1.
i wander through the love maze, glamour heavy
elegant, sexless drag princess
to join in
polyamorous kisses
like a thousand butterflies over water
set free from heart cages
in rib cages
a pale lipsticked rain bow
smiling
"youre still a white dove"
2.
"love is meaningless."
you said, blank and pale
like you were bone white death
behind the night sky
i hung on to the trace of a fading star
in your glazed eye
i said just believe
you said bullshit
and pushed me away
the irony is
you threw away my love
like a maya angelou hallmark card
and when you do
i hate you
3.
one tear for you
one tear in the sea
one tear for the flower children
one tear for me
falling white petals
the only pure thing left in an earth turned black
he loves me. he loves me not
he loves me. he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not.
4.
dandelion children turned into wraiths.
i found myself in a dead shadow house
all rooms identical, flat and untouchable
too warped to fit various brain outlets
i saw i was a ghost afraid of mirrors
and no one knew me.
looking for a way out, some light in the black
id forgotten the words of an eyeless ghost in a dream
to not go into that place
and i found myself in vomit light
and there, sable mass of silent death
a tomb
i was newborn in reverse, back up into some alien womb
too soon, fuck you, wouldnt fight, turned back
up stairs , up stairs warping and narrowing
and then
the bone white death boy
nihilist for a moment
suddenly alive
stops me, whats wrong, what are you doing?
a kiss, an escape
like a stretch patent glitter death rocket
away from the lull of a black hole
5.
safe for a moment
retreating, emerging, hiding
mundane creature, new light
crosses my path, glowing.
i fell to my knees in reverence
6.
i found myself somewhere else
everything erratic
nothing changed
and then again the sable dark
silent death hovers closer
and i gather all my power
fuck you fuck you ill fucking rip you to pieces
im made of oxygen and vines and burning blood
you came too soon
this isnt the time
ill rip you apart
ill absorb you
ill banish you to the fucking shithole you came from
im not afraid.
and then
7.
im here with you.
mohawked drunken savior
sent by some wise Goddess
and you ask me where i was
and i say i dont know
and i tell you you saved me
and somehow you understand.
i have to think hard to remember you
homopompic trip... beautiful illusion?
is this some new world?
where the fuck am i?
im living in a dream.
