Mood:  sad

what should you do when it hurts so bad... Your bakk is up against the walk, the other walls are closing in....the diffence is this time you have someone there with you but yet and still it is always so distant every time you come together you have to part for the simple fact that you cant/or don't have control off your life nor the situation... It's always a unconfortable situation one mintue your happy another mintue your sad he always makes you laugh, but then you realize the others really had the best of him; had him to hold to laugh with to wake up next to come home to all I have is my keyborad a wish/dream and a blunt. What can I offer him? codes comes a dime a dozen. True Love comes not so offend...I've found true Love but what am I going to do now? It's tearing me up to the point where i have to scream....I WANT TO BE WITH THEM 4EVA STARTING RIGHT NOW! but how is this possible when I can't stop thinking about the other's he had I can never be on that level... yeah I know never say never, but I needed a start b4 we got together and it never started so now I have you and am stuck without at the same time (what an uncomfortable feeling) but they just don't see it for what it is...yes as low as things can be everyone deseves to be love, motivated, and guided, but y do I have to be so up and down in my moods while in the process...I am very grateful to have someone like you @ the same time am kicking myself for my flaws..... QUESTIONS: why do i have to be me?, how do I be me? can me ever get right? am I right? ANSWERS: NO, I DUNO, NOPE, NO...