Notes: Yes, it's a lemon. No, I don't like writing them. At all. Let's just say I lost a bet and had to write this. I'm posting it, however, because I am rather proud of the way it turned out, and have been told on several occasions that it is quite good. Enjoy. And the boys ain't mine. Yet. BWAHAHAHAHA!!



Virgin State of Mind

By: Lady Robyn



Email: ladyrobyn@earthlink.net





""Damn,"" Duo sighed as he closed out of yet another page on the internet. ""They''re all getting laid, so why can''t I?"" With a groan, he ran his hands through his bangs and leaned back in his chair. Still talking aloud to himself, he began musing. ""But for some reason, this normal guy-girl stuff just bores me."" Humming quietly, he clicked into another page. ""Hmm, yaoi? I wonder what that is. Boy do I need to get Heero to teach me some more Japanese.""

After several minutes of perusing the contents of the page, Duo froze. ""So that''s what yaoi means. Interesting……. Ya know, now that I think of it, Marron does seem like he''s kinda weird. But gay? Hmmm…………."" Duo spent the rest of the evening reading all the stories labeled ''yaoi'' that he could find.

Around midnight, the black clad pilot stood and stretched, blinking wearily. ""So that''s how they do it. Sounds kinda painful to me, but they seem to like it.""

""What are you talking about, Duo?"" Quatre asked from the hallway.

""Oi, hey Q! I was just surfin the Net and I found these stories labeled yaoi. Did you know that that meant, like, two guys having sex?"" Duo laughed, and seemed oblivious to the reddening of Quatre''s cheeks. ""Do you know how guys do it?"" Quatre just got redder. By this time, Duo had finally noticed Quatre''s embarrassment. Grinning like a maniac, he leaned in towards Quatre. ""From that look, I''d almost say you already knew about it. Don''t tell me you and Trowa are…….""

""Well, actually……."" Quatre began.

""No way! Innocent little Quatre?"" Duo shook his head. ""I don''t believe it."" Suddenly he looked intently at Quatre. ""So, what''s it like?""

Duo sprawled on his bed, an open manga in front of him, but he wasn''t really paying attention. Staring blankly at the headboard of his bed, his eyes rested on a photo he had hung there, of he and Heero. Slowly an idea formed in his head. A devious, evil idea. With a naughty grin, he hopped off his bed and went to pay his best friend a visit. Time to work off a little extra stress.

""Hey Heero,"" a sultry voice whispered in the Japanese boys ear.

Heero jumped. ""Duo!""

Duo gave him a predatory smile. ""Yes?""

""Don''t do that!""

""Sorry Hee-chan, but stealth tactics are my specialty. If I have a chance to scare the perfect soldier, I sure as hell plan to take it."" Duo then leaned in close to Heero, so their faces were only inches apart. ""I''m bored, Hee-koi.""

""Duo, do you know what the word ''koi'' means?"" Heero asked irritably. Duo was acting strangely, and when Duo acted strangely, Heero usually ended up suffering for it.

Duo snorted indignantly and planted his hands on his hips. ""I may not be fluent in Japanese Heero, but I know what koi means, thank you very much.""

""Hn. What do you want?""

Gently Duo brushed a strand of Heero''s hair out of his face. ""Hee- chan,"" he almost cooed, ""What do you think of experimenting?""

""Nani?"" Truth be told, Heero had thought of ''experimenting'' more times than he''d have liked to admit, and the very object of those foolish fantasies was now standing in front of him, proposing what he had so often pondered upon.

Duo leaned in again, closer this time, holding Heero''s eyes in a firm gaze, ""Ya know, experimenting. Like, with each other.""

""What are you on?"" Heero leaned back from those intense eyes, frightened for the first time since he could remember.

For a moment Duo reverted to his normal behavior as he explained. ""I was on the Net when I found these yaoi stories. They made me curious. I mean, I would think it would be painful, but apparently it''s nice enough to more than make up for it, cause some authors have them screwing like rabbits. Then I asked Quatre and ……""

""Quatre? What would he know about it?"" Heero asked, then silently added, ""Like I couldn''t have guessed. Little flamer.""

""Well duh, he and Trowa,"" Duo shook his head. ""So, you interested? I''ve got some lube.""

Stoic though he may be, Duo''s forwardness was making Heero very uncomfortable, and the mention of the word lube wasn''t helping in the slightest.

""Stole it from Quatre''s room,"" Duo explained as he held it up for examination. Turning his eyes back on Heero, he added, ""If you don''t want to, that''s fine with me. I''m not going to force you. But I''d really like to try it, and I can''t think of anyone else I''d rather try it with, than you.""

Heero lowered his eyes demurely. ""I suppose. I don''t see how it could hurt anything……..""

""Great!"" Duo beamed. ""I call seme!""

""Hey! How come you get seme?"" Heero demanded.

Duo rolled his eyes as if it was obvious. ""Do you know what to do?"" Heero shook his head. ""Didn''t think so. I, however, do. So therefore, I get to be seme. Besides, you''re a lot harder to hurt than I am.""

""Fine. You can be seme,"" Heero capsized.

""Good. I''m glad you see it my way."" The two stayed silent for several minutes, looking everywhere but at each other. ""So……"" Duo finally broke the silence.

""So……"" Heero agreed.

""What now?""

""I thought you knew what you were doing!""

""Well, I do. Once the clothes come off. Geez. The stories don''t usually depict this particular situation. Usually it''s true love or something, and then they just kind of go at it, like it''s the most natural thing in the world. It just happens. I don''t know how to start this!"" Duo wailed, throwing his hands up in the air.

""I guess we should, you know, take our clothes off and get in bed or something,"" Heero suggested.

""Good idea,"" the braided pilot nodded. He ran and locked the bedroom door, set the lube on the nightstand, and walked over to Heero again. ""Here goes."" With a slightly nervous smile, Duo pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it aside. Then he unbuttoned his pants and kicked them after his shirt.

""You''re still wearing your boxers,"" Heero pointed out.

""I''m not getting naked alone!"" Duo protested. ""You have to take your clothes off too!""

Slowly Heero stood and removed his tank top, revealing his lean, muscular chest. ""And the spandex……."" Duo prompted.

""Not until you take off your boxers,"" Heero said stubbornly.

Duo sighed, ""Fine, fine."" Hiding his embarrassment well, Duo stepped out of his favorite black silk boxers.

Having no excuse to keep his spandex on, Heero slowly slid out of it. Duo chuckled as Heero fidgeted nervously. ""I always wondered what you wore under that spandex. Now I see, you don''t wear anything under it!"" Suddenly his eyes narrowed in the dim light. ""Humph. We haven''t even done anything yet and, to be blunt, are you getting turned on by this Heero?""

Wide eyed, Heero glanced down, and sure enough, he was definitely finding the whole situation very arousing, and he was doing a poor job of hiding it. ""Hn,"" he replied, faking indifference, while in reality, he was horribly embarrassed.

""I guess we should go to the bed now,"" Duo tossed his head in the direction of the aforementioned furniture.

""Sure,"" Heero agreed, meekly walking over to his bed and sliding under the covers. Duo slid under on the other side of the bed, and there they stayed, as far from each other as they could be.

Heero sat up, knees drawn up to his chin, the blankets wrapped loosely around the front of his shoulders. Duo sprawled on the bed next to him, staring at the ceiling. Eventually Heero spoke up. ""I thought you knew what to do once the clothes were off.""

Duo grinned sheepishly, ""I thought I did, but there''s still this awkwardness. I just thought this was gonna be easier than it is. I never knew getting laid was so hard!""

""What did most of the people in your stories do before they, you know, did it?""

A small crease appeared on the braided boys forehead. ""I think they usually confessed their love for each other and kissed a lot.""

""Then maybe we should……kiss,"" Heero suggested shyly.

Duo gnawed on his lower lip a moment, unknowingly enticing the already mildly aroused Heero. Finally he shrugged. ""Why not? Okay, let''s kiss then.""

With a deep breath, Duo propped himself up on an elbow and stared at Heero for a moment. Then he gently slid his arm around Heero''s back and pulled him closer. Heero leaned towards Duo without protest. They stared at each other for a minute, then Duo leaned in slowly and pressed his lips against Heero''s in a light kiss. When he pulled away, he grinned his cheeky grin at the motionless Japanese. ""Was that so bad?""

""Um, now what?""

""They usually kiss more than once, and usually, well, a little deeper than that. They use their tongues and stuff in the stories.""

""Okay,"" Heero murmured, placing one hand on the back of Duo''s head and guiding him in for another kiss. It started off awkwardly, considering Heero had never been kissed before and had no clue what he was doing, and poor Duo had certainly never kissed another boy before in his life.

However, once Duo regained his wits, he took the initiative. When Heero felt something gently prodding at his lips, he parted them slightly. It took him a second to realize that Duo had just slipped his tongue into his mouth. Heero sat very still as he concentrated on the actions Duo''s tongue was making, tracing along his teeth, and jabbing at his own tongue. Finally Heero got up enough courage to slowly and hesitantly, slide his own tongue into Duo''s mouth.

The American pilot moaned softly as he felt Heero become more adventurous. He may not have had any previous experience, but Heero was a fast learner and was driving Duo crazy with the inventive things he was doing with his tongue. The way Heero was running his tongue along the insides of Duo''s cheeks and dueling with his own tongue was really starting to turn him on.

After several long minutes, Duo withdrew his tongue and pulled away. ""Wow,"" he breathed. ""You''re getting pretty good.""

Heero coughed quietly and shifted uncomfortably. He was painfully aroused already and he had no clue what was going to happen to him when things started to really happen. Duo leaned back on his elbows, knees bent to hide his own hardening erection. Suddenly he shoved himself up and began kissing Heero''s neck and shoulders.

Heero gasped as Duo''s hot kisses began trailing down the front of his chest. ""Duo,"" he moaned as a stray lock of hair brushed over his erect nipple.

Duo looked up at him, a mischievous smile on his face. ""Oh, you like that, do you?"" So saying, the took the end of his braid and began running it over Heero''s chest, teasingly brushing his nipples from time to time.

Finally Heero''s strength gave out on him, and he collapsed back onto the bed. Duo followed, never ceasing his pleasurable torture. The two lithe bodies rubbed up against each other erotically, separated only by a thin layer of the sheet.

""Duo,"" Heero groaned, between passionate kisses.

""I know,"" Duo breathed, and pushed that thin layer of blanket away, kicking it aside roughly. The feel of the others hot, naked flesh sliding along their own, served to drive the boys into a frenzy. Frantically they kissed, teased and moaned, as if they were afraid this was the only chance they had, and it could end at any second.

With shaking hands, Heero unbound Duo''s long hair, gently unraveling the trademark braid, all the while continuing to kiss and gently nip Duo''s thin neck. ""Duo?"" he asked questioningly as Duo pulled away.

Duo placed his finger against Heero''s lips. ""Just hold still."" With that, he began a fierce trail of kisses down Heero''s chest, creeping ever nearer Heero''s pained lower body.

""What……?"" his question was cut off as Duo ran his tongue along the underside of his erection. Duo expertly trailed his tongue along the hot skin, eliciting gasps from the usually quiet Heero Yuy.

""So, you like that, hmm? Let''s see how you like this."" With that, Duo slowly began taking Heero into his mouth, inch by inch, very slowly, so as not to gag himself. Eventually he managed to get the whole length in, and began gently sucking. As he got more used to the feel of Heero in his mouth, he began using his tongue, and sliding his lips up and down the stiff length.

""Duo……"" Heero groaned, sinking his hands into Duo''s thick hair. Involuntarily, his hips began bucking. Fortunately, Duo had read enough stories where the same thing happened, that he wasn''t caught off guard by Heero''s actions.

Body taut, eyes closed, Heero moaned Duo''s name as a strange feeling took control of him. His whole body felt as if it was on fire, and ready to explode. In all his dreams, never had it felt like this before. ""Duo!"" he cried as Duo took a teasing nip at his head and sent him over the edge.

""What was that T-chan?"" Quatre asked his silent lover.

Trowa glanced up from his book and looked towards the hall, and namely, the door to Heero''s room. A small smirk appeared on his face.

""Trowa?""

""It''s nothing Quatre. Don''t worry about it,"" Trowa reassured, gently squeezing Quatre''s shoulder. Inwardly, he was laughing his head off. ""It''s about time you two, it''s about time.""

Heero lay panting on the sheets, eyes closed. Duo sat between Heero''s legs with a full mouth and unsure of what to do next. He debated spitting it out, but then realized that that would require him to leave the bed, and he was way too into the moment to do that. With a small frown of distaste, he swallowed. Then he crawled up the bed to where Heero''s head lay.

""Did ya like that Hee-chan?"" he asked cheekily, leaning in to kiss the other boy.

As their tongues entwined, Heero tasted his own essence on Duo''s lips. Pulling away, he looked at him curiously. ""You swallowed it?""

Duo blinked at him. ""Wasn''t I supposed to? Besides,"" his grin grew evil, ""I wanted to get right on to the next act.""

""Next act?"" Heero asked worriedly as Duo slid back down the bed.

""Yeah. The next act. This may hurt a little Heero,"" Duo warned as he pulled the lube off the nightstand. Unscrewing the lid, Duo dipped two fingers in. Making sure they were nice and slick, he used his other hand to lift Heero slightly off the bed.

From his brief conversations with Trowa, Heero was pretty sure he knew what was coming next, so he didn''t even gasp as Duo''s slicked finger slipped inside of him. ""Am I hurting you?"" Duo asked, looking at Heero''s tense face.

""No,"" Heero hissed between gritted teeth. ""I''m fine.""

""Okay,"" Duo shrugged, and slipped another finger in, working the opening, trying to stretch it. When he felt Heero was ready, he slipped a third finger in, gently massaging Heero''s inside walls and stretching the small, tight hole at the same time.

Heero''s hands were tightly gripping the sheets, and his head was violently tossing back and forth on the pillow. ""Duo!""

""Okay, okay, sheesh!"" Though he seemed to be brushing the evenings events off as nothing more than a joke, he only made his flippant comments to hide his growing uneasiness. Ever since they had started this exploration, he had been feeling a funny feeling in his body, most noticeably in the chest cavity. The fact that Heero was letting him touch him like this, meant far more to him than he would admit, and more than he would admit even to himself.

Slowly, Duo extracted his fingers, put a copious amount of lube on his taut shaft, and positioned Heero''s legs on his shoulders. Then he looked earnestly at Heero''s face, and waited.

Upon realizing that Duo had stopped, Heero cracked his eyes open. ""Nani?"" he croaked.

Duo licked his lips. ""Heero, I just wanted to make sure you wanted to do this. If it gets farther than this, I may not be able to control myself, and I don''t want things to go farther than you feel comfortable with them going. This is your last chance to stop this.""

Cobalt blue eyes met uncertain prussian blue. ""Duo, I want you to do this.""

That being all the encouragement Duo needed, he grinned and positioned himself at Heero''s opening. ""This is gonna hurt even more than the fingers did,"" he warned, and then gently began sliding his length in.

Heero''s breath hissed out. He was torn between pain and pleasure. Once Duo was fully buried inside Heero, he paused to let Heero''s body adjust. The sensation of being inside Heero was almost enough to drive Duo over the edge without any further prompting. Almost enough.

Once he had waited what he thought was a suitable amount of time, Duo withdrew, and then slid back in. Slowly he began a rhythm of pulling out, and thrusting back in. Soon Heero joined the rhythm, rocking his hips to Duo''s thrusts. ""He-Heero,"" Duo panted, stretching up for a kiss that Heero eagerly responded to.

As their lips meshed, the rocking of their bodies grew rougher and more frenzied as each drew nearer their own release. Finally on one particularly rough stroke, Duo brushed against Heero''s sensitive spot. Heero''s eyes shot open and he threw his head back into the pillows as he came, spilling his seed all over his chest and Duo''s.

Heero''s release had caused the muscles wrapped tightly around Duo to contract. The added tension drove Duo over the edge, and he came, buried deep inside of Heero. ""Heero!"" he cried, as he collapsed on his new lovers chest.

As their heartbeats slowed, and their breathing steadied, Duo crawled back up the bed and pressed himself against Heero. Pulling the blankets over them both, Duo looked up at the Japanese pilot. ""Heero?""

""Hn?""

""Do you ever want to do this again? Cause I know I do.""

""Duo?""

""Yeah?""

""Ai shiteru,"" Heero whispered, leaning down to capture Duo''s lips in a gentle kiss, a far cry from the intense kisses of fifteen minutes prior.

""I''ll take that as a yes,"" Duo smiled at him, then kissed him again.

""There they go again. How many is that?"" Quatre asked Trowa, as he peeked out from under the pillow he was holding over his head.

""Four, by my count,"" Trowa replied dryly, pulling Quatre closer to him.

""For a guy who never talks, Heero sure can be loud,"" Quatre pouted, resting his head on Trowa''s chest.

""It just means his lungs are healthy.""

The Arab pilot glared at his lover. ""If I didn''t know better, I''d almost say you found this amusing."" When Trowa looked away, a small smile on his face, Quatre sighed and rested his forehead on Trowa''s shoulder. Then he glanced up at him, smiling wickedly. ""We could always try drowning them out.""

For some reason, Trowa found this idea immensely amusing. ""Whatever you say, koibito.""

""Great!"" Quatre beamed, then jumped out of the bed. He spent several minutes rummaging around in his drawers. Finally he wailed, ""I can''t find the damn lube!""

""Duo!"" the now familiar pleasured cry came again.

Blue eyes widened in sudden understanding. ""Duo you bastard! You stole it!"" He rushed into the hallway and began banging on Heero''s door, shouting. ""Duo you jerk! Stealing things from me! I need that lube! Now I don''t get any tonight! Come out here and give it back you son of a bitch! Duo!""

Trowa just lay on the bed and laughed until tears streamed down his face. Wufei grabbed a sleeping bag and went to sleep in the hangar, muttering about horny kisamas and justice the whole way.



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