Well visitor, Here is my life's most important experience, first the events
leading up to it, my parents report of occurences while i was away, my NDE,
and finally how i feel about it.
Medical Info: Stuart's spine was broken T7,
My Mother Reported that: In the afternoon of 25/02/82 they were in the office
of Professor Buchalille (Professor of Neurosurgery) where the prof. was
reporting my death and that they should be grateful, as i would have been a
vegetable had i survived, during this conversation a young frightened Nurse
came rushing into the office, blurting out "René is alive, it sat up and
spoke!",
I arrived in an explosion of glorious light into a room with
insubstantial walls, standing before a man about in his 30's about 6
foot tall, reddish brown shoulder length hair and an incredibly neat,
short beard & mo., He wore a simple white robe, light seemed to
eminate from Him and i felt He had great age and wisdom.
He welcomed me with great Love, tranquillity, Peace (undescribable),
no words, I felt " I can sit at your feet forever and be content",
which struck me as a strange thing to think/say/feel, i became
fascinated by the fabric of His robe, trying to figure out how light
could be woven!
He stood beside me and directed me to look to my left, where i was
replaying my life's less complementary moments, i re-lived those moments
and felt not only what i had done but also the hurt i had caused, some
of the things i would have never imagined could have caused pain, i
was surprised that some things i may have worried about, like
shoplifting a chocolate as a child, were not there whilst casual
remarks which caused hurt unknown to me at the time were counted, when
i became burdened with guilt i was directed to other events which gave
joy to others, although i felt unworthy it seemed the balance was in
my favour, i received great Love.
I was led further into the room, which became a hall and there coming
towards me was my Grandfather, he looked younger than i remembered
and was without his Hare lip or cleft pallet, but undoubtedly my
grandfather, we hugged, he spoke to me and welcomed me, i was moved to
forgive him for dying when i was 14 and making me break my promise,
to become a Doctor and find a cure for his heart condition, until
that moment i had not realized i had been angry at him!
Grandad told me that Grandma was coming soon and he was looking
forward to her arrival, i enquired why she was coming soon as she had
been travelling from her home in Manchester, to NZ, To Miami for
continual summer for a number of years! Grandad told me she had Cancer
of the Bowel and was coming soon, Grandad seemed to have no grasp of
time when i pressed for how soon. (Grandma was diagnosed 3 months
later and died in August, I had upset my mother by telling her about
it when i regained consciousness.), after Grandad and i had talked a
while he took me further into the room which became a hall again, we
approached a group of people whom i started to recognize.
The Person who first welcomed me came and placed his hand on my shoulder
and turned me towards Him, He said " You must return, you have a task to
perform.", i wanted to argue, i wanted to stay, i glanced back at
Grandad and was propelled quickly towards the entrance, at the threshold
all became blackness, nothing, no awareness.
After: I awoke from my coma slowly, over several days, half dreamed
memories of familiar voices and glimpses of faces. The clearest moments
were several occasions where i would awake from deep sleep to find a nurse
with a syringe and refuse any Drugs, i have no idea why!
I had three lots of surgery to repair my face, skull, eye socket.
It took me 5 years as a zombie, before i was able to rehabilitate myself,
I have gainful employment, formed the Head Injury Society NZ. in 1987, and
am paraded as the example of how well it is possible to recover from
Acquired Brain Damage.
I still dont know my task, still have pain, anosmia, diplopia, etc.
Thats about it, except to say that the memory of the NDE is more real
than what i did yesterday.
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René's Experience
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Scene : 24/02/82, Newcastle Australia, 6;00 pm, Leaving my optical instrument
repair firm to go home to Raymond Terrace, Raining after 3 months Dry, I was
driving along the Industrial Highway and slowing to stop at lights where exit
road from BHP crosses highway, memory ends.
Reported by Miles (my ex partner): As we approached the lights they changed to
green, as we went into the crossing the car aquaplaned, speed 43 kph, we hit
the large industrial power pole just after the intersection, Stuart, who was
laying on the mattress in the back of the panel van, was thrown forward into
the back of René's head, driving René into the steering wheel.
I suffered Fractures Basal area,
Frontal Lobe, Right eye socket, Right Zygoma, all depressed, 6 holes in dura,
also spokes of steering wheel and indicator entered throat up into roof of
mouth, right upper and lower thorax. Miles suffered a small seat belt
bruise.
the prof. chastised her for interrupting them 3 times before taking
her outside and lecturing her about "dead bodies" moving and making noises,
the Nurse was emphatic, "René sat up and said "Dont give me any more Drugs!"",
at this point my mother took the prof. by one elbow, my father by his and
marched them down the corridor to see, they found me in a back corridor where
i had apparently been placed so the nurse could remove equipment prior to my
transfer to the Morgue, i was in deep coma and breathing, I remained in coma
for a further 10 days.
My NDE: I don't know when in the above events my experience took place.
I have no memory of the process of dying or leaving my body.
I was moving head first thru a dark maelstrom of what looked like
black boiling clouds, feeling that i was being beckoned to the sides
which frightened me, ahead was a tiny dot of bright light which
steadily grew and brightened as i drew nearer, i became aware that i
must be dead and was concerned for Mum & Dad and my Sister, and
somewhat upset with myself as i thought "they will soon get over it"
like it was in passing just a fleeting thought as i rushed greedily
forward towards this light.
Left hospital with Pain, double vision, anosmia, and damage to 8th cranial
nerve left me with nausea and disturbed balance. I was for two years angry
at G-d, for sending me back in such torment, with a task to do with no
clues or instructions, only one thing a clear message i have no idea how to
pass on, which is :
" It is time to live according to your Beliefs, whatever
they may be, to put you House in order, For the End Times are upon us!"
this can't be my task, there was no booming voice, or any way i know the
message got there.
I am also unsure of the identity of the gatekeeper, no nametag, no
introduction!
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