I haven't been this excited in quite some time. I mean, things for me haven't been on the up. One thing that I notice about myself which may be the reason that I am single is that I cannot deal with the "come downs" of "relationships". I mean, even if I don't really label it as such, I just get myself into a swing that keeps me expecting things to be constant, and that is never guaranteed if the "relationship" is not exactly labeled as such (which was the case on my part). However, things end and we move on. I am in no hurry to be in a relationship because I think that emotionally, I am a bit wrecked. And it's mostly because of things that I did wrong and because I was absolutely powerless in the way things ended...But, I don't want to cry over spilled milk...This is not why I am online at 12:30am.

First off, I took a nap at 7:00pm and so when my phone rang at 10:00pm, I was in the process of waking up. Usually, my body would send me straight back to bed but that wasn't the case. I ended up being quiet alert and feeling as if my day needed to begin again. But, as I said, it is now 12:31. So, what is there to do but to post online?

I just saw Floetry's new video and lord knows I love those ladies. They are so talented and even though my original copy was stolen, I will go back and purchase it again, and tomorrow (correction, today)their new live album drops and HOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLA,I'm getting it.

Then, I really am feeling Alicia Keys' new joint. It just strikes some sort of cord that I feel I can relate to. It's funny, because I have never been in a situation in which I saw someone constantly that I liked or that I was interested in, that I could not approach. I mean, thats except the dude that I have a huge crush on and to be honest with you, I don't think that my crush on him is a secret to him. But then again, on second thought, I remember when I first spoke to him. We were on the bus and he sat directly in front of me and he turned around and began to speak to me, and after I finally got my composure, I said to him:

"Um, I'm C by the way." and he said
"I know your name."

and it feels like oooooooooooooooooooooh