My Baby
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Life has been going pretty smoothly lately. Which is quite unusual for me. I have money to pay my bills and a little to splurge if i wanted. I'm saving it though. I have a feeling that something is going to come up. My classes are all okay. Ohmygosh, today I did something so retarded. I went to the wrong class by mistake. When I walked in I knew it was the wrong class b/c there were alot of people there. It was a His. 102 class and I've already taken that. Nevertheles, I sat down and started taking notes like I belonged there. How retarded!! Well, that was my one stupid move for the day. On a good note, I went to a RHA meeting today and I'm seriously considering a campaign attempt. I don't mind losing so if I don't win it won't hurt my pride or anything. Just not meant to be. That's my new answer for things that don't turn out my way after I've done everything to make it go my way. I think I could actually do some good in this association though. I have a lot of valid suggestions and I argue my points rather well. So, presenting a proposal or new legislation to the SGA would be no problem for me. Public speaking has always been a strong point of mine. Anyway, I'm supposed to be talking about an ending in sight....of my nonrelationship. My schedule is so tight. I barely have time for myself anymore, let alone someone else. I can't wrap my mind around everything I need to get done and once I do, I'm so worn out that I don't have the energy to put into a relationship. And I'd hate for things to be one-sided. That's not cool. Plus, I met a freshman guy a few days ago and he's intrigued me slightly. Not that I'm thinking about walking away from what I've got. No not at all. I'm just saying, if there was ever a good time to leave. No, even saying that is wrong. There's never a good time. I'm not even sure if I wanna leave. All I kno is that I've started to get that itch. Things are gettin too settled and relaxed. Comfortable...I just can't be kept down for too long. If I do something inside of me becomes restless and no matter what my partner does, I'm never satisfied. That's the beginning of the end for me basically. I don't want it to get there this time. That's not a nice stage to go to. Ignoring, dodging, and lots of arguing. I simply don't have the time for it. But Im not sure I want to leave. As usual, I'm completely and utterly confused about what course of action to take.