Mood:  not sure

I'm lying here in bed listening to/watching one of my old favourite bands, feeling nostalgic. Remembering how much fun we had back then. Trying to remember fun things I've done in the last five years, and I come up with...nothing! Scary! It's not that I haven't had any fun at all, just nothing worth remembering for years to come. Or maybe it's just because I'm so zen, and into the moment. Nah, probably not. I'm just not into my life right now. I'm not diggin' it. The only one that can actually do something about it is me, but I don't know where to begin. What it all boils down to is one thing; money. And that is a factor that feels kind of out of my control right now...even though I'm sure it's not. Everyone else is making it work (as Tim Gunn would say), rite? Then why can't I?    

I don't mean to sound all sentimental, it's more like stated facts that I needed to get out of my system.  Thanks for listening.