

Inside, the party was in full swing. Almost immediately, they lost Howie, who was swallowed up in the sea of people as he made his way to the dance floor. Nick was next, after giving first Kevin then Alex a quick hug.

As he hugged Alex, he said in his ear, "Wish me luck. Josh is supposed to be here somewhere."

Alex hugged him back and turned his head to talk in his ear over the music, saying, "You don't need any luck. The man wants you! But, if you insist, good luck Kaos."

Kevin watched the exchange, doing his best to hide the fact that Nick and Alex having a secret bothered him so much.

Nick walked away from Alex and Kevin weaving through the crowd as he scanned the various groups of people involved in conversations for JC. He didn't see him anywhere, so he glanced toward the dance floor. Quickly enough he found him dancing with a couple girls. Nick just stood there watching for a minute. He'd never really paid much attention to the way JC danced before, but he did now and he liked what he saw. JC was a damn good dancer.

JC felt eyes on him as he danced and looked up and around, his gaze stopping as his blue eyes met Nick's. He couldn't help the smile that touched his lips as he stared at the younger man. He'd been waiting for him to show up for over an hour now. Turning back to the girls he was dancing with, he apologized and left them standing there, staring after him for a minute before looking back at each other, shrugging and starting to dance together.

When JC reached Nick, he said, "Hi, been waiting for you."

Nick smiled down at JC, loving that little bit of information. He decided to tease him a little. "I don't know…looks like you might have had more fun if you'd stuck with the girls you were with."

JC's eyebrow's knit together. "Why's that?"

Nick pointed over to where the two girls he'd been with were now engaged in an erotic dance with each other. JC looked over and laughed as he caught on, then looked back at Nick.

A sexy smile played at his lips as he commented, "Naw, been there, done that. Fucking two girls is fun, but tonight I'd rather fuck you."

Nick's cock hardened instantly and painfully in his jeans, totally taken off guard by that comment. "Fuck. Goddamn…it's hot in here. Wanna get out of here?"

JC hardened at the heated look in Nick's blue eyes. "Lead the way."

Fifteen minutes later, they were back at Nick's suite, having barely kept their hands off each other in the limo ride over. As soon as they were through the door, they were all over each other ripping at each other's clothes until they were both naked and at the foot of Nick's bed.

They stared at each other for a second, then Nick grabbed JC, pulling him hard against him, pressing their erections together. JC moaned, his head falling back as Nick leaned down and sucked at the side of his neck hungrily.

As if they could read each other's thoughts, they moved together at the same time to lie down on the bed, JC on his back, Nick on top between his legs. Nick started grinding his hips into JC almost immediately and JC responded by arching up into him, causing even more friction to their already sensitized cocks.

Both of them moaned as their lips met for a deep kiss, their tongues taking turns licking and tasting inside each other's mouths. Nick propped himself up on his elbows and reached up with his hands to tangle them in JC's hair, pulling slightly as they continued to kiss, remembering from before how much he liked that.

JC's body reacted immediately to Nick's actions and his cock twitched as he let out another moan. He reached around and squeezed Nick's ass, feeling Nick's ass muscles flex as he ground down into him.

Pulling his mouth from Nick's, he begged, "Nicky…God…more…"

Nick groaned as JC's sex laden voice hit his ears and his hands on his ass squeezed tighter. Without warning, he rolled off JC, pulling him with him, so that in the next instant, their positions were reversed, JC on top of Nick, between Nick's legs.

JC propped himself up with a hand on either side of Nick's shoulders and looked down at Nick questioningly. "What…"

Nick interrupted. "I want you to fuck me."

JC's face registered his surprise. When they'd gotten together the first time, or rather the morning after their first time, Nick had made it clear he didn't like to get fucked. "Are you sure?"

Nick nodded. "I kinda wasn't completely honest before."

JC stared down at him. "What do you mean?"

Nick looked away, embarrassed. "I uh, I do like to get fucked…but only by someone I trust. I didn't really trust you before."

JC braced himself with one hand and reached out to touch a hand to Nick's cheek with the other, gently but firmly forcing Nick's head back around until he was looking back up at him again. "And you do now?"

"Yes."

JC ignored the warm feeling inside that bit of knowledge gave him, needing to know more. "Why?"

Nick shrugged. "I don't know. I just…do."

The truth was he did know, he just didn't want to go into all of it right then. Mostly it was because Alex had given JC his seal of approval after his conversation with him in the bathroom earlier. If Alex hadn't, he never would have told him about that conversation. Then there was what happened before the VMA's. JC had gone down on him, knowing Nick wouldn't have time to reciprocate, but wanting to get him off anyway before he had to leave.

JC's gaze dropped to Nick's mouth and he watched as Nick licked his lips nervously. Unable to resist the open invitation, he leaned down and captured Nick's mouth in a searing kiss. Soon they were both half crazy with need again, grinding against each other, kissing, licking, touching frantically.

Nick pulled his mouth from JC's and said, "Josh, now…please."

JC groaned, pulling back. "Lube?"

Nick nodded and reached over to his beside table, grabbing a tube out of the drawer and handing it to JC.

JC took it and prepared himself, all the while, his eyes locked with Nick's, the heat and tension building between them. When he was ready, he positioned himself at Nick's entrance as Nick pulled his legs up to his chest to give him better access.

"Ready?" JC asked in a husky voice.

Nick nodded as he hooked his legs over JC's shoulders. "Yes…do it."

JC didn't need any more encouragement than that. Slowly, he pushed his way in, watching as Nick's eyes squeezed shut. Once he was fully encased in Nick's tight heat, he stilled and waited for Nick to open his eyes.

After a minute, the pain went away and Nick opened his eyes to find JC staring down at him intently.

"You alright, baby?" JC asked.

Nick nodded. "Yeah, fuck me Josh…now."

JC shot him a sexy smile, at the same time pulling out slowly, then thrusting back in hard and deep. Nick moaned and JC guessed correctly that he'd found his prostate on the first try. He thrust in again, angling for the same spot and was rewarded with another moan. Between the way Nick felt wrapped around his cock like a vise and the way he looked with his head pressed back into the bed, his mouth half open as he moaned, his face a mask of pleasure, it was all JC could do to keep from cumming right then.

"Shit, Nicky, you're so tight…so good baby…"

Shivers of pleasure ran up and down Nick's spine, both at the feeling of JC inside him and at what he was saying. "Fuck Josh…more…deeper…"

JC complied, and soon they found themselves in a rhythm, JC rocking into him as Nick lifted his hips to meet his thrusts. Leaning down, JC licked a line up the side of Nick's neck, smiling as Nick shivered beneath him. Pulling Nick's earlobe between his teeth, he alternately sucked and nibbled at it in time with his thrusts.

JC was driving Nick insane with what he was doing with his mouth to his ear as he fucked him and soon Nick was writhing underneath him, totally out of control, wanting more. "Harder…God, fuck me harder…please…"

JC groaned against Nick's ear as Nick purposely clenched his ass muscles around his cock. "You want it…harder baby?"

Nick moaned a yes as JC slammed into him to emphasize his question.

"You want it faster too? You want me to fuck that beautiful ass of yours hard and fast?"

Nick nearly came at JC's words. He'd never heard him sound that sexual before, not even the other time they'd been together. It was driving him over the edge fast. "Fuck yes, Josh…hard…fast…"

JC let go then, giving Nick what he wanted, what they both wanted as he started to fuck him hard and fast, driving deeper into him with each thrust. The room was filled with their moans and pants for air as they both got closer and closer to the edge.

Nick clutched at JC's back as JC breathed heavily on his neck, his cheek resting against Nick's, his cock hitting his prostate with every thrust. Nick was far beyond though, lost in feeling as his orgasm crept up on him.

"Oh fuck…Josh…gonna cum…so close…"

JC pulled his head up to look down into Nick's face. "Nicky…look at me...I want to watch you cum, baby."

Nick opened his eyes with effort and stared up into JC's face, just as JC reached between them and closed his hand around Nick's precum leaking cock. At the same time, he thrust into him again and hit his prostate once more. That was all it took and Nick came, crying out JC's name, holding his gaze as he rode out his orgasm.

JC watched Nick let go, felt his ass spasm around him, his hot cum coat his hand, watched the look in his eyes as they glazed over in pleasure and it drove him over the edge. With Nick's name on his lips, he came deep inside him, thrusting a few more times as he rode out his own orgasm.

After it was over, JC stilled inside him. Nick dropped his legs from JC's shoulders, letting his feet fall to the bed, his knees bent as they stared at each other, neither moving, both in awe of what had just passed between them. It had been more than just sex, but neither could or wanted to put a name on it yet. They both just wanted to let it be what it was.

A silent understanding passed between them as JC leaned down for a kiss, pulling out of him even as their lips met. They both moaned at the loss, then lay wrapped in each other's arms, kissing tenderly, expressing how they felt without saying a word.

About an hour after Nick walked away, Alex and Kevin were standing around talking and laughing with a group of people about different things that had happened at the awards after they left. By chance, Kevin happened to look over at Alex while someone was recounting yet another lame joke Jamie had made and caught Alex looking at the dance floor wistfully.

Leaning down to his ear so only Alex could hear him, Kevin said, "You know, you can go dance if you want. I'm not going to get all jealous if you're grinding on some girl, because I know who you'll be grinding on later, baby."

A shiver of anticipation shot through Alex, both at the prospect of dancing, something he hadn't done except for choreographed moves since before rehab, and at the idea of grinding on Kevin later…naked.

Looking up at Kevin, he leaned in and asked as quietly as he could with the loud music booming around them, "You're sure? I mean…you remember how I dance right?"

Kevin laughed at the look of surprise on Alex's face. "Oh yeah, I definitely remember. Someday I want to find a place we can go and dance that way together…until then though, go, dance, grind. I'll probably do a little dancing myself."

Alex's face broke into a wide grin and he said, "I'm gonna thank you later…in private."

Kevin bit back a groan at both Alex's raspy voice in his ear and the promise his words held. He watched for a few minutes as Alex made his way to the dance floor, finding someone almost immediately to dance with. Kevin smiled as he watched him for a few minutes. Alex's face was lit up like a kid in a candy store as he danced to a fast paced song with the girl of the moment.

After a few minutes standing there, he decided to join Alex on the dance floor. Maybe he couldn't actually dance with him, but he could dance near him. Finding someone to dance with, Kevin maneuvered himself and the girl over by Alex. Alex lifted his eye from the girl he was grinding with when he sensed someone watching him and locked gazes with Kevin.

Smirking at the heat in Kevin's eyes as he watched him with the girl he was dancing with, Alex wrapped his arm around the girl's waist and pulled her closer. Keeping his eyes on Kevin, he started grinding on her, letting Kevin know with his eyes that he was imagining it was him he was dancing with.

Kevin started to harden as he watched Alex tease him. Shooting Alex a knowing smile, he decided two could play at that game and he pulled the girl he was dancing with closer, grinding up on her as he stared back at Alex.

Alex's eyes heated behind his sunglasses and he shot Kevin another sexy smirk as he reached down and grabbed the girl's ass in his arms, pulling her closer still, pushing one of his legs between hers as he rotated his hips into her and she brought her arms up to wrap them around his neck. He got harder as he watched Kevin's reaction to what he was doing. Kevin looked like he wanted to grab him and fuck him right there. Alex groaned at the thought, hearing the girl in his arms giggle and realizing she thought he was groaning because of her.

Kevin couldn't believe that watching Alex grind on some girl was turning him on as much as it was, but it was. Mainly because he was picturing himself in place of that girl. Reaching out, he turned the girl he was dancing with around and pulled her ass against his now prominent erection. With his hands on her waist, he started to grind into her ass as she brought one arm up and wrapped it around his neck, laying her head back on his shoulder at the same time.

Kevin watched Alex lick his lips, knowing he understood that Kevin wanted it to be his ass he was grinding into. Kevin smirked loving the fact that he was getting to Alex as much as Alex was getting to him. He groaned with the thought of what they'd be doing later. The girl in his arms took this as a sign he liked what she was doing and she started rubbing her ass against him harder as they continued to dance.

As the music flowed through the air around them, Alex and Kevin continued to dance with their respective partners, alternating their attention between each other and the girls they were dancing with, both of them getting harder by the minute, the girls they were with eating up every second of it, thinking their hard-on's were for them.

Just when the sexual tension between Alex and Kevin had gotten to the point where neither of them could stand it any more, the girl Kevin was with suddenly turned in his arms, grabbed the back of his head and pulled him down for a kiss, wrapping her arms around him tightly to keep him from pulling back.

Alex watched Kevin try to disentangle himself from the girl as she continued to press her lips against his and suddenly lost all desire to dance, his insecurities with their relationship rearing their ugly head inside him. Shooting a quick, apologetic smile at the girl in his arms, he let go of her and hurriedly walked off the dance floor, pushing past grinding people as he tried to get as far away from the image of Kevin locked in a kiss with some random girl as he could.

Kevin finally managed to get free of the girl and push her away. As she whined in his ear, asking what was wrong, he looked all around them, trying to locate Alex. He didn't see him anywhere. His heart started to sink, sinking further as he located the girl Alex had been dancing with. She was dancing with someone else. Fuck. Alex had left the dance floor, probably because of that kiss.

Kevin started off the dance floor to look for him, shaking off the girl as she grabbed at him trying to get him to stay and dance some more. When he felt a hand close on his shoulder a moment later, he got good and pissed and whipped around, intending on yelling at the girl to leave him the fuck alone. The words died on his lips as he discovered it wasn't her that had stopped him this time. His throat went suddenly dry as he found himself staring into the eyes of the last woman he'd expected to run into at that party.

"Kristin." Kevin said, trying to figure out why the hell she was there.

"Hi Kevin." Kristin answered nervously.


Chapter Thirteen
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