I cannot believe it.... I found my daughter!
Praise God! Halleluiah!
I am still flying so high on the clouds.
I was so nervous when I first called her. I couldn't even leave a message on her answering machine. I didn't know what to say.
What do I say....... Hi could you please call me back, I gave you up for adoption 25 years ago?, Or... I know, even better, Hi, my name is... Mom, atleast thats what you would have called me if...... No..... that wouldn't work either.
Hmmmmmmmm
Then the answering machine came on.....so....... quickly, and I do mean quickly, I hung up. Can you believe it? I just hung up!
I cried for hours, I felt like I couldn't breathe I was petrified. Why couldn't she have been there
I asked God to give me the right words to say. I know He did, He kept my mouth quiet!(for a change!)
Now what? What if she calls me back, what will I say?? I was so relieved, she didn't call, but at the same time I was so upset that she didn't call.
Talk about mixed emotions.
It was 2:30 am and the phone rang. My husband answered it and told whoever it was that I was sleeping. I thought nothing of it until the next morning. Tom said that 2:00 am phone call last night was for me, the person who kept calling "this" number in California, I told them you would call them back tomorrow afternoon. . ......
I just about dropped my coffee.
I got on my knees and asked God to give me the right things to say so that Joy would know how much I have always loved her. I wanted Joy to know that I didn't want to disrupt her life, just to let her know how very much she was loved.
I kept walking from one end of the house to the next, just looking at the phone. Finally it was 10:30 am. I thought I better call now before I lose my courage. I started to dial and then realized it there was a three hour time difference. I hung up again. Whew! A reprieve.
What if she doesn't want to talk to me? What if she is angry with me for "abandoning" her. What if.......
Thats all I could think about. What if........
I went about doing the things I would normally do, all the while thinking I should call, but so afraid to. I finally got the courage to call Joy. The phone seemed to barely ring before a young lady answered.
She said hello, I said hi, my name is Debbie and you do not know me......... but 25 years ago I was 16 and had given the most beautiful baby up for adoption. We both started to cry..........
Well, it has been 2 months since we found each other! Praise God! What a glorious time this is! He has blessed me so very much. I found my daughter and we are friends!!! What a wonderful time we are having. we talk almost daily :-) We share so much in common, it just amazes us sometimes. Joy is a beautiful young lady that I love and respect so very much. I am ecstatic to be a small part of her life........ I love you honey! I always have and always will.
God is so wonderful to have reunited us both! Now all I have to do is get her to move to Florida so we can be closer! LOL
