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[Sometimes is never quite enough
Don't forget to get first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face...]

The lyrics to one of Duo's old American songs rang through the room. Heero couldn't help but listen. Memories took him over...

*flashback* A young boy stands in front of a mobile suit. He looks up to see a doctor walking towards him. The doctor tells the boy that his training has to be perfect. "That is the only way we can defeat OZ and bring peace to the colonies," the doctor says. The boy nods and turns to look at the Gundam, a small smile pulling at his lips. *end flashback*

"Oi, Heero? You ok, man? You're awfully pale..." Heero opened his eyes to see a smiling, violet-eyed boy looking at him in concern.

"Aa, just a little tired. That last mission took it out of all of us, I think..." Heero said and closed his eyes again.

Duo looked at his friend. A small, sad smile tugging at his lips.

[Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder...]

Duo heads back to his room and turns the music down. He lays down on his bed and looks at the light of the setting sun play off the walls. He thinks of how he had done such things when at the Maxwell Church...

*flashback* A small, gamin-faced boy stands up from the smoldering ashes of a church. In his hand is a crucifix, the boy clutches the crucifix in his hand and runs off, arm slung over his eyes. The boy stops running, a mushroom headed man in a lab coat steps up and puts a comforting hand on the boy's shoulder. The doctor shows him a 3D holo of a black mobile suit, saying, "Do you want revenge?" *end flashback*

Duo wipes tears from his eyes, cursing himself for crying.

[How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up...]

Duo closes the door separating the two small rooms. Heero slowly opens one eye. He looks up at the small framed picture of him and Duo. Memories trudge up from the back of his mind...

*flashback* Heero is yelling at a grinning Duo (who has just blown a mission). "Sorry, Heero. I messed up again." The boy's grin fades and tears can be seen glittering in his eyes as he turns and leaves the hanger.

Some time later (during another mission)- Duo is fighting off a pack of 30 or so Leos, and is not doing so hot. Heero yells at him to hurry up and clear the obstacle. Duo's quiet of "Ryokai" is barely audible. *end flashback*

Heero sits up and sneers at himself in the mirror. /How could I be so unfeeling?/

[With everything I do for you
The least you can do is be quiet...]

Duo turns over and glares at the quiet. /Quiet, na?/

*flashback* A small boy is singing church hymns while working on a mechanical assignment. A dark shadow falls over him and he looks up. A hand connects with his face sending him sprawling. Warily he looks up at the figure. "There is no need for noise when you work." The person said, then turned on his heel and walked away. *end flashback*

Unconsciously, Duo lifts his hand to his cheek. He sighs and tries to sleep.

[Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud...]

Heero cracks the door and looks in on Duo, sleeping. Duo is curled up in a ball. Heero walks over and notices wet lines on the pale cheeks. Heero remembered the last time he'd seen Duo like that and why...

*flashback* Duo cries out in pain and embarrassment as the officer enters him. "Be a good little girl," the man crooned Duo tensed and the man hit him. "Fine, if I can't fuck you, you're gonna give me a blow-job!" Duo, exhausted to the point that he could do nothing but comply, got on his hands and knees and proceeded to give the man head. "You little bitch, that's not good enough! Try harder now, baby... Ah, that's it!"

Heero was trembling with rage at this treatment of his friend, but could do nothing as he was restrained.

After the officer left, Duo curled up in a fetal ball and cried. *end flashback*

Heero brushed a hand over the elfin face of the sleeping boy.

[I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then so am I
Compared to him, compared to her...]

Heero sat in the chair beside Duo's bed and slept. Memories drifted through his dreams...

*flashback* The doctor had strapped the boy to a chair and had electrodes attached to different places on his body. "What is this?" the boy asked. "Just part of your training. You'll be the perfect soldier! Best of the best," the 'good' doctor told him. *end flashback*

Heero roused from his light slumber. Frustrated, he decided to take a cold shower to clear his head.

[I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem... why are you crying...]

The past... a flood of memories...

*flashback* "I'm doing this for you, boy! So you can take your revenge on OZ!" the mushroom headed professor said as he shoved the boy into a dark room. The boy cried out, not wanting to be alone. "Why are you crying? You want revenge, don't you, boy?" The boy sniffled and allowed the professor to lock the door. In the dark, tears streaked his pale face, but he suffered in silence. *end flashback*

[Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy...]

Heero let the cold water run down. His hair clung to his face and he brushed it away. He remembered watching Duo muse with his hair in the shower...

*flashback* There he stood, a look of despair on his face. He'd told Heero to meet him so that they could talk. When Heero'd finally shown up Duo had left. A note was attached to the door. It read, "I just wanted to tell you... I love you. Love, Duo. - 3="

Heero's jaw had dropped and he had rushed out to find Duo. He searched unfruitfully for hours and Duo didn't return to the safehouse for days. When he had Heero'd just given his a Look and the boy walked to his room, sullenly, and shut the door. When he finally came out, he told Heero... face to face. "Heero, I love you. I just wanted you to know."

"Aa, I know you do," Heero'd said, adn smiled (small, but a smile none the less) and hugged the violet-eyed boy, "I, too." *end flashback*

[We'll love you just the way you are...]

Heero dried off and put on his boxers. He walked back into Duo's room and crawled in bed with him.

"I, too."

[if you're perfect.]



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