If You Can't Say No
Babaca
[People get around
This is a part of you
If you come undone
Then this is what you do]
Duo Maxwell had changed. Everyone had noticed, although Heero Yuy seemed oblivious. Quatre tried to see if there was anything he could do.
"Duo, is something wrong?" Quatre asked gently.
"Wrong? There's nothing wrong, Q," Duo said cheerfully. But the cheerfulness rang false even to his own ears.
"Did something happen on your last mission? Do you want to talk about it?" Quatre tried again.
"Quatre, I'm fine. Why do you think anything is wrong?" Duo said trying to maintain the false cheer.
"You're quieter than usual. You seem moody. Did you and Heero have a fight or something?"
"Me and Heero fight? No way, man! In fact, we're better than ever!" Duo genuinely smiled. "I told him I loved him and instead of backhanding me like I thought he might, he accepted it and me."
"So why are you ..." Quatre stopped because he was at a lost for words.
"Maybe I'm just more introspective when in love," laughed Duo. Heero stood in the doorway watching the two young men talk. Duo looked up saw Heero. Heero turned to leave the room, knowing that Duo would follow and he did.
[If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about me]
FLASHBACK BEGINS:
The last mission had Heero and Duo going to an all boys school. Many of the students tried making friends with both Heero and Duo, but Duo was the center of attention. He was being pursued by more than one young man at the school. Normally, he would just flirt and leave it at that, but he had been miffed at the way Heero had been ignoring him lately. So he chose the prettiest one of the suitors and started going out with him.
[If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about me]
To casual observer, it looked like this flirtation had no effect on Heero. Duo knew better because the boy had changed. Heero would alternate between hot and cold. One minute he would have Duo in a tight embrace, smothering him with sweet kisses. The next minute he was practically strangling Duo for being such a slut.
Duo finally tired of holding back his feelings told Heero how he felt.
"If you really love me, some things are going to have to change, do you understand Duo?"
FLASHBACK ENDS
[I know that you are in love with me
But I also know your kind
Well, baby you got a lot of nerve
So just try to keep me in mind]
Heero knew he had Duo under a rather tight leash. The rules were simple ones. Don't interact with the other pilots unless it was mission-related. Don't go out anywhere without him, unless it was a mission. Flirt with no one. Stay close to him. Follow the rules and Heero will love him as tender as he wanted. Break the rules, then suffer the consequences. 'What's so difficult about that?'
Duo thought Heero was kidding at first. When the rules stayed upheld, Heero was very sweet to him. Incredibly sweet. He wanted the others to see how sweet Heero could be, however, that broke rule number one.
The pilots were sitting together having a meal. Duo was glowing and trying to get Heero to show the others his tender side. Heero just glared and ignored the boy. The others tried not to be embarrassed for Duo. Wufei scowled at Heero.
Later that night, everyone was awakened by loud, crashing noises in Heero and Duo's room. Wufei was going to go stop the ruckus, but Trowa stopped him. "It's not our business, Wufei. Go back to sleep."
Next day, Duo looked fine, but the others noticed he was unconsciously holding his ribs. Nor could he look any of the other pilots in the eye. Quatre being ever the diplomat, had his sister quietly look Duo over and wrapped the fractured ribs.
[If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about me]
"Duo," Wufei asked one afternoon, "Let's play Mah-Jongg."
"Wu-man, I don't know. It looks like a pretty boring-" Duo said with hesitation. He knew he was breaking Heero's cardinal rule number one. But Heero was also out on a mission.
"It's not boring! It's rather relaxing. What do you say? One game?" Wufei asked.
Duo knew if he kept to the rules of his koibito, he should say no. But this is Wufei. And it's only a game. Surely Heero will see it's no big deal. "Umm, okay, I'm game."
"I'm relieved that you are going to disobey your master," Wufei said softly.
Duo jumped. His face flushed. "What are you talking about Wu?"
"Come on Maxwell. I recognize a master/slave relationship when I see one. You realize this isn't very healthy, right?" Wufei inquired.
"Hai. I know. But dammit Wu, I love him," Duo said with tears spilling from his violet eyes. "If I do as he says, I get unconditional love from him."
"Unconditional?" Wufei snorted derisively, "The love Yuy's handing out is definitely one that comes with plenty of conditions. Don't you miss interacting with the rest of us?" he asked simply. "I know you and I were never the closest of friends. But what about Quatre or Trowa?"
"Sure I miss you guys. You included Wu, but ..."
"You can't get him out of your system," Wufei said simply. They continued their game in silence.
[If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about me]
Duo thought about Wufei's words from earlier. 'Is it possible to get Heero _out of my system_? Do I really want to? The others don't see how sweet he can be when we are alone. But I have to admit I miss the guys. And I miss going out and just having fun.'
Heero returned to the house. Stared at Duo until he got Duo's attention then went to their room. This time Duo didn't follow. He paid for that rule infraction later. Duo was a crying, bruised heap on Wufei's bed, when Wufei returned. He gathered Duo in his arms briefly, before giving the long haired boy pencil and paper while he gathered some of clothes for himself and Duo. Duo wrote. Wufei packed. They left together on Wufei's motorcycle.
[You went with another man
And I cried when I read your letter
But I don't really want to know
Where you've gone
Or if it was better]
Although Quatre was sad that Wufei and Duo left together, he was secretly glad that Duo escaped Heero's perverse hold on him. Quatre and Trowa did their best to comfort Heero, but Heero would accept none of their help.
A letter arrived with no return address for Heero. He read the contents briefly before burning the letter. 'Damn slut!'
[You went with another man
And I cried when I read your letter
But I don't really want to know
Where you've gone
Or if it was better
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about me]
Duo and Wufei invited Quatre and Trowa to their secret location.
"Are you sure he didn't follow you?" Duo asked nervously.
"I made sure, Duo, don't worry," said Trowa. Duo relaxed. He knew if anyone could successfully anticipate Heero's movements it would be Trowa.
"I'm sorry we ran off in the middle of the night," said Wufei. "If Duo would have stayed it would have been bad. For him and all of us."
"I understand," said Quatre. "But what about the missions?"
"We still receive them. We still go on them. Thankfully none have put us in contact with Heero's missions," said Wufei.
"I've tried to write Heero to say I'm sorry and I hope we can still work together. I'm not stupid enough to leave an address he can trace, so has he mentioned anything to you?" asked Duo.
"He reads the letters. Then he burns them," said Trowa. "I guess that means he's not ready to accept your apology."
"I thought so," Duo said sadly. Wufei held his hand.
[If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about
If you can't say no just think about me]
'The rules were so simple. Why did that baka insist on breaking them? Doesn't he understand that I love him? What's so hard about that?'
